(I'm gonna have a series of letters, which will be written, (but not sent), to various people in my life. It will be a series. Name's have been changed to protect the innocent.......and the not so innocent)
Dear Rachel,
I really miss you tonight. Well no, that’s not accurate. I don’t miss you, I miss what you represented. You were my first love. Our love, was passionate, was rash, was all consuming. It was two teenagers, trying to copy what they see in the movies.
I recall a conversation I had with my mate.
Me: Can’t man, I’m waiting for Rach. She really is gre-
Them: That’s the fourth time today you’ve mentioned her. You’ve gotta get out more. There’s more to life than her.
Me: I know. I just haven’t found it yet.
I know it seems too perfect to be true. But it is. Don’t get me wrong, I knew we weren’t gonna get married. I knew we weren’t gonna have a nice house in the suburbs, with a white picket fence, and the required 2.4 kids. I knew it wasn’t love. But that didn’t stop me from loving you. My entire savage garden collection was played, then replayed, just to find something sweet to text you. My first ever poem was written, for you. My wardrobe was redone, for you.
Not that it was all one way. You were the first to use the L word. I made sure of that. You cut your hair like what’s-her-face, simply cause I liked it. You even lost weight for me. All rash things that no sane person would do. All things that I wouldn’t do. Not now anyway.
Cause I’ve learnt, that you only get one first love. You only get one brief period of happiness, then you realise how much the end hurts. How much it hurts to lose what you once had. From that moment onwards, you become more reserved. You offer less in relationships, you carefully guard your heart. After all, you’re only gonna get hurt.
Even if I had another shot with you, it’s too late. It was hard enough losing you the first time, I aint doing it again. I however, would give anything, to lose these scars. To have never dated you. Not because getting them hurt. Not because you were a mistake. But, I wanna get them again. I wanna feel the all-consuming love we once had, once more.
But it’s too late.
Love with half of my heart,
itsjustme
Author notes
Third part of a series. Next letter will be written to a differnet person, then the next one to a different person, etc,etc. With personal pieces, I think too many hold people hold back with critical comments, cause it's a personal piece. Please do NOT do that here. I love critical comments. Thanks
A contest entry
- letters from the inside by asthray.heart.
400 points, ended July 16, 2007, 13 entries
Silver trophy winner
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Comments
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This was great, there is not much esle to be said you captrued every emotion and cause in the this perfectly.
Alot of adapt emotion caught here, all your emotions and everything you went through with this girl and what use each did for each other.
Thanks alot for entering and goodluck
Lady Madeline.
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Incredible
I don't even know what to say. I'm not someone who sits around, thinking about love, or necessarily believes you can have more than one true love. But... YOU GOT ME. You took a complete skeptic and pulled me in and made me feel what you were feeling. This didn't feel like something you tried to get right, over and over, like some letters sound. Instead, it felt as though you had reached inside your heart and pulled out a letter with depth, emotion, and prefection. But you also gave it a good bit of solid reality, which peaked my interest yet again. Amazing work!
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wonderfuly truthful
i love this. it shows how when you love someone the rest of the world does not matter. and how much it hurts when you fall out of love. i had my first love and i would give it all to have that feeling back when i loved him. so now i am more careful. this is a great piece. -
PERFECTION
I absolutly loved it. I'm in my first real love right now, and you captured all my feelings and emotions perfectly. So much so, in fact, that I'm going to save a copy of this letter on my computer I think. You write it like a real letter, without having the horrible sloppiness and errors of a real letter, which I appreciate. This really connects with me, especially because I feel like my relationship will be winding down soon when we both go off to seperate schools next Spring. Thank you so much, and I look forward to the next letters immensely!
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