When I became his baby girl

About 5months ago, I was depressed and going through a lot. I had anxiety problems, and really bad depression. I wouldnt talk to anyone. Some people tried to get me to open up, and yet some people just didnt care. I hated my family, and all my friends left me. My friend Jessica died a few months before, and my dad had just left me, and went back to prison, after promising he was done. If I wasnt locked in my bedroom crying, or writing, I was on the computer. 1

One day, I met this great guy named Richard. Some how, he got me to open up, and tell him what was wrong with me. He understood, and began talking about God, and a lot of other things that I didnt want to hear about. But I knew, deep down inside, that he was right. I began telling him everything, anything that was on my mind, he knew about it. He was there for me, everyday, and I began to fall inlove. 2

Well, ever since he was 15years old, he had plans to go to Italy, and become a preist. I knew about this from day one and yet still let myself fall for him. I knew he liked me too, but it just couldnt happen. So we thought. 3

Well, then we became really close, closer then ever before. He started calling me on the phone, and we would talk for hours at a time. Somewhere in the back of my head, I knew that he was leaving, but I tried to pretend it wouldnt happen. 4

I fell in love with him, and he fell in love with me too. The things he said, would give me this rush of happiness, and I would get this warm feeling inside. He made me feel like I was special, I know he loved me. 5

Well, he got me back on track with my faith, my family and also my friends. Im the type of person, who has been hurt many times, but yet still find myself getting attached easily without realizing it. He encouraged me to try hard in school, and for the first time in a long time, I have A's in my classes. He always had faith in me, and knew that I was capible of doing better. He helped me a lot. 6

I would always tell him, "God sent you to me for a reason, if he takes you away, that just means someone else needs you more." He was a helpful person, and everyone seems to trust him more then anyone else. He's got that special touch. 7

Well, last week online he told me that he wasnt going to Italy That he wanted to stay in Jersey for a while, and finish collage, and that he wanted to see what happens in "out future" together. I was so happy, I was like in shock. I had tears coming down my face, but tears of happiness because he's staying here. Just because he desided not to go, doesnt mean that I was more important then his faith, because believe me, Im not. He just figured out that it wasnt for him. 8

I think that was the happiest day of my life lol. I get to be his baby girl, and he can still be my sweet heart. Im in love, and happy for the firs time.9