The voices in his mind

Will grabbed a tissue and wiped another tear from his eye.He'd been doing this a lot lately,crying,alone.He was always alone these days,it was no different in his old school.His parents had moved to get him away from being bullied but it seemed to follow him.He didn't understand why he got bullied,he no longer cared,he didn't care about much anymore.He hated walking home alone with people shouting at him,calling him emo.It was a problem in his old school too,he'd only had one friend there,a guy called Pete.He thought about the days he and Pete would spend in the summer messing about in the field behind Pete's house and in the nights sitting on the hood of Pete's car and watching the stars.He missed those days,he was always happy with Pete,they were happy,well,they were happy.They were fine until that night,Will felt another tear run down his cheek as he rembered all that had happened in that night.The date was October 30th 2006,he even remembered the time,11:57pm exactly.Will had a flashback,he saw himself walking upstairs to his room,his parents were away for the week,he thought he would call Pete,as he picked up the phone,it rang,he didn't recognize the number.

He answered,"hello?",the voice on the other end of the line replied

"hi there,it's nurse Williams at the City Hospital,there;'s been an accident involving a Mr.Peter Ross"

Will had by now dropped the phone and ran for the door.He grabbed hi car keys,locked his house and jumaped in his car.He drove as fast asthe car would go and so he wouldn't get arrested,he didn't really need that right now.He ran into the hospital reception and wasgreeted by a stern looking doctor,Will had memorized his name badge,Dr.F.Stevens.Will shivered as he remembered the next part,the doctor began to speak.

"Before we begin I have to ask are there any relatives,direct family of Peter that should be called?".Will thought"no,he lived on the street his parents kicked him out years ago".

Doctor Stevens nodded"right,um,i'm afraid there's been an accident..."Will interrupted

"What do you mean an accident?is he o.k?"

The doctor moved around his desk,closer to Will"I'm sorry but Peter didn't make it" he continued" we have come to the conclusion that it was a heroin overdose".

Will could feel himself fighting back the tears"what do you mean,he cant be.........i mean he cant be.dead"he said the word dead in a whispered tone somehow thinking if he said it quietly it wouldn't be true and Pete would be o.k.

The doctor then led him into one of the wards and Will saw Pete.He drew back in shock,he saw Pete laying on the bed.He sat down on the edge of Pete'shospital bed.Doctor Stevens left him in the room on his own,Will talked and talked for hours
praying that Pete could hear him.At about 3:15am Doctor Stevens walked back into the room and explained that they now needed to take Pete's body down to the morgue.Will leant closer to Pete and gently touched his lips against Pate's.He felt the shock of Pete's icy cold lips run through him.He then walked out of the hospital,got in his car and drove home,slowly,thinking about everything.He slumped in through his front door and went up into his room,he began looking through the backpack he had been given by the nurses on the way out,the only possessions of Pete,it al went to him,this backpack was all that he had left of his best friend.

He stared at the pictures in the bag,the days when he and Pete would spend pointless hours in a photo booth on the weekends.He put them down and his attention was drawn to a book,at a closer look he realized itwas Pete's journal.He flicked through a few pages until he came across adte earlier that month.

October 7th

I can't do this anymore,he is the only thing that ever kept me going,he was my everything,but even that is failing now.

Will skipped a few pages

October 26th

I saw him for the last time today,He seemed fine,if only he knew what went on inside my mind

Will moved his eyes to the next date

October 31st

This is it!!!!It's nearly over now,another few hours and i'm gone,the voicec in my head are too much now,they take over.If you ever see this Will, love you,I just could never tell you.

Will shivered now remembering it,he held Pete's journal on his hand and his on the other.Hes lid them both into Pete's backpack and slung it over his shoulders.He heard the words on his Ipod"say goodbye,say goodbye,yeah,we're falling fast".He looked at the ledge he was standing on,the song continued"the building's tall,i'm sure we'll wake up dead".

One more look over the ledge and Will put his Ipod into the small backpack pocket.He looked at the railings on the building and gently slipped his hands off them and when the police find his body,they'll find the backpack and his journal with the entry...

December 15th

If only he knew,I could never tell him how i felt,i wish i had known he'd felt the same way.Maybe he wouldn't have done it,maybe he'd still be alive.We can be together now,we will be together now,i will join you in death,I love you Pete.