knocking at my window- chapter fourteen { the end)

Chapter Fourteen...Cheated

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It was saturday morning. Outside it was weather was cold and dissapointing, the kind that makes a funeral seem more appealing. I sat in the kitchen, eating the breakfast Mina had cooked me, just like every other morning.

I could't belive what Benedict had said. I didn't want to belive it, but it was hard not to, because it made so much sense, why she was so obsessive with having me. It bothered me a little, that maybe that was all she was after, just after my body and nothing else. But when I was with her I felt safe, and wanted and everything I expected got delivered. Their was no problems, only complications, with that fact that I still was slightly in love with Benedict. It had reduced me to tears to hear her cries of anger in me, because I know deep down inside their is still that love for her, still that wanting for her to hold me in her arms. It was just fading away with every dangerously cheeky smile Mina threw my way.

I rinsed my plate of and headed upstairs, it was 10:00 and I knew that any time now Spear, Chip and Benedict would be over here.

I had a plan , I was going to tell them that Mina and I had to go out to a book reading, so they would'nt be able to stay. Yes that would work, it would be wonderfull and hopefully it would finally get them of my back. Then I would have the whole day to myself.

I tapped on the bathroom door, hearing no reply and opened the door. Standing with nothing but a towle on Mina smiled , drying her hair. "Oh you just missed it" she said running the hand through her hair. I smiled back , sitting on the toilet seat "Missed what" I asked confused. "The shower, you could have hopped in with me" she said tying her hair into a ponytail " It would have been fun to". She turned around , looking at me " don't you think".

I nodded, facing the ground. Mina hung her dyer up and walked over to were I was sitting.

"What's up Perry, your really silent today, didn't you have a good time last night".

I shook my head, "No, it's nothing to do with that". Mina sat down, lifting up my chin "Then what's wrong, you know you can tell me anything. I looked into her eyes "Oh, it's nothing worth even worrying about" I said. Mina laughed "If it was nothing , then why are you so down". She held my face in her hands and brushed back my hair. "Whatever it is, we can work it out together". I smiled holding my face towards her and kissed her softly.

She kissed me back holding me up, as I stood up, then turned around. "Do you hear that" she asked. I shook my head, trying to listen. "No, I heard something, hay wait aren't your friends coming over today". "Shit" I yelled running letting go of Mina , running down the hall.

This was it, This was the time for my plan to work out, I hpoed they would understand. I really did. I ran to the door, flinging it open. No one was their, I stepped outside onto the foot path and looked around. "What the hell" I sighed walking back into the house. "You Blind Perry" a voice said and I turned around, their standing in the lounge room with their hands on their hips , was Spear, Chip and Benedict. "Didn't you hear us come in".

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Scared ot of my brain, I walked into the lounge room, to were they were now all sitting, waiting for me to join them. I felt sick, in the pit of my stomach, like someone had dug their hands into it and pulled my guts out, dragging it along the floor. I looked at spear and chip, big grins on their faces and then I looked at Benedict Tears in her eyes. The guilt had hit me hard this time, and their was nothing Mina could say or do that was going to change the way I felt. Seeing her their, looking so innocently sweet, crying with tears of happiness. It killed me deep inside. "Well are you going to say hello and join us or what" Chip said standing up holding out his arms to hug me. He looked different, older than the last time Id'e seen him, though he still had his dads sharp eyes. I walked over, mouth slip wide open and wrapped my arms around him. He gripped me tight, letting his hands slip onto my ass. "How you going leso" she said , as we let each other go " Been missing you like crazy". I laughed as I walked over to spear "I'm alright, thanks to you lot". I hugged spear, who kissed me on the cheek "Well you didn't think we were going to give up that easy on you now, did you ?". I shook my head as he sat back down on the couch. I walked over to wear Benedict was sitting, her hands across her chest. I held out my hand, pulling her up and wrapped my arms around her Pulling her tight. She was still crying, as I pulled back her fringe. The pain, slowly sinking in, what had I done. I ran my hands through her hair, letting her go as we both sat back down on the couch, all with smiles on our faces.

We chatted about the holidays for a while, laughing and cracking jokes, just like the old times till Mina came into the louge room and asked me to help her in the kitchen. Forgetting about my friends for a while, I followed her into the kitchen, to help her prepare lunch.

"They seem happy to see you, don't they" she said handing me the bread and cheese. I smiled thinking about it, I was happy, I was happy to see them and I just knew they were happy to see me. I nodded leaning over the table. "You know I don't think you should tell Benedict what's been going on, it might hurt her". I turned around feeling a little angry "I wasn't planning on telling her anything, anyway, why would you think that". I stood back looking at Mina, who's smile had dissapeared " No reason, I was just saying that's all" she moved closer to me, running her hand across my thigh "Youd'e hate to see how she'd react if she found out". Mina stood closer wrapping her hands around me and kissed me, sending a spark of shock through my body. Pulling away, I wiped my mouth. "Not now Mina, not now". She frowned grabbing a knife of the side of the counter. "Oh but I wanted you right now, right here in the kitchen. Feeling a little scared, I took the knife from her hand and started to cut the cheese.

"Yummy lunch guys" Chip said scoffing into the sandwiches. I laughed grabbing another one for myself "Somethings never change".

I looked at benedict who was picking at her sandwich and took her plate " You alright". She looked at me ans smiled. "Do you think we could go to the kitchen" she asked putting her plate on the coffee table. "sure" I nodded taking her hand and leading the into the kitchen.

leaning againts the kitchen table she took my hand is hers. "It's so good to be with you right now" she said wrapping her arms around me. I smiled kissing her on the cheek. "You just don't know Ben". She pulled me closer, pushing herself into me "Then why don't you show me how good it is" Benedict said grabbing my pants, pulling the zip down. Slowly she slipped her hand inside, moving my underwear and stuck her warm fingers inside me. "You really owe me" she said as I started to feel her pressing harder and harder.

I stood still waiting, waiting for a feeling, but nothing. I just stood their letting her press harder, untill it started to hurt moret than anything else. It was as if I was numb, nothing, I just felt nothing. Benedict looked up at me with tears in her eyes, pressing harder, taking my breast in her hand, she squeezed soflty, but it was no use. I took her hand from within my pants and backed away. She looked at me with ange and confusion. "Why are you backing away. I turned away and she pulled me back around. "Don't turn away from me, awnser me, what the hell is wrong with you". I pushed her away lightly "Nothing is wrong with me'" I yelled taking a few more steps away. She moved closer, taking my hand "Don't do this Perry, please don't this". The tears now falling from her eyes. "Do what " I screamed "What the fuck am I doing Benedict, come on tell me, what the fuck am I doing now". She pulled me close to her and I pushed her away, this time harder. "God, would you take a look at yourself, you wont even let me touch you, Why, come on why Perry". Feeling the anger and guilt building up I cleched my fist by my sides. She took a small step closer "I know, what happened Perry, I know, but you know that we can just work it out baby, we can just work it out". Feeling the anger screaming through my body I turned around to take a breather. "Perry, we can, if you just let me okay, I don't even care if you cheated alright, I know what she's like, she would have fooled you, but we can make it better okay, we'll fix it". I turned around to face her again. She had stopped crying. I walked towards her holding her face in my hands and kissed her, hard and fast. Then I stood back, still holding her face, in silence. Benedict gave me a look of heart ache and pain and I knew deep in my heart that I just couldn't do it anymore. Angry and frustated that my other had got her way, I let go of her face "I don't love you anymore Benedict, I just don't love you anymore"....