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I am random, that's a warning to you now.

007 dinosaurs is the best game in the world to play. Don't know how? Well.. seriously, sucks to be you. And yes, it's as stupid as it sounds, but wow... whatever.

If this is nothing like YOUR profile... well sorry.. this is mine and I like it.

I'm not out here to make you different. I'm here to live my life as I want it, that's it. So get over it.

I have some bad experiences in life... getting over some. I have things I regret, but everyone does.

Alright, I stand about 5'6'' and weigh 79 pounds. I am NOT underweight, in fact, I think I need to loose more weight. I have blonde hair that I absolutely hate, but everyone loves, so I keep it. I have peircing blue eyes, I love them. They have silver specks in them and are known to change to completely different colors according to others. Who knows though, I can't see them myself except in a mirror, and I don't make it a point to look all the time. I wear lots of liner because it makes my eyes look more harsh and they pop out more. I wear dark colors because I LIKE THEM. I don't restrict my wardrobe to dark however, I do have green, reds and whites. My hair sticks up in what you would call an "emo cut" but whatever, just comes from arguing with your best friend about how sharp or dull a razor is :S. If you MUST know, just ask, I'll answer if I'm in a good mood. I have freckles that I HATE. I want them gone.

I love to act. Pretending to be someone who is totally different than me and doesn't have a care or problem in the world. I have been in multiple plays and in fact, am in one now. I sing soprano, though, I think I sound like a dying frog, I never am swayed by what others say about it either. I also like to dance. Again, I don't think I'm very good, but I like it, so I don't care what you think about it.

I love animals, they are the things I can talk to that listen and never talk back. I guess it would be nice to tell people about problems that I have, but animals don't judge and they love you no matter what.

If you want to email me, you must ASK and I MIGHT give out my email, I do not want my email on display for everyone to see because I don't want a bunch of random crap from people I don't know.

SKILLET is the best band in the enitre world, don't argue with me. Close runner-ups are Madina Lake- who I think is also my favorite, Breaking Benjamin, Santana, Disturbed, Green Day, Flyleaf and My Chemical Romance. The Last Night, Diary of Jane, Me Vs. The World, Into the Night, I Kissed a Girl (no, I really didn't, but this song is pimp), My Heart Will Go On, Will You Be There and Yours To Hold are SOME of my favoritest songs, basically, anything from Skillet is automatically on the list =3. And no, not all my favorite bands are on there- nor are all my favorite songs, there are too many and I'm not going ot list them all. >.<

Oh ya! And I love smileys that aren't technically smileys! >=3 =3 XD X3 ^_^ ^.^ >.> <.< >.< T.T O.O O.o o.O <(^_^)> (>^_^)> <(^_^<) :S V.V *.* @.@

Ninjas are another thing I love. They are so dark and mysterious. They are a sign of power, yet, they are not huge. That, and the fact that they can kill people in so many different ways. Also, go see Kung Fu Panda and you'll see why ^.^ best movie in THE WORLD!!

I love the colors red, purple and black. Lionfish are my favorite animal, and so are tigers. I am a night person, and I HATE getting up early. I have braces. And I love gum LOL, not quite the combination you are supposed to have. I love the smell of vanilla and burnt marshmellow. And I also can't spell all that great LOL, I've been known to misspell my own name! So don't judge me XD.

I am normaly quiet and shy, I don't reach out very easily, but when I get to know you, I'm very close to my friends. And I have lots of em! ^.^ I'm very sweet and playful around my friends and others who are on my good side.

BUT, when I'm in public and don't know anyone, I will act like a complete idiot with my friends or just by myself. I don't care about what others think about me. If they think I'm retarded, cool, if they think I'm wicked sweet, that's awesome. Good for them. However, you diss on me and you better look out. My little toys, the sniper- for subtle and quick deaths, flamethrower- for intense pain and tourcherous deaths, and my favorite, the bazooka- for those quick jobs that you just want to make messy, will be hunting you down. You hurt my friends, I'll make you BEG for me to kill you. So don't do it.

I am blunt. The end. You ask me to tell you something, I'll tell you the truth, no sugar added, free of charge. Ok, I can be sarcastic sometimes.. but only a lot. I'm also what you would consider a bitch, but I'm only like that to people I dislike. I'm just a fun loving, over touchy, random girl.

Love is NOT defined by what gender you are. If a man wants to love another man, that is love. If a woman wants to love another woman, that is love. If a man and woman want to love each other, that is love.
A woman's daughter came up to her and said "Mom... I have a confession. I'm not normal."
"What do you mean?" she asked.
"I love this girl... and she loves me too."
"Oh, hun, that's just fine! In fact, why don't you invite her over for dinner? I'd like very much to meet her."
The girl couldn't believe her ears. "What?"
"Do you want to invite her over for dinner?" Her mom asked again.
Her husband walked in at that moment. "Who are we inviting for dinner?" he asked.
"Our daughter's girlfriend," the mom replied simply.
"WHAT?!" the dad screamed and raised his hand to backhand his daughter. "We will NOT have a lebian as a daughter!"
The mom walked up to him and punched him right in the mouth. "YOU may not, but I don't CARE, she's MY daughter and I'll support her no matter what!" She walked out the door with her hand grasping her daughter's. "We're done," she said over her shoulder. "Now, how about we go meet this girlfriend of yours?" she asked her daughter.
A prime example that people can accept other's the way they are. No matter what. And that no matter what gender loves what gender, it's still love. AND NO, I AM NOT LESBIAN OR BI AND WILL NEVER BE!

A man stood at the gates of Heaven waiting to be let in. A golden man stood in front of him baring the way. "You have to pass a test in order to have admitance," he told him.
The man wanting in asked, "What kind of test?"
"I will ask two questions, you then answer truthfully."
"Ok."
"Have you found joy in your life?"
"Yes" the man said.
"Has your life brought joy in other's lives?"
The man was silent.
HAS YOUR LIFE BROUGHT JOY INTO OTHER'S?



Isn't it funny that when you go to the shops with your friends you look down at the girl with black jeans and studs but smile at the girl wearing a mini with a t-shirt that barely covers anything?
Isn't it funny you can change your music taste to imperess a guy but when it comes to a girl who likes her own music and her own style you give her a mouthful?
Isn't it funny that a guy can get away with being a gansta but the emo gets a mouthful from everyone.
Are you laughing?
Isn't it funny an emo can be quiet all through the week but gets more shit from everyone than the girl who sleeps around and sells her virginity?
Isn't it funny that you dont mind your friends drinking smoking but the minute someone mentions emo music you can give them a leture on melodramatic teenage outcasts?
I'm not laughing.
Isn't it so funny that you and your friends can make a girl's life hell and not know anything about the silent battle she might be fighting.
Isn't it funny that you can call emos punks and goths the retards but still manage to get through your day without and inch of guilt through your heart?
Isn't it funny that you'll dump a girl if she happens to cut herself but you'll work it out with a girl who cheats?
HOW CAN YOU CALL A GIRL A POSER, HOW CAN YOU SAY "YOUR NOT EMO" OR "ATTENTION SEEKER" WITHOUT SPENDING A SECOND TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY THERE ARE CUTS ON HER WRISTS AND WHY SHE SPENDS HER LUNCHTIMES CRYING INSTEAD OF LAUGHING WITH HER FRIENDS?

If you believe this is true, post it on your profile.

A POEM THAT I FELL IN LOVE WITH BY dante-emo:

ice cold heart
when you open your eyes,
tell me what you see,
tell me that i'm cold as ice,
and you have no feelings for me.
i'm hurt and torn and no one loves me,
i wish i was never born,
so you dont have to see me.
if you cut me...
there won't be pain,
even as the blood,
gushed out of my veins.
hear me say so,
this message to you,
just because i'm emo,
doesnt mean i dont love you.


And time for some random stuff:

"Girls are like phones they like to be held & talked to but press the wrong button you'll be disconnected." <--- This is brilliant

You're All of This to Me <-- this poem is how I used to feel

You're the thought that starts each morning,
the conclusion to each day.
You are in all that I do,
and everything I say.

You're the smile on my face,
the twinkle in my eye.
The warmth insdie my heart,
the fullness in my life.

You're the hand that's laced in mine,
the coat upon my back.
My friend, my love,
my shoulder to lean on.

You're my silly, mature, caring,
thoughtful, bright and honest guy.
The one who holds me tightly,
when I need to cry.

You're the dimple in my cheek,
the ever-constant tingle in my soul.
The vioce that makes me weak,
the happiness of my life.

You are all I've wanted,
you are all I need.
You are all I've deamed of,
you are all of this to me.
-Melissa Collette

"Love is giving up a part of yourself and allowing that part to be filled by someone else." <-- so true

In Love <-- this is also how I used to feel

This feeling overwhelms me
A swelling of the heart
I never truly thought I would be
This happy at the start.

You take me by the hand
And lead me by the heart
Over a beach of sand
Through the grasses that we part.

With you I let go
Of intuition and sound of mind
My feelings I cannot help but show
To a person who is so kind.

You kiss my lips so tender
Embrace me through the night
To you I have surrendered
Myself so hold on tight.

So strongly you hold my hand
Whisper softly in my ear
I really feel that you understand
Everything you hear.

I lose myself in you
This close I have never been
These feelings are so new
To have a lover who is my friend.
-Michelle LaNoce

"I'm lost, depressed and frightened,
For you're not here with me.
And somewhere deep inside my heart,
My lover, you'll always be."
-Benedicta Goveia ^^ how much I hate it, it's true. Heart aches suck just so you know.

"Annie thought for a minute. "It's going to take a long time to heal. I'm just going to miss him for a while." Annie grew more reflective, and her voice softer, more thoughtful, as she struggled to put her feelings into words. "We were so close....It almost feels....It almost feels like a part of me has been taken away, a part I can't get back."
-Melinda Faveau ^^ that's how I feel now

Sorrow Underneath (<--- So me, Tyler, eat your heart out)

I think of all my problems.
I think of all my pain.
I think of all my sorrows,
Until I go insane.

I think of all the smiles I've worn,
Which hide sorrows underneathe.
No one seems to notice,
That I go through so much grief.

My tears seem to keep flowing,
Inside my tired eyes.
Each time I want to tell you,
My words come out as lies.

These days' I'm feeling distant,
Far away and weak.
My sadness pulls me further,
From the happiness I seek.

I've just begun to realize,
That my hopes and dreams are gone,
I'm walking down a dead end road,
Humming a tuneless song.

I'm standing on a rooftop,
Although I'm scared of heights,
I'm watching the cars beneath me move,
And somehow this doesn't feel right.

Now I thinking of what I'm doing,
I know I should find a way,
To beat through my depression,
Will I be able to someday?
-Zihanna Rahman

"My friend lives in darkness, for she is blind.
She can see with her ears and nose.
She can sense when I am sad,
She can smell my tears in the air.
I tell her how beautiful she is and she nods, taking my face in her hand.
"And you are beautiful, too."
-Zoe Graye ^^Something about those words make me cry

"Just as placed the edge of the knife on my wrist, my cell phone rang and interrupted my focus. I couldn'tunderstand why anyone would be calling me this late. I answered it.
Dave's voice cracked through my cell phone."I'm just calling to tell you that I love you. I don't know what I'd ever do without you."
With tears once again welling up in my eyes, I said "I love you, too."
I put the knife away, drove home and went to sleep. A few weeks later, the first time either of us had spoke of that night, Dave told me that he had an urgent feeling that he should call me and tell me he loved me. He called it a gut feeling or an intuition. I broke down and told him what his gut feeling had done for me, and for the first time I saw my best friend with a tear in his eye and a smile on his face as he told me life would just be "life" unless we experienced it together"
-Adam Cohen ^^ no, they're not gay and this is a touching story

Why There Are Friends <-- I love my friends to death, they stick with me through hell

Because... they smile.
Because... they understand just by looking in your eyes.
Because... they finish you sentences and know what you like.
Because... they know you better than you know yourself.
Because... with them you aren't afraid to be yourself.
Because... you can say something stupid or expose your deepest secrets to them.
Because... everything you do together becomes a memory.
Because... you don't need to do something special to have fun... fun just happens.
Because... you don't need to explain anything...they just know.
Because... they tell you the truth, no matter how much you'd rather not hear it.
Because... they would do anything for you and get you out of trouble.
Because... they make you laugh harder than anyone.
Because... they are not afraid to put themselves on the line for you.
Because... you can trust them.
Because... they believe in your dreams, no matter how silly they may seem.
Because... they dry your tears.
Because... you are good enough wher you are with them.
Because... they love you for who you really are.
-Kristy Glassen



I used to have the guy of my dreams, but I made a bad phycological decision and he left, read my poems, you'll figure out what I did. I still love him with everything I've got. He had the perfect personality in the world. Funny, smart (even though he denied it, he was EXTREMELY smart), he was kind, gentle, caring, loving. He knew just what to say to me when I needed it the most. And to wrap it all up, he was hot ^_^! He made me feel loved. But, I've swept up the peices of my heart and duct taped it back together, sometimes you just have to do it. DUCT TAPE FIXES EVERYTHING EVEN THOUGH THE PRODUCT ISN'T AS PERFECT AS IT WAS BEFORE IT WAS BROKEN! I still want him to come back to me, and I still want him to love me, but it's looking kind of grim for that. But what can you do eh?

"I'm crying without you to hold me. I'm screaming without you talking to me. I'm hurting myself without you caring. I'm dying without your heart loving me."

I've given my heart out to one guy, and he kept it. I'm not opening it back up for anyone else either, he's the one I'll love until the day I die, don't bother trying and change it, you will get no where.

And I love you Tyler, forever and ever as long as my heart beats. Even though you don't love me.

"Imature love is I love you because I need you, mature love is I need you because I love you." A very true quote that I love