Does Life Go On?

Is the saying really true? Is it better to have loved and lost then to never loved at all? Ha. Yeah right. I've loved, and I've lost, and honestly, I wish I had never fallen for him. I had to watch this "perfect couple" fall apart before my eyes, and no matter what I tried, or how much energy I put into it, I couldn't bring it back together. I cried for about 2 and 1/2 hours in my high school parking lot at 10 at night. He told me when I was surrounded by strangers, people we were working on a play with. All I heard the next day from these people was, 'are you OK?' I can't believe he could do that to me, I couldn't believe it. It hurts, so much, that deep hurt that you can't fix with a joke and a smile from a friend. The worst part about it though, is that I'm afriad the same thing is about to happen to one of my best friends, and I want to warn her so badly, but I know its not my place, and... I just can't do it. Now I sit here, watching him, not even a day later, tring to pick up one of my friends (according to another "friend"), a freshman at that. He's a senior by the way, and I can't do anythign about it. It hurts to watch, it hurts to see him, to hear his voice talking to her, the same way he used to talk to me. I sit and wonder, and ask myself, what did I do wrong? Why doesn't he love me anymore, and why do I still love him so much? I watch him flirt with her, and I can't help but cry inwardly, and wonder if he still feels something for me, if only a little. He didn't look at me the day after, didn't say a word, the coward. I heard he still wanted to be friends, but not from him. Apparently it was up to me whether or not that was an option. I regret some of the things I said to him, but I can't apologize for them, because they were the truth. I just want him to know that he broke my heart into little tiny pieces that day. It's a good thing I'm good at puzzles, because I was able to put them back together quickly, even though there are still a few pieces missing, I'll find them soon. I know I will. For now, I am by myself, weak, for now. But I know I'm strong. There's only two months left until graduation, and then I'll put these memories behind me, and start a new life... someday.