Darkness Falls

Twilight will soon fall upon me. And I have no one but myself to blame.1

My addiction killed me slowly. It tore me apart, ripped my soul
I thought I could control my problem.2

Turns out, I was dead wronk
and body to shreds.3

I couldn't help but eat...and eat and eat. Sugar and Overeating were my constant friends. I would binge, try to diet, and then return to my destructive eating habits. I was out of control and I knew it.4

Food had become so powerfully addictive. Food became the Enemy. I tried diet after diet, and still I couldn't resist binging.5

I should've known better. A close family member died due to obesity-related problems. I said, "Naw, that happens to old people. Not possible. Too young to have health problems"6

How wrong I was.7

Turns out that I had heart disease. I messed up my heart so much that I could die at any time. My mouth was ravaged by gum disease and consuming too much junk. My blood pressure was high enough to kill...but somehow, I was still alive.8

I was a shadow, a shell of my former self. My life as I knew it no longer existed, a very distant memory.9

Being fat does not pay. My addiction to food was my downfall. Got me good. The Battery of Life finally ran out of power.10

Soon, the Grim Reaper will pay a visit...and take me out of this Life. As they say, you gotta pay the pauper eventually. What goes around, comes around.11

I'll never enjoy the sunshine anymore or walk down the street. I'll never get to see my friends or family, nor will I see my child grow up. I won't be able to do anything...because my addiction took over my life...and took me out of my misery.12

That's what happens when addiction gets out of hand. Everything, EVERYONE changes...and not for the better.13

My vision grows weaker and darker. I can no longer hear...or speak. As I pass over into the Beyond, I think of all the people I have left behind, the life I could've had. As they say, you never realize what you've got...until it's gone. 14

I took my life for granted. I knew that I was destroying myself from the inside out. 15

But by then, the addiction took hold. I was too far gone, beyond The Point of No Return.16

The sad things is that someone else will be raising my child, while I watch from The Beyond, unable to hold him, unable to tuck him in or take him to school. 17

I wish I could take those years of self-destruction back. But I know that's too much...too little...and too late to do that.18

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