knocking at my window- chapter six

Chapter Six.. Notebooks

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Mina placed a large bowl of soul in front of me, taking the seat across from me. She smiled taking a sip, ushering me to do the same. But I just didn't feel hungry. My stomach ached from frustration, I felt sick and I missed Benedict with a passion. "It's not poison Perry, I made it myself" Mina said chuckling to herself. I tried to smile as I took my spoon in my hand, scooping up a tiny bit of chucky soup. It looked like vomit to me, but I didn't say it, I just shoved the spoon in my mouth and swallowed. Feeling it go down my throat, I held back the urge to be sick. Mina raised her eyebows , looking a bit offended. "Not a big soup eater then" she asked taking another mouthfull of soup. I shook my head, It wouldn't have been so bad if it didn't burn my mouth. I coughed as my eye's began to water "Is their chilly in this Mina" I asked grabbing the glass of water and skulling it down. She shook her head, grabbing a peice of bread to dip in her soup " No just a little bit of asian sauce why". I wiped my mouth grabbing a peice of bread "Well that would be it then, it's bloody hot". She laughed handing me her glass " Here, drink this up, I'll get you something else to eat". She stood up taking my bowl and I shook my head " Don't bother, I'm not really that hungry anyway". "Alright then well at least let me give you a tour of the house, so if you get hungry later , you can just help yourself". I nodded standing up , both glasses in my hand " Okay, that I can do".

Walking through the old cottage style house, The wind blew throught the open windows sending a deadly chill throughout my body. I wrapped my jumper closer around my body. Following Mina thoughout the rooms. "This is the loungeroom, their's a heater near the door, if you get cold, which it can in this area of the house". we walked out, checking out the bathroom, toilet, laundry,music room and Mina's room. "That just leaves the last two rooms in the house. Both doors where closed, Mina looked at me smiling " Well this is my writing room, but I won't take you in their right now, it's a bit of a mess, and I get quiet embarressed about it sometimes". I nodded as we walked to the last door "This is your room" she said opening the door. I stepped inside, darkness consuming me. I watched as Mina felt her way throught the darkness to turn on the light. Dust lingered in the room, wrapping itself around me. I sneezed breathing it in, making my nose itch. "It will be fine when it get's some air into it" Mina said walking over to the curtains, pulling them across. The sunshine shone lightly through the glass, sending sparkling patterns across the wall. Lifting up the window, the cold air blew around the room, letting the dust escape. I looked around the room seeing a big four poster bed, lace curtains draped around it. It made me think of something out of the medieval ages, quiet like princess bed. Not that it made me feel like a princess, I felt more like a prisioner, being shown her jail cell. I knew it sounder horrible, because Mina was so kind and her house was just so beautifull, but I was to angry to take it all in.

I wondered over to the bed, pulling the lace aside and flopped onto the bed, It was quiet comfortable, I had to admit that. Mina smiled , walking over "Nice and cosy" she said sitting next to me putting her warm hans on mine. I quickly sat up feeling a bit uncomfortable with her being so close. Relising my nervousness Mina stood up , straighting herself out.

"Well anyway" she said patting the dreased out of her pants . "I'll let you get relaxed and used to this room , I might even just go next door and do a bit of writing then". I nodded as she walked away, pulling her hair over her shoulders. I watched as she walked out the door , pulling it shut.

Their was just something weird about her that just wasn't right, I couldn't put my finger on it, but I sure did feel it.

The moon wasn't out tonight as I sat on the window ledge looking at the garden below. The tree's blew , whistling a spooky tune as the bird flew home to their nest's. I felt alone as I watched the clouds and wondered what Benedict would be doing right now, on her own as well. Stupid me had forgotten to ask Mina if she had a computer, so she was probably wondering why I hadn'e e-mailed her back. It was to late to call her, nearly going on midnight, and I knew that if I called mum would be mad. I stood up, shaking of the cold and closed the window and the curtains, leaving just enough for some fresh air to fill my lungs. It wouldn't be long, and then it would be morning. Another day gone, only 14 more to go. And yet counting down the days only made it more painfull.

Getting into my boxers and singlet, I pulled my jumper on .I wasn't tired enough to go to sleep, so I just lay their remenissing the days events. How I missed Benedicts touch and her smell, I could still remember her smell, as if it lingered on my clothes. My sotmache crumbled at the though of minty freshness and I stood up stretching my arms out. Was it to late to get something to eat. I didn't think so and after all Mina did say I was free to use the kitchen anytime. I opened the door stepping out into the freezing hall way and knocked on Mina's door.

The light was still on, and I could hear the buzzing of the computer, but Mina didn't awnser. I knocked again, this time opening the door slowly. "Mina I whispered, trying not to disturbe her, but I didn't have to worry about disturbing her bacause she wasn't their. Her computer was still on, opened up to a word page document and papers lay every where on the floor. So she wasn't lying when she said it was a mess I thought to myslef, making my way over to her desk. I wasn't usually a sticky nose, well only with mum, but I was curious to see what "The great Mina Kernan" was working on. Stepping my way over books and paper, I finally made it to the desk. I sat in the chair, looking behind me to make sure she wasn't coming. On her desk next to her computer stood a large pile of books, of every colour, shape and size. I smiled taking one from the top. These must be her diaries I whispered to myself flicking through it. I frowned as their were only blank pages. Must be a new one , I said placing it to the side and taking another one of the pile. I opened it, flicking through. It was the same, just blank pages. I placed it aside taking another one, and another one untill I had seen 6 blank page notebooks. It was strange, why would she have 6 empty notebooks next to her computer. I started to wonder if all the rest where blank to. I took another one opening it up, when suddenly I heard a noise.

I looked behind me hearing it closer and I quickly stacked the notebooks back in their pile. I could hear Mina humming as she got closer, and stood up pushing the chair in, looking for somewhere to hide. I turned around starting to panic and saw a large wardrobe right near the door . with no time to think I ran and opened it up, climbing inside, my heart racing at a hundred and fifty miles per hour. Closing the door,I pulled it hard with my fingers as Mina entered the room, still humming. I held my breath, breathing through my nose and listened.

"Well I'm going to have to call it a night she said to herself as I heard her turn of the computer. My foot starting to go numb with pins and needles.

Suddenly a short burst of pain ran through my ankle , and I knew it was starting to cramp. I waited a while as she continued to sing.

Come on Mina hurry up, I whispered to myself as I heard her Getting closer to the door. Come one, come on. I listened as she closed the door slamming it shut and breathed out of my mouth. I gave it a few minutes before, pushing open the cupboard door and I fell into the darkness. My heart still racing I felt my way to the door and opened it, stepping into the light. Slowly pulling the door shut, I creeped into my room, closing the door behind me. Not feeling the slightest bit hungry anymore I crawled into bed , pulling the sheets tight up around me. I closed my eyes as my heart fell back to it's usual pace and I fell asleep.