My Life As a Teenage Trichster

Monday- Day 1

Dear Journal,

All the websites say that writing a journal will help me. I came to the realization that my "habit" is an impulse control disorder known as Trichotillomania. It's time for me to do something about it.

I honestly don't know why I do it. I don't want to but I don't realize that I'm doing it. It's like an itch that I involuntarily scratch.

I haven't pulled an eyelash or any other hair since last night. That is usually the time I do it. While I'm trying to fall asleep. The websites say to do something else when I get the urge but I can't. I have to be in bed. I'm going to wear gloves to bed so it is impossible to pick. I'll know it if I go to take them off. I am also going to buy an eyelid wash so they won't be itchy while they grow back.

I'm tired of covering my eyes when people get too close. I'm tired of lying to those that notice. But I can't tell them. I'm not ready. I'm tired of using cover up to cover the sores on my eyelids. I'm tired of thinking about my eyelashes all the the time and I'm tired of worrying that someone else will notice.

I want to be a normal teenage girl again. It's going to be hard but I'm willing to try anything to stop...

Wish me luck!