February 4th(the Subway)

Dear Diary,

It’s 4:15pm and I’m on my way home. Sometimes I wish I didn’t live in Rosemont, Long Island. It’s such a far commute from FDPHS in Manhattan (by the way, that’s Frederick Douglas Private High School). The only good the thing about riding the subway, is that I get to ride it with Claire and Char. We live on the same block. It’s Claire’s house, my house, then Char’s house. But today, Char had Drama Group till six o'clock and Claire had Writer’s Group until five o’clock. Secretly, I am glad that I don’t have to ride the subway with them today because that would mean that I would have to spend a good hour lying to them about my day and cheerleading and all that good stuff.

Hold on, my cell phone is ringing….

OMG!!! I can’t believe it...I so wasn't expecting it. This so puts a damper on my day...as if I don’t have enough going on right now. Rex just called and said that he wants me to meet him at Burgerlicious in like, an hour. And I was all, like no because I’m on the train, like on the way home, from FDPHS and Burgerlicious is like six blocks from the school. Plus, it takes and hour to get there and an hour to get home, so that’s like two hours of commuting late at night, and I hate traveling late at night. So I told him, “There is no way that I’ll be coming to Burgerlicious because It’s like 4:45pm and I still have a half hour of commute left. Plus, I am not in the mood to have to get off at the next stop and then walk over the bridge to the other side of the subway and get a Z train traveling in the opposite direction. It takes up way too much time.” So of course, he got all mad and said, “Geesh, just asking you to spend a little bit of time with your boyfriend.” and hung up on me. I mean, hung up on me! This is so not my week.

Now that I think about it, that was kind of hypocritical of him because he was the one that wouldn’t spend time with me at first. Yeah, he was the one who would rather spend time with his friends because he “would have his friends if anything went wrong between us”. His words, not mine.

Anyway, I think that I’ll call him back and try to fix this because I can’t lose cheerleading and my boyfriend too. If I keep lying to my friends like this, I might lose them too. I hope that I can do this without getting angry because that wouldn’t be that great. You know what, I’ll text him instead.

Cris: look, I’m srry

Rex: Idc anymore, I have things 2 do

Cris: u have no right to b mad @ me...u never spend time wit me…

Rex: do 2 wrongs make a rite?

Cris: come on rex...u no they don’t...ur making this harder than it is…

Rex: the only person who is making this hard is u...i don’t wanna do this cris

Cris: do wat?

Rex:I don’t wanna break up wit u...i luv u 2 much...but…idk

Cris: look, reconsider rex...i luv u 2...don’t do this…

Rex: if u really luv me, you’ll meet me @ Burgerlicious right now…

Cris: but rex, I can’t….i’m only 15 mins away from my stop...i luv u really but can't we reschedule this date...please…

Rex: next time there won’t be any date…

Cris: y?

Rex: b/c it’s over...have a nice life

Cris: rex wait…

Rex: wat?

Cris: I’ll be @ Burgerlicious as soon as I can...k?

Rex: it’s 2 late now

Well texting him sure worked out great! It ended our relationship. I’m almost at my stop. I wish that Char of Claire were here...they’d know just what to say to make me feel better. I bet that Sandra is going to try and get back Rex...just to try and hurt me. I don’t know why this hurts so much. I promised myself that I would never get attached to a guy like this and here I am, on the subway and on the verge of tears in front of so many people. I must look like a train wreck.