Almost an hour of fragmented conversation and sentiments unsaid passes before we can even consider moving. The idea is prompted by my stomach growling angrily. Kaden and I both laugh.
“Guess it’s time for lunch.”
“Or breakfast,” says Kaden.
“Or breakfast,” I agree. “What do you want to eat? We’ll have to raid the fridge, cause I have next to no money…”
“Oh… I’m – I’m not hungry…” murmurs Kaden. His eyes twitch away from mine.
“Kaden, are you fucking kidding me? Last time I ate was-“ I think back. “-last time I ate was breakfast yesterday morning! How can you not be fucking hungry?”
He sort of shrugs. God, I hate it when he does that. “I don’t know. I’m just… not.”
I sit up, reaching across the floor for my teeshirt. “I swear, I’ve never seen you put one fucking bit of food into your mouth. What the hell’s wrong with you?” As soon as I say the word, all the colour flows out of his face is one smooth tear. I want to pull back the words, but I can’t. They’re gone. Out. And I can’t bring them back. “Shit Kay… I’m sorry, I really didn’t mean…” My voice trails off. Shit. I’m such a fucking idiot.
He won’t say anything. He won’t acknowledge me, won’t look at me. He turns away, pulling his jeans close, then his shirt. He doesn’t say anything as he pulls them on. He doesn’t say anything as I touch his shoulder with a cold hand. He doesn’t say anything when I leave, offering him a single “goodbye”. He just stays perfectly silent, tears slipping down his cheeks. And I want to hold him, want to touch him. But it won’t do anything. So I just leave.
***
Downstairs, I find the kitchen pretty easily. I go for the trail of beer cans, and soon enough, I’m there. There’s a guy, about nineteen, slumped over the counter, dirty blond hair falling over his face. As I get close, he moves slightly and pulls up his head.
“Hey, Ryan,” I say, heading to the fridge. Yeah, Ryan, Matt’s oh-so-responsible brother who he’s been living with for about a year now.
“Hey…” he mutters, squinting at me. I’m pretty sure he has fuck all idea who I am.
“Kaden and me are staying here with Matt for a while. That’s cool, right?”
“Matt?” His hair’s covering his eyes almost entirely. Aw, bless.
“Yeah, he said you were such an awesome brother and all…” my voice trails off. I hope he’s getting the message. He still looks pretty confused. Someone’s a little hung-over…
“Brother? Oh… right, yeah, yeah… that’s cool.”
“Awesome,” I smile, going to the fridge and staring at the chaos within. Vodka, rum, diet coke… Jesus Christ, these guys have no fucking food. I find some milk, sniff it warily and decide that I’m not that hungry after all.
“See you, Ryan,” I say as I leave. He mumbles something in response, pulling his teeshirt off over his head. I have to stop myself from staring at his body, this is my Matt’s brother… then I remember Kaden, and I hurry upstairs.
***
“Kay?” I say outside the door. “Kay, you okay?” No answer. I push the door open slowly. “Kay, you should bloody answer…” my voice trails off.
I’m staring into an empty room, with just one question spinning round my mind.
Where the fuck is he?
***
“Scott, chill. It’ll be fine, seriously.”
“Are you fucking kidding me? Matt, Kaden is fucking gone. How the fuck am I meant to ‘chill’?”
Sigh from the other end of the line. “Look, I’m only at the ramps… do you want me to come home?”
I nod, then remember I’m on the phone. “O-okay,” I stutter, my voice shaking, almost cracking.
“Okay. See you there soon.” I start to say something, but he hangs up, leaving me to wonder about the words that almost came out. Bye? See you? Thanks?
I sigh, and sit down on the bed, chucking my mobile next to me on the mattress. I rest my head in my hands.
Fuck, Kaden, what have you done now?
Author notes
Ten!!
[Part Eight]
[Part Seven
[Part Six]
[Part Five]
[Part Four]
[Part Three]
[Part Two]
[Part One]
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Uh oh! Where did he go?
But Matt is such a good friend to come home and not say anything. i really like him.
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WTF x.x noooooooooo!!!
*nurses her poor breaking heart*
First of all, I find Ryan adorable ^_^; I must be nutty like that..
but I find him adorable, sorry!!
And Kaden x.x I am getting annoyed at Kaden
because Scott IS meaning to help and.. omg but still, poor Kaden and Scott x.x all the drama... 
and after that hot steamy moment... hmm... maybe they could have another hot steamy moment after making up? 
*goes to see if that happens*
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He IS adorable =] and I'm sorry for breaking your heart. I am.
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I.. misclicked the star thingee x.x it should be a 5 star x.x sorry!!!
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Well done!
Without delving into the political arena of the gay community, your assumption, implied by the content of this story, that people are 'born' into this lifestyle, is subject to doubt.
That said, your ability to relate to the lifestyle and weave a very believable and powerful story such as this, for one of your tender years, is beyond amazing and I applaud you for it.
Your motive in doing so, I cannot know and will not speculate, but I will continue to read and try to understand.
Thank you for posting your work.
amicus...
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*dies of a heart attack*
*revives self because she does not wish to miss the next chapter*
No! How could he? How could you?! Kaaaaden, come back! sobrique, write more! Aghghhhh... -
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hehe. glad you like it. and please, call me omega. next chapter as soon as i type it up, mmkay?
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Sure! Yup! Posting As soon as... whenever... that's a good idea...
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So I read all nine in one sitting...
egads...this damned laptop...sleeve touched the pad and entered the comment before I even started...feel like and intruder with your friends familiar comments and I am surely an alien outsider....
wonderful gift you have...find a way to let me know when you write more...perhaps I can find a way to 'favorite' you...I would like to know if you appreciate my comments or want me to just fade away...
tell me...
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I appreciate them.
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*dies*
Just as Rae said...you just WANT to kill us.
*shakes her head*
Omega...this was wonderful!!
But where oh where has my dear baby Kaden gone now?
BABY COME BACK.... x_x
haha
Write more...or I shall hurt you....and Rae will help!!!!
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Yup I will totally help.
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I'm... scared... *cowers*
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As you should be!!! *hides her blood stained knife* hehehe I couldn't hurt a fly, honest.
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*cocks eyebrow*
Uh-huhh?
Anyway. GO IN THE CBBBB!!
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You want me dead don't you?
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Heheh.. well...
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What have I done to deserve death?
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Lol. Just kidding. you know I love you.. in a friend way, I don't want Patience after me.
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Lol. I knew how you meant it and I love you too, also in a friend way.
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yayy.
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