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Well, I doubt that anyone is actually reading this, but ya know, I like to talk to myself too!
hmmm, lets see, I've been writng for as long as I can remember, I've always loved it!
hmm, other things I love you ask? Well my pretty, I shall tell you. I love animals, I always have an imidiate connection with them, maybe it's because they can't talk... but it just seems like when you want to punch out a wall, you can just turn to a dog and talk to them, and it's almost like they understand the deeper side of you.
Okay so far I'm the crazy lady who talks to herself and animals. Not deneying it, but I do have another side.
I guess it's the more shallow side of me. I have to be perfect, my hair has to be immpecable, my make-up has to be flawless, and I CAN'T gain weight. Most of all, I hate it, but I can't escape it.
I'd like to say one of my talents is reading peoples faces, feeling what they feel, I guess thats why I'm pretty god at making friends.
But then I wonder if it's really a talent, if I really benifit from it at all. Sure I have some really good friends, whome I love, I live a good life. Thats what I tell people anyway.
I don't want to sit here and tell some sob story about how I'm the popular girl who just wants to escape from it all because I can't stand the pressure, and I just want to be normal.
I don't hate the life I live, I have fun, but I just wish people knew who I was. Knew that I am actaully deep. I actually so care about other people and I'm not as conceited as people think.
If I had the chance to escape, would I?
I probably would, but my mom always says, if everyone took their problems and laid them on a table, we'd all take our own back.
I learn to live with what God gave me, I try to make the best of it, and I'm still breathing, so that muct be a good sign
I don't think that there is any girl out there who hasn't had to face changing in gym.
It's probably not peace on earth for you guys, but if you had to live as a girl, trust me, its torture.
Here are actual things I've heard in the Change room.

*Name changed

"OH my God Amanda*, your legs are huge" (her legs were most definately NOT huge)
"I know,"
"If my legs were like that, I'd kill myself."
(and these two girls were best friends.)

Girls are complete Bitches to each other, I mean a girl says something, not as an insult, but as an observation in a change room, such as "Anna* you've gained weight." and she feels targeted, in the spotlight.

Another thing I guess you should know about me, I'm very outspoken, if someone Pisses me off, I will most definately tell them about it. I don't like to be the cause of drama, theres enough of that without someone causing it, so I don't pick fights for fun, but if someone is bullying someone, or says something to me thats offensive, or unfair, I will tell them about it
I guess that could work as a good thing or a bad thing

Well for those of you... if any... that have stucl around to read up to this point, I'll stop here so I don't loose you as well.

Lovelovelovelovelove

Bye