Knocking at my window- chapter thirteen

Chapter Thirteen.... Addicted

copyrighted 2007

I know inside me what I was doing was wrong, but it didn't stop me. And I didn't care. What I was doing made me feel so bad inside, and in so many ways better than I had expected. Everyday seemed like a rollarcoaster of endless pleasure and It didn't stop untill the wee hours of the morning. It had only been three days and Id'e had more fun with Mina , than Id'e hate to admit, I have ever had with Benedict in the the two months we had been together.

It was nearning to the weekend and I was starting to feel guilty about what I had told my friends. Their was no way I could tret them like that. But I had and it had started to eat away at me. Even to spear, out of all my friends, I had even been unkind to spear. It just wasn't me. But that was the point, that is why I suddenly felt so glad that mum had sent me here. To fall out of love with Benedict, and sadley the thing was, that as the days with Mina grew shorter and the days till I wnt home faster, I didn't want anyone to ruin my time here with their idea's and plans to tear me away.

On friday night , after another joy ride with Mina, I awoke to see the laptop in my room flashing, indicating an e-mail had arrived. I got up, feeling tired and wondered whether I should even bother to read it, after all It would probably be one of my friends, nagging me about coming over tommorow. Either way I opened it anyway, just to see what they had to say.

To: Perry4bee@hotmail.com

From: Bee4perry@hotmail.com

Subject: Babes ???

No offense.. but what the hell has gotten into you, who cares if Mina said know, its the rule of friendship, you say your going to do something, you do it anyway. Don't you even know how much I am looking forward to seeing you again. Babe it's been a week and I haven't even had the chance to say goodnight to you, or to kiss your sweet lips. Not only that it has been a cold and lonely week, sleeping all by myself in that big empty bed without your temperature antics and Im starting to forgett exactly how you smell.

okay so it might be funny, but it's true. I bet you can't remember my perfume, or the way I keep you warm at night. And you won't untill you let me see you. Who cares if it causes problems for you, that's what where here for, and by the way we should have every right to see you.. I mean I know it's her house and all, but like I said before half an hour won't fucking kill her. Anyway she's working me up into a fit so I'm going to go to bed now...

oh I almost forgott, I was talking to my cousin the other day and I was asking him all about their break-up, you now Mina's and his and he told me the real reason their relationship ended was because she was dealing with an addiction, and I was like oh yeah what drugs ha she been taking, and he got all offended and screamed that he didn't do drugs, and so when he calmed down enough he told me that it wasn't something he would like to discuss. But I told him you seemed to find something weird about her and I wanted to know if their was something weird about her, just so you would feel better.. but when he told me what her real addiction was, I ALMOST DIED... oh great your mum came in and is trying to read over my shoulder.. anyway tell you later

see you soon ..

love you baby xoxo Benedict.

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To: Bee4perry@hotmail.com

From: Perry4bee@hotmail.com

Subject: TELL ME !!!!

I told you their was something weird about her, as a secret between you and I, so why did you go and voice it to others, especially to her ex boyfriend... but now I think of it their isn't really, she's actually quiet nice, and the only reason she didn't want you guys coming over was beacause she has had a hell of a week at work. So please grow up and show some sympathy. Sorry babes but she just doesn't want anyone over and I think this is a valid reason. So in saying this... I really don't want to know, okay.

And how can you even say I forgett you, when you constantly remind me that your like everyday.. This does offend me babe and I hate it when people say I forgett the little things.

DONT COME OVER- and tell the rest of them to stay at home to... see you later

:{ Perry

To: Perry4bee@hotmail.com

From: Bee4perry@hotmail.com

Subject: RE: TELL ME !!!!

Perry I am telling you anyway.. for your own good, and well WHAT THE FUCK IS UP YOUR ASS, you are beggining to sound like a major bitch and I'm starting to get really angry everytime I read an e-mail from you. You are contantly in battle with this whole weekend buisness and we are coming whether you like it or not. How dare you tell me to grow up when and show some sympathy.. She doesn't deserve it, in the way you descibe, she had a hard week, well haven't we all. Jeeze PERRY !!! I am so angry with you..

NOW!!! we had discussed the issue of Mina's addiction breifly and now here is the cold hard facts.

Mina belongs to S.A.A meaning Sex addicts Anonymous, but she even got kicked out of that for never turning up, and when she did she took Flying passes and hitted on everyone in the group, sometimes going home with random people from the groups to have one night stands.

Apparently also my cousin told me that while their relationship was rocky ,at one stage their she was going to Gay clubs, picking up chicks and taking them home, preteneding she was Gay just so she could screw them, even leading them on to belive that she was in for a realationship. He thinks that she is a nice women on the inside, deep down, but this obsession has drove her to the brink, now she claims she's getting help, but mu cousin doesn't belive her.

So then I asked your mum is she was aware of Mina's addiction, and do you know what.. she stared at me nodding and said " That was the reason I sent Perry their" . I was dumbfounded and disturbed. Which is why, Perry we are coming to rescue you before she breaks free and tries anything on you. I myself, don't care what the hell you are thinking right now, but I hope you see she doesn't care about anyones feelings but her own.

So Stop being a bitch and pay attention- WE WILL SEE YOU TOMMOROW- you can count on it..

love you no matter what you think of me xoxoxo Benedict