Depresed

If I dissapere off the face of the earth no one would give a flying peice of crap. The girls mainly talk to tasha. Don and Connie would have room for the girls and wouldent have to worry about me and tasha gripen or me waking them up. One less kid mom would have to call to talk to on their birthday because that seems that is all that she wants to do ,or get their hopes up so that she can crash them downby not showing up. One less grandkid that people have to pretend that they love. One less person to be put in a mental hospital when there older. One less person that pretends that there happy more athan thay actually are. One less spoiled fotten daddys girl. I'm not realy good at anything, Tasha has the whole girly thing going on, Toni is smart and has a life, Eva is a good kid if you get to know her, Sandra is a sweetheart, and Rebekah is an actris kinda like Tasha. What am I? Why am I actually here, to make everyone around me look better is that what Im here to do? Or am I here to cause pain to the ones I love the most and thats what hurts me that I hurt more than I help. SO what is the perpous of me here? I wish I could just crawl into a hole and die. It would be better than it is now or probibly ever.