~♥~My Life!!~♥~

when i was a little girl i always thought i had a normal famiy and normal life but the truth was it wasnt so perfect. when i was 11 years old i found out something that was goin to change my life forever. i found out that i am a foster child i couldnt believe it and i met my birth mom that day but i always thought she was just a family friend. i got to know her and we came very close but i always felt and still do feel really weird around her. then i started intermedite and i decided to stop eating lunch and i started smoking i didnt really know what was happening to me. My parents just blamed it on my group of friends that i had but they never new what was going on in my head i was screaming inide myself and every night i would cry myself to sleep. In the second year of intermedite i got worse. I stopped eating breakfast and still didnt eat lunch. My moods got really bad and i started doing drugs and running away all the time. I really wanted to find my birth dad but he didnt want to know me so that got me down real bad. Then i hit 13 years old and i fell apart. I started cutting myself and havng suicidal thoughts and i got stoned basicly everyday and i stop eatting all my food.then one night i broke down into tears infront of my dad and I said "dad i need help i cant take this anymore i want to die i think i might have a eating disorter and im doing drugs" and before i knew it i was getting help and i thought it was helping but then id just being lying to myself.i got discharged from the hospital and acted like it worked. but then 2weeks later i was back into my old self i was drinking, getting stoned, smoking and stoped eating again oh and cutting but this time without my parents knowing. then i turned 14 years old and i was still doing the same but only one thing has changed, i met my birth dad.

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