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  • Column: How to Write a Good Poem at allpoetry
    How to Write a Good Poem
  • A Rainy Life at allpoetry
    Have you seen the weather report?
    Cloudy
  • Funeral's Never Die at allpoetry
    I am at the funeral of a friend and I know,
    After today he will be another grave out of millions.
  • Dad, I'm sorry at allpoetry
    Life hates me I write to my wife.
    Suicide note.
  • Chasing Time at allpoetry
    There is a house beside an acridity creak
    Worn to the weathering grave.
  • What the Hell? at allpoetry
    There is something going on over there.
    I can smell it in the air with squinted eyes.
  • I Left a Note at allpoetry
    I left a note before I was gone.
    I want to dance with you upon hilly grass tops.
  • I'll Sing it From the Gravetops at allpoetry
    Yes,
    My parents have money.
  • My Cat is the Only One... at allpoetry
    Did you know I am a member of the club?
    I hate myself.
  • Another Empty Bottle at allpoetry
    Number five
  • Leaving but Never Going at allpoetry
    Have you ever been bolted in a mental hospital?
    Have you?
  • The ScareCrow at allpoetry
    Nail me in the cornfield,
    To a dirty wooden post.
  • Your Own Shadow Will Stay Behind? at allpoetry
    Slit wrists and throats,
    For the weak ones.
  • Possessed by Love at allpoetry
    Possessed by Love
  • The Slice of a Pen at allpoetry
    My pen slips.
    The ink slides across the page,
  • Caught on Fire at allpoetry
    I stand on the bridge.
    It is thundering madly in my brain.
  • A Teardrop of Death at allpoetry
    Let the corner close both eyes,
    Let the heavens blow frost through the nighttime breeze,
  • One of Those at allpoetry
    My sister was one of those,
    You know.
  • Into the Dark at allpoetry
    The Grey Hound bus lurches into the darkness.
    The road curves and bends.
  • the Golden Life at allpoetry
    I feel like shit
    She looks like gold.
  • The Circle of Life at allpoetry
    The funeral creeps onward,
    Like a musky smell from a nearby factory air.
  • Where Did I Place That Warranty at allpoetry
    I am use to taking pills.
    I am.
  • Brick by Brick at allpoetry
    A rope is securely fastened around my head.
    Hanging does not satisfy my hunger for death,
  • Roses Bloom and Die at allpoetry
    Roses are dying and it is all for me?
    As I look at the washing machine I cry.
  • Erasing the Light at allpoetry
    The only light that will be visible is the size of an eraser. It moves closer to my lips with every inhale.
  • The Emergence of a Cold Cloudy Night at allpoetry
    A tear drop memory, / Sunset of pink, / A mist a blue, / My tiny hand held by you. / Splendor of love, / Rolling across the dewy morning grass. / Lips touch with soft passion. / Eyes that reflect matching
  • Shedding No Light at allpoetry
    The world crumbles in my eyes. / I light two cigarettes. / I have a plan. / No more sunshine / Trading pain like trading baseball cards. / A packed office of ignorance. / A packed office of the broken. / A
  • They Took My Shotgun From Me at allpoetry
    How? / Why? / For what? / Questions speeding through the knot in my head. / He left me with solemn eyes. / I left him with sorrowful regrets. / He left me with an awkward frown. / I left him with accumulati
  • Hearse My Name All You Want at allpoetry
    Today is my day. / I am finally the first in the line of life / I wave goodbye from my hearse. / Yes, fun to know you. / Great times. / I’ll miss you. / Oh- life was good. / So many things I want to say. / Bul
  • The Marching Band at allpoetry
    We are all dying to a different beat. / And all we can do is watch and let the band play. / Let my skin age. / Let my teeth rot / Let my face sag. / Let my children move away. / Let me blow out another poorly made
  • The Santa From Hell at allpoetry
    The Santa From Hell / I laugh and snicker while I grind my teeth. / The match is lighted. / I toss it and watch the gasoline ignite the Christmas tree. / The fire reflects in my blazing eyes. / I snicker. /
  • Sunday is Coming and I Don't Give a Damn at allpoetry
    I had a mother. / I had a father. / I had a brother. / I had a dog. / I had love. / I had a family. / Irrelevant facts of mysterious emotion. / Thoughts of youthful days when my loving mother called me insi
  • An Upside Down Life at allpoetry
    I look around my upside down room. / A reflection. / My face growing pale. / My emotions like the blood pouring from the razor cuts. / My mom begs me to eat with teary eyes. / My tears join hers from the depth
  • Another Broken Pencil at allpoetry
    My pencil stops moving as my dreams drift from the monotonous office life. / As I day dream of my car tires slashed and a hole dug in the ground. / This dream goes day by day through my mind- a radio song. / I won’t be
  • A Slice of Cake for Everyone at allpoetry
    I bought birthday hats for my dog and cat. / I bought balloons filled with helium. / Sucking in the helium from a balloon, I laughed. / Everything is as perfect as it will ever be. / The cake sits in a frost cove
  • Throwing the Party of my Life at allpoetry
    I go ahead and load the shotgun. / I have a smile that outshines the sun. / My fingers move steadily. / My laughter and snickering is drown out by the pulling trigger of the shotgun to my head. / I tie the noose
  • One Name at a Time at allpoetry
    Just another name on a list. / History has its lists. / I have my own. / Just another lost and forgotten soul. / History has its forgotten souls / I have my own. / My life is a walking book of vanishing perso
  • Beautiful Flowers at allpoetry
    The love of my life will surly not be depressed. / A concoction of dainty flowers glow as wide as my smile. / Her sorrows will not exist within powerful treats. / I can smell the scent of life and the ecstasy of a golde
  • [ Just Another Book ] at allpoetry
    Just Another Book / As each second does tick, / The candle eats the glowing wick, / with every sigh and heaving breath, / you are saying hello to the angel of death. / Yet, through the murky swamp water on
  • Another Ice cube at allpoetry
    Rum and coke is all I order. / It seems to impair my insanity. / My name melts away like the ice cubs in my drink. / I grasp the fourth round with a smile on my face. / I tap my finger along to the heated beat. / A
  • Ashes at allpoetry
    A rose dipped in a perfect red ink smiles at me warmly. / It has dainty pedals along with thorns to stop any ill doings. / I pick up the rose and try to smell its burning scent. / Get a moment of a red passion ecs
  • The Gates Are Opening at allpoetry
    At the age of 65. / She is searching for more years of life. / Sadly she “goggled” it with little luck. / Wheel chair bound. / Another broken leg. / Falls down when she drinks. / An alcoholic. / Alone /
  • Go Ahead and Clap at allpoetry
    I Narrate: / I stand before you in a spotlight. / The light represents human existence in void of emptiness / I Stand before you with a knife. / Look into my eyes and feel the burning pain. / My eyes develop in
  • An Empty Pill Head at allpoetry
    Do you hear that music I am dancing too? / Do you hear the guitar string- some beautiful tones? / Do you feel the beat of that heavy drum? / Do you see the singer bob his head and cross his legs? / I ask you- do you h
  • Lost in the LIght at allpoetry
    Nobody gives a damn the gas station employee says as she chews her bubble gum and shows her missing teeth. / Cry under a bridge says the homeless man following the stars to Jesus’s rebirth. / Don’t care if you live or say
  • An Emotional Mess and An Emotional Nothing at allpoetry
    I Narrate: / I stand before you in a spotlight. / The light represents human existence in void of emptiness / I Stand before you with a knife. / Look into my eyes and feel the burning pain. / My eyes develop in
  • Can I Break Your Glasses? at allpoetry
    I once admired him for his overwhelming competence. / His glasses seemed to be his only imperfection. / He works by the universal clock and skewed anxiety. / Never stopping. / Never pausing. / Never ending. / He l
  • Christmas is Around the Corner at allpoetry
    I am crying. / I am wailing. / Blood drips from my cuts. / Self inflicted. / My boyfriend slaps me for my inconvenience. / My mom pats me on the back. / My dad shakes his head / I have a pen in my pocket. / I
  • Another Doctor and Another Freak at allpoetry
    Do you see the tears run down my face? / Or are they only visible in your bills? / You write with the ease of my onsets of depression. / My best interests fades in the light of your own. / You go ahead and tell me it
  • You Bought My Heart and I'm Buying the Liqour at allpoetry
    Another lost love I never really had. / Another nightmare of being alone. / Incomplete / Empty. / Abandoned. / Somebody help me- I scream. / / I rip up all the flowers in my garden. / One by one I strangle an
  • "It’s GetN Hot in here!” at allpoetry
    Go ahead and skin me like a fish. / You have the knife. / See what is underneath. / broken. / Loveless. / Heartless. / Otherwise you can’t see past my red lipstick? / / Tie me on the cross. / It is lit and
  • Palm Avenue at allpoetry
    I see three cars in the driveway. / Only two drivers. / I see a dreamy size  pool / It is covered in leaves. / There is a basketball / But nobody to hold it. / A tree house looms in the trees. / No laughte
  • Hiding In the Spotlight at allpoetry
    Yes look at him now- / A good looking, healthy- what can I say-but- a… success. / Yes look at me now- / Looking dirty, loosing health- what can I say- but- a… failure. / / Find me with a mouth full of grass outside
  • Not Refundable at allpoetry
    I am nothing more than a worn record player. / Hear me skip. / / You had said I was a Christmas present just dropped on your dirty doorstep. / You had said I was nothing less than a blessing from the twinkling stars.
  • One Ruined Life after Another at allpoetry
    My praises are buckets of clear ocean water / -Never-ending. / My words like tissue in the wind. / -blown away. / The windy moon lit beach I profess my love to you. / / At least you didn’t laugh or snicker at my
  • A Diploma From Death at allpoetry
    Everyday until that diploma was handed to me- / My refuge. / My sanctuary. / My life. / My ambitions. / My heart. / / Next to the rusty playground swings I had my first kiss. / A well deserved ten minute time
  • Common' Give the Doc A Break? at allpoetry
    I don’t understand where he finds the equilibrium? / A life of shots and pills. / Another forced smile and sideways glance. / He knows patients are never as intelligent as he is. / Perhaps the biggest truth but his gr
  • Mom Let Me Paint the House Red for you. at allpoetry
    “Cut my life into pieces” / the blood drips from my wrists. / The tears drips from my eyes. / We fought our last fight. / Heaven for you / hell for me. / The only way it should be- / The only way. / / I ac
  • My dear Let Me Paint the House Red for you. at allpoetry
    “Cut my life into pieces” / the blood drips from my wrists. / The tears drips from my eyes. / We fought our last fight. / Heaven for you / hell for me. / The only way it should be- / The only way. / / I ac
  • Starbucks and Non-Fat Blueberry Muffins. at allpoetry
    I look at the playground that use to be mine. / I look at the children that use to be me. / I look at the happiness that was once mine. / I look at the innocence and I… I’m baffled. / It all goes so fast. / / I h
  • Just Another Spot on a Cow at allpoetry
    I raised my glass and began my toast. / I would like to toast the happy couple I say, / “To your new best friend and a forgotten me.” / Everyone raised their glasses and toasted my wise words. / / A husky man in th
  • 3:37 A.M. ... again... and;; angain.. and... at allpoetry
    It is 3:37 A.M. and sweet slumber has left me along with my youthful soul. / To late for the company of a glass of wine. / To early for the premium fuel of a glass of coffee. / / In the night’s company,  I walk
  • Standing Still as the World Moves on at allpoetry
    I break yet another warm body’s heart. / I cause another raindrop, on a perfect face, from the endless storm that is my life. / People compliment life's “failures” but I tell the painful truth. / You say your dad is ju
  • There is no Reflection at allpoetry
    / The day I was sentenced to life they named me “failure”. / / My ten years worth of college degrees are printed tactfully in white ink. / My friends are dwindling like the number of beers t
  • Living a Dead Life at allpoetry
    The lipstick has been freshly and tactfully applied.
    Colors which are sure to coincide with the brilliance of the day.
  • The Only One in Existence at allpoetry
    My windshield wipers are not fast enough to stop the pain tumbling from my eyes.
    I put the cigarette out on my arm.
  • Another Season at allpoetry
    I love her- I want her- I need her.
    I give my nervous grin.
  • Bury me under My Oak Tree at allpoetry
    I am shopping for a casket-.
    Do you mind if I make sure it fits?
  • Where is my son at allpoetry
    Where is my son?
    BY: J.B.
  • It is Just a Dream at allpoetry
    All those dreams I had when I was a scrapped knee, waist tall, mother’s angel…
    Where have they all gone?
  • Looking for a NEW CAR! at allpoetry
    He meanders near a busy intersection.
    Long years and endless fights are sketched into his face.
  • Short Bio [ Living for Eternity] at allpoetry
    A short info on my drug life and where my life went and is going.
  • Where is my Night Time Beauty at allpoetry
    A single light flickers manically on a lamppost over the road.
    The night-time stock market will soon be in full swing and beckoning trouble
  • The Only Way to Die at allpoetry
    The Right way to die... Well worded- well thought out- depressing but does it come off well? Tell me... Life can really get to some people?
  • Where Has All The Apple Juice Gone? at allpoetry
    My youth- fading My life- ending My world- dieing.... ya ya ya... go ahead and let me cry.
  • A Spreading Infection at allpoetry
    A tribute- a story- a hell- the sad truths of the unknown.
  • Entangled in Love at allpoetry
    Look into my blazing eyes and assure me of your love.
    Hold my timid hand on your heart and let me feel it beat.
  • Sunshine at allpoetry
    Another dark depressing moment- I live for them.
  • Burning Time at allpoetry
    I know a man-
    He once played in a tree house his dad built.
  • Just Another Junkie In Another MAD WORLD at allpoetry
    Look at her dirty fingernails.
    Looks at her smoke stained face.
  • Bring me Death on a Silver Platter at allpoetry
    There is my dentist that bought himself a new car.
    There is a barber that cuts my hair.
  • All about the Color Red at allpoetry
    I hate my life- I hate my life- I hate my life
    Pitter Patter goes the rain.
  • Today is Trash Day at allpoetry
    Life and its truth
  • Dreams are for Winners at allpoetry
    Feed the cat.
    Take out the garbage.
  • My Dragon Slaying Hero at allpoetry
    Things cannot always be,
    Like this- just you and me.
  • Remind me to Write My Senator at allpoetry
    Working to pay a house note.
    More gasoline costs more money.
  • Just Another Night at allpoetry
    Another song rambles, from a half broke radio, through the frosty air.
    The lightening conducts its grand orchestra of tyranny.
  • A Love of Endeavoring Heights at allpoetry
    Satin’s tongue inspired hate filled moments.
    Satin’s tongue but my words.
  • Let the Music Play at allpoetry
    Can you hold me?
    Wrap me in your arms?
  • This nightmare is No Dream at allpoetry
    Music-
    To my ears,
  • A Calico of Thoughtless Expressions at allpoetry
    Wine- better with age.
    An aging me-
  • Lions, Tigers, and God? at allpoetry
    Most of my writing is fiction.
    Meaningless words.
  • Hollow- like Chocolate Easter Bunnies at allpoetry
    Lexus-.
    The car I drive.
  • Painting a Picture at allpoetry
    She smiles
    Fake.
  • A Gasp For Air at allpoetry
    Smile,
    Laugh,