My suicide letter
Wednesday, June 29 2005
At: 8:45 PM
♥ This must not happen to anyone, it happened to me but must not happen again
Let it be said that a teenage boy died for the sake of love
Let it be said that a boy died all because of his own parents
History has ears and eyes that can see and witness everything like the ancient gods
Who once believed to monitor and watch everything?
How much could a person bear of accumulated piled of sorrow piled above his heart, like a bundle of fat. Until someday it will break down and disintegrate falling apart into shreds, life will abandon his body and his spirit will vanquish in hell’s fire
My message goes not to lovers to stay strongholds but to parents to know that they are sometimes wrong.
Let me be the example of a heartless soulless family.
Let me be an icon
I once believed in chain letters that I used to forward them every time
Now I will be in them I once read solemn poetry and felt sorry
Now I will witness my letter being read loudly
And now I roll my story that has no glory
♥ I loved a girl more than my life. I prayed for her everyday and every night, to keep
Together to keep only what’s right.
BUT WHY TRUE LOVE MUST BE BROKEN EVERYTIME IT GETS RESTABLISHED
And hearts must be broken by hatred and sorrowwwwww??????????
Love went crazy and it got intense second by second. What it was happy ended in an instance
All over again to be tortured but salvage is too late. People who once loved me and brought me to life
Have now changed ends and held forces against me. Parents would do everything to make their children happy maybe I was a different case maybe I was an exception. Maybe I was born with the fate of being an example to live and cope with this pain if not endure then fall apart and die.
I am born to be a model to parents who have kids and will have in the coming future.
If you son or daughter is in loe and far out of reach for his or her precious; DO NOT AND I MEAN DO NOT EVER THINK TO PISON THIS LOVE WITH EVILNESSS.
MY family did but I found a cure a door a passage out of this mess
But it can only compromise me and can only accept me
I believed poets had a sad fate and a sad life lost love and gloom faces
That was implied and included me I can no longer be I can no longer stay
Before the end of this day even if I live will no longer be able to breathe nor be able to think nor be a human being.
I tried to understand why and how but all I found out there were betrayers for their own son
Call it a single word a single act only taking seconds KNOWN AS SUICIDE ATTEMPT
4 times I tried 4 times I failed 4 times I decided 4 times I proved to be a failure now I won’t
I have the razor the knife I have the poison I had them all
But now I have the bridge over the road. It’s a matter of life and death. They always said that love is stronger than hate and goodness is mightier than evilness well they were right. But the only thing they didn’t imagined that evil words are like silent killers like cancers.
As for me no body can be blamed except me my life my family who decided to end my life in a flash as I will do so in a minute. I don’t know how do say it and how to spell it do live the right to end my life and die now??
Do I have to live? I have to go I must depart I must me set free fire can be better than the insulting words of every day. I will have to get punished more and more. I can’t go on much loner I can’t get tortured no longer/ with my last blinks hanging over the bridge I want to see the looks of my beloved people looking and weeping wailing and sobbing over my coffin, for maybe back then they realize what they have done.
How sweet the word smells how close it seems. As for who ever finds this script I let him know to never disturb my crypt. I was bothered a lot now it’s my time to rest
To rest and be in peace
I wave and say goodbye world you can’t torture me for long
Author notes
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Aww Pete
. This was really sad. I didn't know that you used to be like this. I'm glad your better now! I loves you Pete so so much! And just like you said to me I would bring down all the stars to earth and caprute the sun, just to see you happy! I loves you again Pete! 
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I hope you are alright now. I have been through an expericence like this and I have tried several times to kill myself and I had written a suicide letter.
I was drawn into reading this from the name of the title (sometimes, names of titles do that to me). Good job with this and take care.
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i am okie
since the last suicide attempt i never tried suicide again but sometimes thought overflow in my brain :S: i guess its a part of life
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hope your alright now
Good luck and thanks for entering
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"History has ears and eyes that can see and witness everything like the ancient gods." I like who you compare two essentially different things.
"How much could a person bear of accumulated piled of sorrow piled above his heart, like a bundle of fat." This sentence doesn't sound right, maybe changing around some of the words or playing with it, i.e. 'How much can one person bear when the weight of their accumulated sorrow is bequeathed by the heart to wear as fat?' Make it a strong a powerufl question that forces the reader to think about it before continuing on.
"My message goes not to lovers to stay strongholds..." This also sounds awkward, maybe it's the way you are ordering it, I don't know. Try something like... 'My message goes not to lovers to bear the negative forces of the world...'
"Now I will be in them I once read solemn poetry and felt sorry." I don't know whether you skipped a line break or something but I think you should start a new paragraph at 'I once read...'
"...to keep...Together to keep only what’s right." You didn't really finish that last sentence and when you read it allowed it gives the feeling that it should be conjoined with the next. Also the next sentence doesn't make much sense with. Maybe break it up, i.e. 'To stay together. To keep only what is right.'
"BUT WHY TRUE LOVE MUST BE BROKEN EVERYTIME IT GETS RESTABLISHED. And hearts must be broken by hatred and sorrowwwwww??????????" Okay, I am going to say to you what I have said to many writer's before you. Extreme capitalisation or whole words and sentences, repetition of one letter in a word and mutiple exclamation or question marks does not mean impacting or effecting. It looks amateur and very un-professional. I don't mean to be harsh but if you are a good writer you should be able to do this just with your words, not how they are written or shown on the page. If you want to have impact, use descriptive and emotive language too.
"...it got intense second by second." I would change it too... 'it got more intense, second after second.'
"What it was happy ended in an instance." This sentence doesn't make much sense either, I can barely grasp the gist of what you are trying to say. Maybe just chop this sentence of or really revise it.
This has a very good concept but you have to try to express you ideas in a sensical order, that means with words and phrases as well as sentences and paragraphs. I would consider revising this and it should come out better with practice.
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thank u
thanks for the comment but u know this was written on the night of my suicide attempt just 10 mins before the attempt i prefer to leave it untouched to me its a piece of my history carved and put in a museum but ur commments make alot of sense if i ought to cahnge i definitely do
conisder your comments thanks alots
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Naw Pete this was sad and emotional. I am sorry you went through this and wish I knew you sooner, maybe then this would not have been created.
Good job though and I wish you luck in Em's contest.
Ebb <3
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This was very good and very sad.
Good luck in the contest
Em
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