Nightmares 2

It starts and my boyfriend is there, yelling at me, calling me a whore, and all i can do is cry, i feel so alone.

"Are you listening to me, yes you Bitch!", he grabs my arm roughly,"Listen when i am talking to you!!"

I look at him, why is he so mad i wonder, what did i do? i just don't know, but i know it was my fault, it always is, everything is, thoughts begin to crush me, thick hot tears roll down my cheeks, tears i try so hard to hold back...

"Please please forgive me, please, i didn't mean too, i'm sooo soooo sorry.", i cry out as his grip on my arm gets tighter,"PLEASE!"

He looks at me with the coldest eyes, eyes i've never seen on him before, eyes filled with hate and rage, causing my knees to buckle beneath me, so scared of what would happen.

What changed my sweetheart? what did i do so wrong to deserve this?! The look on his face soon fills with lust, angry, hard lust. He grabs my other arm, though not as hard, and kisses me, biting my lip, causing me to bleed. The pain sears in my lip, tears well up as my tongue tastes my blood and i know this is real.

His look grows hungry as he tears my clothes off, animal like and furious, throwing them to the floor, i crawl to the corner but he grabs my leg, dragging me to him. I begin to sob like a baby, unable to hold back my fear. Does he not see what he's doing to me i wonder? does he not see the pain in my heart?

He undresses slowly in front of me, scaring me to no end seeing his full hard manhood, knowing it's directed at me. I crawl into the closet of a room i've never been in before but this just makes him madder. He grabs me by my hair and throws me to the bed, the bed is so soft, but not soft enough to distract me from the raging lustful man in front of me.

"please!" my voice rasps out, throat tight and pain filled. My heart beating fast, fear grasping hold of me as he crawls on the bed and i freeze, unable to move, too scared to speak or cry. Too scared to say no...

Always too scared to say no.

His hands wander over my body, pinching and grasping the most sensitive parts, his roughness hurting me. Fear so completely over comes me i do nothing but stare at him lifelessly. I feel pain from parts of my heart i forgot existed, not to mention the parts of my body i wish to deny exist. His mouth kisses my stomach then bites, soft at first, but harder and harder, until i am bleeding, pain coursing throughout my whole body, every crease and crevasse aching for this to be over. I'm losing so much blood my head begins to spin as he enters me and plunges into me, i let out a shrill scream, a forced scream, as he digs deep, tearing my walls, reminding me of pain i wanted to forget.

My cries bring on his laughter, cruel cold laughter that brought tears to my eyes. Finally he finishes and i crawl across the carpet into the corner, the rug hurting my many cuts and bruises. He kicks me in the face, swearing loudly about me ruining his good time.

"whore!", is all he says as he leaves the room, and me, in a bloody heap or quivering fear.