Decisions-- Part 1

It was only three in the morning when Emmalee looked her alarm clock on the bedside table. To her it should have been much later, but not being able to fall asleep always did that to her. Insomnia was something she was new to. Sleepless nights and working all day was beginning to take a real toll on her body and her mind.

There were just so many things that had happened lately and to be honest with herself, she was sort of exhilarated to know they were happening to her. Modest little quiet Emmalee was having quite an adventure for herself. It was almost all worth the no sleeping and constant anxious feeling in the pit of her stomach. A whirlwind romance under her very nose. But of course there was the minor complication of the lover she already had.

None of this seemed real to her. Kaleb was comforting, and he had always been there for her up until recently. His job was taking over his life and he seemed to rarely ever have time for her. Yet she still loved him, and wanted to be able to bring him back around.

Yet now that Nathanial had come along, with his handsome smile and eyes, it was all beginning to fall apart around her. He was charming, alluring and had the air of almost being in love with himself. Those kind of men had always annoyed her before, but there was something about him that just pulled her in quickly and made her want to stay. When Kaleb was at work or ignoring her calls Nathanial was her talkative and comforting companion.

Emmalee just needed to clear her head, or at least that's what she told herself as she rolled over and tried to go back to sleep. There was no sense in breaking Kaleb's heart over Nathanial for no reason. But she couldn't help but feel that she had every reason in the world to hurt him. Hadn't he hurt her over and over again in the recent months? Ignored her calls and messages and just passed it off as he was busy? Why did she still care whether or not she hurt him?

Finally as she slid back into sleeps embrace, a dark figure slid quietly in through her unlocked window as it had so many nights before now. Mostly it was just to watch her sleep. At least that's what Nathanial told himself when he needed a reason. She was so beautiful and at peace when she slept. More than anything he wanted her to be his. Yet he had a secret he would have to tell her first.

And she was still so attached to that damn mortal Kaleb that kept hurting her. What was it with mortal women and wasting their time on lost causes. Saving them all was not an option, and yet they seemed to think it was. He loved her for her heart most of all. She thought she could change him, and at the same time he was winning her heart for his.

Being an immortal wasn't easy. All of the myth's and legends that portrayed them to be evil first of all was an annoying hindrance. He wasn't evil, and he didn't have to kill because of a 'thirst'. There was no thirst, he merely was immortal. Yet so few people could understand that. And she had her own problems. Should he really tell her what he was?

Would telling sweet Emmalee make her come to him at last over that fool Kaleb? He had watched Kaleb from afar, and what he was telling Emmalee was true. A simple workaholic was all he was, but in the beginning he had loved her. What happened to that love Nathan couldn't begin to comprehend. He could never stop loving Emmalee, she was too good. A beacon in his centuries of darkness.

She was starting to wake up more and more in the night, which made it hard for him to be here. But he just had to watch her. All the hours they spent talking couldn't sate his appetite to be with her. But he knew he must go because her sleep couldn't last long...

As the sun filtered in the curtains and woke Emmalee up she remembered the last dream she had had while in sleeps arms. It was of Nathan. Dear Nathan... He had slipped in her window to watch her sleep. This should have frightened her even in a dream, but it didn't. It was comforting. Him watching over her filled her mind with hope.

Understanding washed over her. She knew what she had to do now, but it wasn't going to be easy to let go....