effects of abuse

When my dad hit me in the leg

I said ouch

I went in the bathroom ,

took pictures of it.

My dad laughed.

But it was not funny.

Abuse is not funny.

It hurts the person.

It makes them not be able to trust.

When it is someone that they live with.

It hurts you,

You ask questions but have no answers.

Then you see that person everyday it can

make it hard to live in that house.

You are in fear.

You watch what you do, so you don't get hurt.

You want in be invisible,

You ask when will it stop?

But sometimes when you are in your room,

you hear yelling and everything you fear that somebody will get hurt.

You feel like you got to stop the fighting, but you can't because you could get hurt.

You wish you could hide so you can feel safe but you are not safe and you have to realize that. It hurts when you are hit,yelled at,made fun of,cussed at.

You feel like you are nothing.

It hurts so bad inside, you just want to disappear. You don't like feeling this way.

When you are taking a bath.

Someone knocks on the door ,

you say i am taking a bath, then you see the door unlocking,

you say stop, but people will not listen to you,

you don't want someone to see your body.

You feel like you can't take a bath, because you are afraid of being walked in on.

It makes you cry. When you can't trust people, you fel like you have no voice.

Sometimes you feel so angry but you don't hit anyone.

when your dad ask you to open the blinds, you are not opening it like he wants it, you are not doing it the way he wants.

He gets mad, starts tearing the blinds down one by one, and you take off , go to your room,

you are scared.

When your dad gets like that stay away, so you don't get hurt.

It hurts to be abused, it hurts you emotionally, and every way, you end up on medicine,

you start blaming the people that hurt you, they are the reason you are taking madicine.

You wonder will i be on medicine for the rest of my life?

But you don't know, you have to take one day at a time. You do have to learn to forgive others that hurt you even that it hurts too much to forgive the person because they hurt you, they put you in so much pain. But you have to do this for yourself. So you can get on with your life. Also so you can go forward in life. You know you have you let go of the past.

Also to not hold any grudges because it will hurt you inside at the end, and do what god wants you to do, and forgive the person.

You have to ask yourself what would jesus do in this situation? He would forgive the person.

It hurts to be abused.

You want to feel like you are someone, and not nothing. You want to be loved. And people to care about you.

You want to also feel like you matter to people.