A Light Through the Haze

"Although my road has been dark and weary
There really is no reason for you to worry."
I try so hard to be assured by these words
To live by them and stick to them and be carefree
But it never seems to work that way
Life throws out all the good things and reels in the bad
Like poisonous fish that won't stop nibbling at the hook
These things taunt me day in and day out
What to do
I sit back and smile and hide all of my sorrow
In the empty space right behind my eyes
You can almost see the glimmer of despair
Down deep inside
But it's so far hidden you can only make out the shadow
My sorrows surround my brain
Like a blanket trying to suffocate every good thought I could have
They linger there waiting to snap
And destroy me forever and ever
But I look through the fog of unwilling sorrows and make out the shadows beyond
The light through the haze that I can barely distinguish
Draws me like a moth to the flame
I envy the ones who bask in that light
Without a fog blocking its pure rays
I wish to also bask in the light and forever be rid of this gross haze
I want to see the world without the sorrow that it holds
And scoop it up in a mason jar to forever sparkle next to my bed
I'm sure that the light
Will one day shine through and I'll be baptized into the land of the pure
Where my troubles can disappear forever again
And I can heed the words from long ago
"Although my road has been dark and weary
There really is no reason for you to worry."