"Breathe You In..." (KH-CoM Zexion Songfic)

DISCLIAMER- Do NOT own Kingdom Hearts or this beautiful song!
MILD YAOI,BOY X BOY! Don't read if you're homophob D;
Be gentle if you comment,I was up at 6:45am working on this.1

-Inspiration: Current Roleplay,my own obssesion with the band Stabbing Westward.2

---SONG LYRICS---3

"Breathe You In" - Stabbing Westward.
Kingdom Hearts - Chain of Memories
MaruShion / MaruZeku / MarXion / AssasinSchemer4

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---Tomorrow came too soon---
---I barely made it through today---6

Dark sapphires slowly revealed themselves as The Cloaked Schemer awoke from his dream.
He blinked dazedly in the dark,as if the sunlight had found itself peeering into his dark room.
Zexion groaned,as if he wanted to go back to sleep.7

His bed was once again empty as he began to fiddle around for his makeshift pillow.
Gone again,bastard. The Schemer sniffled quietly. Had he been used again?8

Slightly pouting,Zexion pulled himself away from the sheets to sit up,and looked around the room.
Only his clothes remained on the floor,like always.
Just like always.9

---Still empty inside---
---I guess nothing's really changed---10

Sighing,the silverish-blue haired Nobody pulled his knees close to his chest,wrapping his arms under his thighs.
Zexion trembled,placing his face into the blanket that graced his legs,sniffling quietly.11

---I'm still afraid to feel---12

Collasping onto his side,Zexion's fingers clenched around the sheets he laid upon as he stared into the wall his bed hugged so tightly.
Still he trembled,with the thought of being alone again.
All Nobodies were meant to be alone,but he couldn't bear even the slight thought of it.13

---Cause I cannot take the pain---14

He trembled with cold,not finding it within himself to pull the sheets closer.
Or was it fear he trembled for?15

---I'm still afraid to feel---16

Closing his eyes,Zexion began to have the visions from yesterday.
The one Nobody that made him feel whole flashed through his head,his inner vision.
His whole body in general.17

He didn't want to let that go!18

---Afraid to lose someone again---19

Maybe. Maybe if he had never lost his heart,Zexion wouldn't feel this way.20

---I wish that somehow---
---I could leave---21

Just maybe. Just maybe,if he open up a little bit more,he would of never left him in the mornings.
But The Schemer could never let go of his grief.22

---My past behind---
---My fears behind---23

---If I could only breathe you in---24

Taking in a slow breath of air,Zexion filled his nostrils,his lungs with the sweet honeysuckle scent that still wavered on the sheets.25

---If I could only breathe you in---26

It was sweet,fulfilling,but not enough.
Oh,it'd never be enough.27

---If I could only breathe you in---28

Zexion closed his eyes,too intoxicated to pull away from the scent.29

---Every drop of you---30

The memories flooded,and once again The Cloaked Schemer found himself hiding behind a bookshelf in Oblivion's library,gazing at the sleeping Nobody he wanted to call his own.
The Graceful Assasin.31

---I guess it's time to face the truth---32

He let his eyes cast downward,fighting off the urge to approach the sleeping Assasin.
To let his fingers play in the pinkish mane the Nobody was graced with.33

Zexion regretted not having the ability to touch!34

---And admit my past mistakes---35

He gave a tired sigh to his memories and rolled over in reality,continuing to inhale the honeysuckle scent radiating from his bed.
He was Nobody,so why did he feel this way? Why was the scent more intoxicating then ever?
Was it because he was alone?
Forgotten?
Flawed?36

---Come to terms with all that's wrong with me---37

He would never be able to amount to anything his partner had.
Could Zexion even call him his partner? He had left him alone on several occasions!38

Except on nights.
Like a graceful vampire,the other Nobody would sneak into The Schemer's dorms and whisper forbidden words to him in his sleep.
But it was never enough.39

Zexion was flawed. He'd never amount to anything.40

---And all the things I'll never be---41

---Why am I afraid to feel?---42

The Schemer sighed,wrapping his arms around his stomach as if he had been punched.43

---Afraid of what is true?---44

All he had ever wanted was gone,only to return that night,like a guardian angel.
But why did it pain him so?45

Was it because he'd rather have that angelic Nobody sleep with him into the afternoon?46

---Why am I afraid to feel?---47

The Graceful Assasin,an anti-drug.
Zexion's bliss.48

He wanted him all to himself,instead of having to share with Axel,Larxene,and Vexen.49

---When all I really want is you?---50

Zexion wanted him to himself!51

Once again,the memories of last night came rushing in.
The Assasin had come late that night,the malicious look of lust in his azure-colored eyes.
That night,the night Zexion thought he lost it all.52

---To taste your skin---53

Gripping his naked fingers into the sheets again,The Cloaked Schemer cringed,not wanting to remember the complete ectasy of last night.
It seemed like it would all rush into his partner's head.54

---To share your thoughts---55

The Nobody sniffled again,pulling into himself,like a ball.
Why did he feel this way?
He longed,no,ached for the touch of naked skin!56

---Would never be enough for me---57

---If I could only breathe you in---58

Taking another slow breath of air inward,Zexion sighed as he closed his eyes,nuzzling into the sheets as if it were his lifeline.59

---If I could only breathe you in---60

It wasn't enough. He still ached for touch!61

---If I could only breathe you in---62

Another sniffle meant more clinging to the sheets for that honeysuckle scent.63

---Every drop of you---64

---If I could only breathe you in---65

"Marluxia..."
Zexion whispered into the crisp air.66

---If I could only breathe you in---67

"What is it?"
A cool voice sounded into the room,making Zexion sit up just as quickly as he laid down.
That voice only meant one thing!68

---If I could only breathe you in---69

The Graceful Assasin hadn't left the room!
Zexion found himself grinning slightly.70

"Jerk."
He said.71

---Every drop of you---72

The other Nobody found himself smiling at the comment as he approached the bed.
With graceful steps,he lowered himself in front of The Schemer,taking his hand into his own.73

"Don't cry anymore my love."
The Assasin said,kissing Zexion's hand lightly.74

The Schemer blushed slightly,looking away from the pinkish-haired Nobody.75

"Don't leave me alone again..."
Zexion replied,clasping his fingers around the other's hand.76

The other smiled,pulling himself from the floor and atop The Cloaked Schemer.77

"Don't worry."78

---Breathe---79

With a passionate kiss,the honeysuckle scent returning,Zexion closed his eyes,feeling that naked skin he ached for.80

"I won't."