Set Up.

Came by later and meet him! Come by later and talk to his mother! Come by later and marry him! Maybe later on and you'll love him.

I met him, he was nice. I enjoyed talking to him. He was intelligent conversation, and he understood where I was coming from. He knew just what to say. I met him and spoke to him and he became just a tad bit pushy, a tad bit manipulative and made me a tad bit vulnerable.

I didn't know how to put it. I didn't know how to say it, I didn't know how to speak at all.

"No, please don't call me, we talk for far too long.",

"I am a singer and my voice is hoarse and I need to rest my tongue."

"You're really nice, but please back off, we've only just met and have many a year before the wedding bells ring"

His aunt spoke to me and put his mom on the line...what do I say? Will this be alright? Was I too quiet? Did I not say too much? Maybe I said more than what was enough.

Are they picking out colors and posies to match?

Are they searching for houses?

Are they looking for a banquet hall to rent?

"But we've only just met! These kind of jokes aren't my style; it takes a while for me to warm up to people... could you please chill for a bit?"

No pressure, right?

Wrong.

I feel the pressure each time we talk. Am I saying too much? Am I getting too clingy? Is that Appropriate at this time so near the beginning?

You're such a good girl! Such a nice girl to boot! You're the epitome of this church's hopes in the future! You're both perfect for each other, made for one another. This is the thing that dreams are made of!!!

You don't know me. You don't know how I think. You don't know I'm a cynic or that I'm an antisocial freak. You don't know the things I know. You don't know what I want. You don't know the type of man I like or the type of person that is "perfect" for me. So stop moving me in his direction. I'm SO not in love. Just cuz you want it, doesn't mean that he is what I need or that we are perfect for each other. Just cuz he's a nice guy doesn't mean I automatically and without any cognitive input want him. He's nice, but that's all.

Would I want him if he had not been introduced? Would I like him more or less? Would I have taken the effort to get to know him? Would he still be perfect for me if he could hear my thoughts or see my fantasies?

Would he freak out when he sees the skeletons in my closet?