What is life? Is it being able to take in food, grow, reproduce, and breath? If thats all we are here for, then why try? Whats the purpose, if there really is no purpose? 1
Luckily for me, I found the meaning of life before it was over. At the age of 12, almost 13, I found myself separated from people and wanting to die. This thing we call life had literally no meaning to me. For the next two years in my life I found myself more and more depressed and even formed the habit of self injury such as cutting. I tried to committ suicide a few times too. I thought why live when there's nobody there to care? 2
Well, I had one good friend, who I thought was the only one who cared about me. She, too, had some of the same problems as I did. At 14, I began taking up other habits. I did these things to try and overcome my sadness and to feel happy. True happiness was something it didn't make me feel. Instead, it just shoved the pain deeper down. I thought I was lost and there was no hope of being found.3
In the month of March, I went and seen The Passion of the Christ. It affected me, but not enough. I knew that God was there and that Jesus died for us, but I didn't think I could change my ways. It wasn't until April 2nd did I change my life and give it to God. 4
I was at a big conference with someone from my church and a friend. Over 40,000 teens were there. It was amazing. That night they told us all that if anyone wanted to rededicate their lives to God that they could and that God forgives us for our past. They told everyone that wanted to, to stand up and pray with them. I stood up almost in tears at the same time as my friend. We both started a new journey and life that night. We found our reason for living-to live for God and serve him. We never realized how real God was and how much he cares. 5
Ever since that night, I can't begin to describe the joy in my life, and even though I struggle, I know God will always be there when I feel like nobody else is. No matter what, I will never be alone. 6
I thank God for giving me a second chance and for taking my pain away. I don't need those worldly things to make me happy or make me forget my pain. I have God and that's all I need.7
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I love God!!!! He can change lives! I give God all the glory for my new life I have and for everything he has done. Praise God!!
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What a wonderful testimony!!!! I had never thought of putting up my testimony on this site.
I had so many ups and downs all through out life, even after I was saved. I gave up completely and started with the wrong crowd, which led to much worse things!!! I ended up pregnant at 17, scared, lonely, and paniced!!!! I was not sure what I was going to do, or even begin to explain myself to my mother.
For the first tome in about 4 years I prayed and prayed and prayed!!! God answered and told me, "How else am I going to keep you hear!!!"
He WANTED me to stop what I was doing and I did!!!
I have a beautiful 4 almost 5 year old! MY world!!!!
I also have a new found faith and life!!!!
I want to thank you for sharing this on this site. You really brought me back and put tears in my eyes.
God Bless you and many blessing for you future!!!
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ha, just when i thought i'd gone so far, He'll humble me again. there is much more work to be done, least on my part. im not half of who i could be, through Christ.
your story is an inspiration, indeed. struck a chord with me, i'll remember it.
good luck, God bless.
with love,
-kiera -
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Hmmm I just had to post this - I went to an event once (Acquire The Fire) and I was already saved but it touched me. I mean it really moved me, I almost cried-later cried that night, but the point is this speaks to me a lot more then normally because I know what you mean. Life is short and we have to find the truth, before it's too late, if you look at me poems you will understand that I have been there. I've been around these things, some of them I've never done, but I speak from experience which shows. God really helped me and from your poems, he speaks to you too, please keep it up and I have added you to my favorites list. I just want to keep up with all your poems and read them. You seem very good, I know I already said that, I'll stop writing now please stay with God; he does love you and is working through you A LOT. -
the thing about this event I went to, is that all these teens were already on fire for God... It was amazing.... I guess you just have to be there to fully understand it... but thanks for the comment!! God bless!
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I'm sure this was a great help to you, and no offense, but the way you described it, 40,000 teens (and I'm guessing were a lot like you, messed up, scared, wanting SOMETHING to help them hold on) and then telling them all that stuff, kinda sounds like a brainwashing cult. But then again if it's helped you it musn't be a bad thing.
Good writing style too, easy to follow and well organized, lil preachy though but I guess that fits the genre. -
Wow, thank you for writing this. It's not something I would have thought of doing. In fact, I AM going to put my own testimony up on this site.
Love in the Blood,
Videl -
awww... im so glad to hear that.. if u ever need someone to talk to about ne thing or someone to pray for ne thing, let me know.. im glad that my testimony helped and im glad u got the push u needed!!! God bless!!
ur sis n Christ,
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I just wanted to let you know that I read your testimony a long time ago around the time when I got saved, and at the time I was still kind of "on the rocks" if you will about my faith, and I didn't know what was real and whatnot, and this lasted until about mid June (I got saved in March), though each day I was growing stronger in my faith, but I still had the "queasyness" and I wanted it to leave.
I don't remember exactly what it was, but God really spoke to me. I read your testimony and it inspired me to write my own. I did, and then a month and a half later I had a lifechanging expierence with God at bible camp, and since then I've had my ups and downs but mainly the ups.
I just wanted to thank you so much for posting your testimony. It really inspired me and gave me that little push to get on fire for Christ before the fire got too small.
Take care hun and God bless. <3
Your sister in Christ,
~Amy
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Hallelujah Thine the Glory!! Hallelujah Amen!! Hallelujah Thine the Glory!! Revive us Again!! See, God can change anyone. God can grab a hold of anyone. God is always ever so faithful and true. God loves everyone, including me and You!! I loved your testimony, glad I got a chance to read it. I will be praying for you and I pray that you will follow God for the rest of your life. Prov. 3:5-6 are my favorite verses. So I encourage you to keep up the good fight for the Lord!! God Bless You!!
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it makes me happy to see that God has made such an impact on your life! it's great that you're in "remission" (you could call it that!) and that you're feeling better! Thank you for commenting on my poem! random: I want to be a psychologist too! small world! hehe! keep writing
<3Adriann -
Praise the Lord! I'm so glad to read your testimony and glad that you came to Christ. He truly is a Mighty God.
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Praise God! This is a powerful testimony and will witness to many especially the teens they need to know that what God has done for us all that though we do make mistakes we can have a chance to clean up and live the life we were meant to live. Thanks for sharing this we all need to be reminded sometimes what we are here for.Great work! -
wow.. im glad you came to God.. It's such a life altering decision. God is amazing. Thanks for commenting on this. God bless you.
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BEAUTIFUL CHANGES
This is such a wonderful and heartfelt testimony Tonya. I'm so glad that the Holy Spirit was able to rescue you in your time of need and change your life! :-)
I to was very depressed, and self afflictive when I was saved.
I to had no more need to want to die, but a new JOY in life when I was saved. I know that JOY will never leave me now!
God Bless You Tonya!
I'm so happy for you. :-)
Sincerely,
Shannon
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Congrads!!!!!! I know its hard. But with all the struggling and the hard times we get closer to God!!! God Bless!!
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Amen...
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Thanks for reading this. That is why i wanted to share this- so people see God can change lives and take away our sins no matter how big they are. God is love. Thanks again for the comment. God bless.
~tonya~ -
People look! This is what God does in a life. If you let him into your life, even if you feel there is no way he'd take away yours sins, the truth is...well he will. He didn't suffer just to save a few, or take away some sins, then leave you to do good for the rest. God is love, and I think it's an insult to think our sins are too great for his love to cover. I ask that you readers read this again, and maybe again. God is real, and God is live. God bless. Also, thank you Tonya for sharing your testimony, God doesn't ask much more than us just being a example of his love. Just Love God, and love others as you want to be loved....the basic rule. Take care, and keep sharing the love. ~Typo~
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GREAT!!
Amen sister!! Wow, you've got an awesome testimony! Wow, you've grown so much in the Lord since April. Wow so cool how you are alive for God!! My prayer is that this testimony will lead someone to a relationship with Jesus Christ.. You are an awesome christian lady and I pray that God will bless you and prosper you in all you do!!
Awesome and keep in HIM!!
David
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