Beyond The Light PT.2

The door flung open a shadow appeared in front of me.
‘Can I help you?’ It was young and to me sounded like a young girl that answered the door. ‘Where’s Josh’
‘A sleep’
‘So who are you?’
‘His girlfriend’
‘WHAT’
‘Keep your voice down’
‘He only broke up with me today. Didn’t take him long’
‘What do you mean today. Josh and I have been going out for at least a month’ She turned on the front light and stepped outside. She was pretty to pretty but the one flaw that she had was that she was pregnant.
‘WHAT’
‘I guess he never told a child like you’
‘Please go and get Josh’
‘Fine he can tell you himself. Come in side’ I followed whoever she was into the lounge. By now, I had wasted all my lasting energy on fighting the bitch. Josh came down stairs and sat next to me. Tears streaming down my face I had never realized how upset I was. By now, I was sobering up and forgot the reason why I came her in the first place.
‘Kira you have to stop doing this’
‘This is the first time I’ve shown my bloody face on your door step and I’m greeted my your knocked up lame excuse for a girlfriend. How did you do it Josh? What was it when I wasn’t here?’
‘You want to know the truth.’
‘Yes I honestly do. Was I just something you could have some fun with’
‘No you weren’t. It was a mistake’
‘How come you’re still fucking around with her?’
‘Because I love her and she is having my child. Now I am going to call your mother and tell her to pick you up’
‘No need to do that I’m leaving’
‘Please Kira don’t come back
‘I have one more question’
‘What is it?’
‘How long have you been lying to me?’
‘Long enough for me to realize what a fucking idiot I was to lead you on. Is that what you want to hear’
‘How far along is she?’
‘Three months’ I walked out of there as quickly as I could. How could Josh lie to me. Was I not good enough for him? I walked away from his house never to go back. I made my way back to Dane’s house.1

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Present Day3

I wish Dane would answer. I need to tell him the truth. I have thought about it long enough. He was going to find the truth out. I have pushed Dane so far away that I think that I might never get him back.
‘Hi you’ve reached Danes phone please leave a message and I might get back to you
‘Dane it’s Kira can you call me when you get this I need to talk’ It’s been to weeks since our fight at the beach. I really think I was ready this time. I laid on my bed and thought. What did I do in my life to deserve what I’m suffering now? I wish I could turn back the clock and never said yes to Josh.
I was in mid doze when my phone went off. I was unsure of who it was until I looked. Dane.
‘Hello’
‘Kira what do you want’
‘To talk’
‘What so you can rip me open and leave me hurt like you do every time I see you’
‘That’s not true. I’m hurt. Josh really hurt me’
‘So you take it out on me Kira. That’s not right’
‘I know. Can I just explain to you what he did?’
‘Fine heres your chance’ I went through every detail, I told him were I went after the night club. I told every single detail, I told how I wept and thought about killing myself. 4

‘I think of how I could get him back but nothing every comes to me’
‘Maybe your brain was trying to tell you something’
‘I guess. Are we friends again?’
‘I guess I could forgive you’
‘Thanks. I feel better now’
‘Hey before I go can I ask you a question.’
‘Yeah sure. Shoot’
‘Why so long?’ Hard question.
‘I guess I thought that he would come to his senses and take me back but he never did’
‘I figured’
‘What do you mean by that’
‘All those days you sat on the beach and just dream. You were dreaming of him. All the times you were together with him. You were trying to forget those memories. Have you forgotten yet?’
‘No I never will, but I’m moving on. It’s like when someone dies you mourn. I was mourning for myself for being such and idiot’
‘That’s good. Before you go…promise you wont hang up when I tell you this’
‘Yes. What is it’
‘I love you’ Wow he loves me. I’ve heard that before. I guess it was coming to that point were he would find me attractive and ask me out. So what now?5

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Dane7

Silence is the best thing to hear instead of a dial tone. Kira took her time. I wasn’t sure of her answer. I wasn’t even sure if I had done the wrong thing.
‘You their Dane?’ Kira said on the other end.
‘Yeah I’m here’
‘What the hell lets try it’
‘Really’
‘Yeah really. I have to go but I will see you tomorrow ok’
‘Were’
‘The beach’
‘Ok’
‘Ok bye’
‘Love you Kira’
‘Me too’ She hung up and I jumped with joy. After all this time hiding my feelings for Kira, she said yes. 8

Morning broke with a beautiful sunshine in the window. I got my best shirt out and my jeans. I was unsure of the weather but it was the middle of winter. I grabbed my leather jacket of the chair and walk into the kitchen. Dad was up and gone. Breakfast was on the table. Toast, bacon and eggs. Dad was just like mum but mum wasn’t around. She died when I was five. Cancer. I barely remember my mum I guess I was too young, I have new memories to replace the old. Now dad had moved on and so had I.9

I walked down to the beach and looked around. No sign of Kira. Maybe she had chickened out. Maybe she did not trust me. I sat down near the rocks and waited. The clouds were threatening to rain but nothing ever came of it. I sat and waited. She wasn’t coming. 10

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Kira12

I saw Dane waiting but I didn’t want to face him. I was ready but I just couldn’t do it. I watched Dane sit there watching the world go by. I finally built up the courage to go and meet him. By now, he was about ready to go. I walked over and paced myself. He looked over his shoulder and saw me. As soon as he saw me, he was smiling. For once, I felt good about myself.
‘Hey you showed up’
‘Yeah I took my time’
‘I don’t care. The only thing I care about is that I get to see your face’
‘Thanks, I think’
‘So where do you want to go’
‘Um can we stay here for a little while?’
‘Sure’ I sat down next to Dane. His arm went around my shoulder and for once in the past two years, I felt as though I could let go of the past and have a future. There was no awkward silence between us, it was just right.13

‘Kira’
‘Yes’
‘Do you want to go and get a DVD a come back to my place, only if you want to’
‘Sure. You don’t have to act like you are walking on egg shells around me’
‘I am not. Am I?’
‘Yes you are. Kiss me’
‘Why?’
‘See you’re scared’
‘Am not’
‘Go on then’ Dane leaned over and rubbed my check. His hand in joined with mine. He kissed me. He was gentle not trying to hurt me. It was the softest kiss I had ever received. I was more than ready for this. Josh was my past and Dane was my present.14

‘Is that good enough for you?’
‘Yes Dane’ I picked up my stuff and stood there looking out at the ocean. I had to admit I wasn’t scared anymore. I was happy.
‘Well are we going or not Dane?’
‘Yea lets go then’
‘Lets get some pizza and we can go back to my house’
‘Where’s your mum?’
‘She’s at work, Paul is sleeping at a friends house and Sahara is at grandma’s house’
‘So…’
‘So we have the house to ourselves’
'Are you sure about this?’
‘What are you talking about?’
‘Are you talking about what I’m thinking about?’
‘I was thinking that we could catch a DVD and then go out or we could have a night in’
‘Oh…what about your mum? What time does she get home’
‘She has the night shift at the hospital and she wont be home till six in the morning’
‘Cool’ we walked down to the pizza place and ordered dinner. I still didn’t get what Dane was saying but I could always find out. We forgot the idea about the DVD’s and went home. It was getting cooler. I guess it was a sign to me but I was unsure what was going to happen.15

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Dane17

We went back to Kira place for pizza and a movie. There was an eerie feel to her street. Like something had happened. We walked further down Kira street. Next thing I know I was being pushed into the bushes. Kira had pushed me into the bushes but why.
'What the fuck is he doing here, Dane can you go I'll call you tonight'
'Why tonight off, what have I done'
'Nothing just go home. Please' Kira held out her hand and helped my out I gave her a quick peck on the check and left. I didn't go very far only around the corner. Kira ran off into the distance, I slowly followed, I made sure that I wasn't seen. I got within two ten meters and hid behind a tree. There stood Kira and a tall man who looked like Josh. I couldn't get a clear view of him. The tall man followed Kira into the house. I shouldn't go any further. This time I'm trusting Kira. I turned around and walked home.18