A Smile

Disclaimer: I don't own the song Teardrops on my Guitar.

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Again I'm here. Guess I'm just a masochist at heart.

"Hey, how's it going?" I ask happily, smiling at him. He laughs.

"You're always smiling aren't you Al?" He wonders out loud, chuckling.

/Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see/

I shake my head. "What's not to smile about? I'm hanging with my good buddy ne?" I respond, throwing an arm around his shoulders.

It's hard to resist the temptation to pull him into a hug.

But I do, I always do.

/That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be/

He shakes his head and leans on me, tossing his arm over my shoulders too. He doesn't notice my little blush.

"Man, remember that girl? The one I told you about, the pretty blonde one? She talked to me yesterday!" He said, all excited and glowing. So cute.

"Aww, someone has a crush!" I joke and poke his nose, hiding the twinge in my heart.

It's always her he brings up.

/I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about/

/And she's got everything that I have to live without/

We joked about her and how pretty she was. To him I'm just one of the guys.

/Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny/

"Maybe she's got a cute brother huh?" he tells me, elbowing me suggestively. I laugh and push him.

"Yeah right, not a chance bub, you can't play matchmaker at all." I say, wanting to grab him and shake him, tell him there's only one person for me. Him.

/That I can't even see anyone when he's with me/

At school the next day he was all a flutter, blushing and smiling shyly. Hanging on the girl and showing her off.

He introduced her to me, I smiled and told him congrats for the miracle. They both laughed at my joke.

He told me he's in love.

That night I cried myself to sleep.

/He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right/

/I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night/

He asked me if I'd play the guitar for them one day, seeing as I'm learning how from my dad. I said sure.

I don't really want to. But if it'll make him smile...

/He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar/

I wish he'd see me, but now I only wish him joy. Sad huh? I'm really pathetic. I'm in love with my best friend, who's engaged to the popular girl.

Sad really.

/The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star/

Nowadays, he asks me how I'm doing. Wonders why we don't hang out as much, I laugh and say because he's in lo-ve.

The truth is...

It's too painful to see him smile that special smile at her. Just her.

/He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do/

He laughs and jokes about the old days with me, always laughing.

He asks me why I stare at him and I poked him.

"Because you're gorgeous you idiot." I laughed, he would blush and remind me of his fiance, jokingly of course.

/Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?/

/And there he goes, so perfectly/

I played at his wedding.

I praticed for months till I did it just right. He hugged me when I finished. I was so happy...

Then grabbed his new wife and dragged her off to dance.

/The kind of flawless I wish I could be/

/She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love/

/Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause/

I cried then, I lied and said it was because I was happy for him.

I was, but that's not why I cried.

/He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar/

/The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star/

/He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do/

We've kept in touch since then, phone calls and letters.

From best friends to pen pals.

Who'da thought?

/So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light/

/I'll put his picture down and maybe/

/Get some sleep tonight/

That's okay though, as long as he's happy... I can stand and little sadness.

And a few more teardrops.

/He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar/

/The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart/

/He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do/

/He's the time taken up, but there's never enough/

/And he's all that I need to fall into/

I sometimes wish for the old days when his smile was just for me, and I was the one he ran to.

But it wasn't meant to be.

So I'll just keep smiling for him...

/Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see/

I'll never let him see me cry...