January 11, 2006- A Diary Entry

Two days earlier, everyone was moving back into the dorms after Winter Break. I was excited to see all my friends after 3 weeks of being home with the family. But I kept in touch with the sweetest, coolest, funniest, nice boy that I met through Jeff. His name is Justin Gaulin.

Just in case you’re wondering, I met Justin when he had a sleepover at his house before finals began for the Fall 2005 semester. Jeff told me that I was invited to come to his house. Now, I didn’t have it easy. My heart has been crushed by some other guy who I liked, but I haven’t heard from him in quite some time. I told Jeff I didn’t want to go, but he talked me into going somehow. So I went with Jeff, Jannine, and Brian. Jeff and Jannine noticed something at Justin’s house that I haven’t done in awhile: I smiled, but I didn’t noticed. Jeff noticed that Justin was smiling too, but Justin knew why and told Jeff after the sleepover.

Now you want to know the details of what happened after the sleepover? I’ll surely share with you. So we took our finals, and went home for break. I wasn’t happy. I thought I would, but I wasn’t. I knew I had an empty feeling inside of me, and I know why: I needed a boyfriend. The guy that I met had left me for someone else. That’s probably why I didn’t hear from him. My heart ached. I wanted to cry, but I couldn’t.

The days of Winter Break dragged. I was excited for night time when I’m on my computer from 9pm til 1am, doing whatever I want. One night, I was on AIM, minding my own business. I received a message from someone who’s not on my friend’s list. Just out of curiosity, I clicked to see who it was. It was Justin. I couldn’t believe it. He told me that me got my screen name from Facebook. I was never this happy during break, but I didn’t seem to notice. During the night, we talked for HOURS on AIM, talking about how our break’s going, what’s bothering us, a little more about ourselves, and other small chit-chats. This became a daily routine during break. I could not wait til night so I can talk to Justin on AIM for HOURS. When it’s time for us to go to bed, he always tells me, “It was nice talking to you, I miss you and I can’t wait to see you soon.” I really do miss Justin.

Since this is a daily routine during break, I go to sleep with a little bit of happiness in my heart because talking to Justin made me feel better. Also, I get the same dream every night after talking to Justin. The dream was me in the middle of the dance-floor, wearing the most beautiful dress that a girl can wear. The spotlight was on me, but I was alone. I hear a guy’s voice, saying, “Do you want to dance?” When the mysterious guy comes to the light, I always wake up. I tried figuring out why I keep getting these dreams, who was that mysterious guy, and it annoys the heck out of me.

One day before New Years, I was doing nothing, so I went on the computer doing my own business when I received a message from my friend Jared on AIM. He asked, “What happens if one of your friends likes you?” Me thinking that Jared liked me, I responded, “Who likes me?” Here was Jared’s answer: Justin likes you. I freaked out. “Why would Justin like a girl like me?” “I’m not the kind of girl Justin thinks.” “I would make a terrible girlfriend.” This kept going on for the next few minutes.

Later that night, Jannine and Jeff called me. The three of us talked, and I brought up the topic of what Jared said. “Jared sent me a message on AIM, saying that Justin likes me,” I said. Jeff responded back, “Sarah, Justin really likes you. He told me that he has dreams about you at night.” I was still confused. Were all my friends pulling a joke on me?

When that night was over, I went to sleep. I still had that dream. Me in the spotlight, in a beautiful dress, hearing that mysterious guy’s voice. But this time, he came into the spotlight. Wearing a fancy tuxedo, it was Justin. Throwing my arms around him, we danced. My head against his heart, I was happy to be in his arms. But we stopped, looked at each other, and……I woke up from my dream (AGAIN….how annoying). Now that I know who the mysterious guy is, why am I dreaming about Justin? A few nights went by, and I finally found out why I’ve been having these dreams of Justin…I liked Justin, and I wanted to be more than just a friend to him. I told my friends, but I was too afraid to tell Justin.

Before break was over, I was on my computer, chatting online with Justin and Jared. Justin asked me, “So, what are you doing on the 11th?” I told him, “Nothing.” He said, “Do you want to go to the movies with me, Jeff, and Jannine?” I said “Sure.” Jared asked, “Did you tell Justin that you liked him?” I said no. Jared kept on bugging me to tell Justin. Finally, I told Justin, “Ok, Jared told me that you have a crush on me. After he told me, I got scared and afraid. But I keep thinking about you and I now realize that I have a crush on you.” Justin was shocked.

Back to January 9, I was moving back to Mitchell. Seeing my friends for the first time in 3 weeks, I was excited. Besides seeing my friends, Justin was there. He was helping people move back in the dorms, but mainly hanging out with us. After moving everything back in, we all decided to celebrate our coming back by having pizza. Since we didn’t request a delivery to the dorm, Justin would had to go get it. I told him that I could come and help him get it. I was so nervous because I was with Justin. I don’t know what to say to him. I know that he likes sports, and so do I. But I didn’t want to talk about it because I would probably say something stupid and feel embarrass and Justin would think I’m a dork.

We came back to my room with the pizzas and drinks. Everyone started eating. While I was eating, I kept looking at Justin, watching him eat his pizza. But when he looked at me, I turned away and ate my pizza. “Is he still looking at me,” I asked myself. After, my roommate, Marlena, had to go to Linins and Things to get a few supplies. Me, Justin, Marlena, Jannine, Jeff, and Jared all went to Linins and Things.

When we got back, everyone went to do stuff while I stayed in the room unpacking my stuff from break. Justin stayed and kept me company. Still not knowing what to do, I went on my computer. Justin pulled up a chair and sat next to me. We were going through Facebook, MySpace, the Mitchell website, and other websites. We talked about stuff. When Justin realized it was getting late, he had to go home. We gave our hugs good-bye, and he head off home.

Yesterday was the first day of classes for the Spring 2006 semester. My first class was a Music class with the coolest teacher on campus. When the time came around for class, I went with Justin. Yes, we’re in the same Music class. I find that very ironic. We sat next to each other, and during the class, I could not stop smiling.

The night went on, and I got so nervous about my double-date tomorrow night. I know that my 2 good friends (Jeff and Jannine) will be there with me, but I was nervous about myself trying to impress Justin. I went crying to my friends, and Jeff told me, “Knowing Justin since we entered college, he’s a good kid. Just relax, and let life take its course.” Everyone else said the same thing too.

Tonight was the night that I would go on a date with Justin. I couldn’t believe it, and couldn’t stop smiling. Jeff, Jannine, Justin, and I went to Ruby Tuesday’s for dinner, and then the movies to see Cheaper by the Dozen 2. When we got to the theater, Justin and I sat in one row, Jeff and Jannine sat in the row behind me and Justin. I was wondering why are they sitting behind us. When the movie started, Justin put his arm around me and had me lead in to put my head on his shoulder. I didn’t know what to do, so I was very tensed up. Jannine leaned over and told me to relax. I calmed down. While watching the movie, I put my hand on his until I lost the feeling in my pinky finger. I guess you can say that we cuddled.

The movie was over and the 4 of us went towards the front door of the theater. Jannine and Jeff said that they had to go to the bathroom. Since Justin and I didn’t have to go, Justin told me that he was going to go outside and wait for Jeff and Jannine. While waiting outside, Justin asked me, “Sarah, I really really like you. I kept thinking about you over break. You’re a cute sweet person with a great personality. I would love you to be my girlfriend.” My face suddenly sparkled and I jumped into Justin’s arms saying yes.

Jannine and Jeff came outside and I told them, “Justin and I are a couple.” Jannine was so happy for me that she gave me a huge hug. While on our way back to Justin’s truck, Jeff goes to Jannine, “Green-punch buggie, no punch-back.” Not wanting to get “punched-buggie,” Justin and I ran to his truck. While waiting for Jeff and Jannine to come, Justin and I gave each other a kiss on the lips.

I guess you could say that I had an amazing night. This is probably the best night in my entire life, and I couldn’t be happier to be with Justin Gaulin.