Supergirl...p2

I guess when I say advice I should heed it, which I indeed did not do. If anything I took those balls and tried to play squash with them-and if you know anything about squash you would know that you have to whack that ball your hardest against a concrete wall. That's almost what it feels like I've done.

Sense? Maybe. Running in circles? Yes.

I'm actually now fifteen and a half, yet it feels as though I'm backtracking on wisdom and knowledge. I feel dumb these days when I write tests and I try my hardest NOT to stick out. Because as egotystical as it sounds-people like me. I'm funny and not judgmental and I fit in with most crowds. So when I say I'm trying to fit in it's a totally differant concept to me-because it's everything I'm not and I'm struggling even so. There's so much in this world that I want to change but then I realise that I'm just this little speck on this great big green ball going nowhere very fast. And that scares me. There. I admitted it. It scares me.

I sadly realised I am indeed NOT supergirl. I'm strugging juggling between being myself and being this fake little princess who has serious troubles. My only advice is: make the best of whatever you have whereever you are. And of course, those who are crazy enough to think they can actually change the world are the ones who usually do. So maybe I'm not this little teeny speck after all. This is me. Hope you like it. And if you don't, tough.

You know how they say that you don't know what you got till it's almost gone? I think I can finally understand the trueness of that statement. My little sister is in hospital at the moment, and if real sick! And at times she annoys me but now I realise just how much I truly love that little thing! But I decided to add a second bit to that statement-you don't know how strong your love is until it threatens to be cut off.

gah. this sux. i am sorry guys why cant i write anymore? what has happened!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! help!!!!!!!!!!! please i am begging!