Heart Ache and friendships - chapter ten

Chapter ten

When Paul arrived home, he expected to find Shaun and cadee in the same room, either talking or doing something else, but he was pleasantly surprised. Cadee had just walked out of the bathroom and smiled at her father.

“Hey dad, how’s Miranda doing?” she said as she walked down the main stairs. He smiled and gave her a hug.

“Well we have a very beautiful baby girl. She’s got your eyes”

“And a name..?”

“Well, we haven’t got that far yet. We need the whole family’s approval so you and Shaun.. Where is he?” Paul questioned.

“I haven’t seen him yet this morning. He sleeps a lot remember daddy? You said so yourself”

“Yes. He does. I’ll go see him. You go get dressed”

“Okay daddy” cadee smiled and retreated to her room. She grabbed her black leggings, a black skirt and her ripped shirt out of her cupboard and quickly dried off her hair before pulling her clothes on. She could hear Paul and Shaun discussing baby names and she automatically smiled. They had finished their “session” as they liked to call it, just in time. Her father didn’t suspect a thing. Shaun understood that she’d have to be around Adam, perhaps even kiss him, but he still understood and would stick by her.

“Cadee.. Are you ready? I really don’t want to leave Adam and Miranda alone for hours”

“Why not? Adam is trustworthy” cadee spoke in his defense.

“I’m not worried about Adam, post birth is a very stressful time sweetie. Even if you have been through it before” Paul said and smiled at Shaun. He gave a cute little smile back then went back to fiddling with his zipper on his pants. Cadee walked down the stairs with her handbag on her shoulder and her notebook and pen in her hands. She never went anywhere without them, her notebook was where she wrote her poems when she didn’t have the computer to type it on.

“Okay, now you both know to be quiet..”

“Yes daddy. Were going to a hospital, were not going to run around screaming and yelling like two 5 year olds on crack”

“Im glad. I’ll leave you two at the front entrance while I go find a park. I trust you not to..”

“Dad!” cadee exclaimed.

“Sorry. I just don’t like to see Adam in that state cadee”

“I know daddy, I’m going to talk to him today” cadee smiled. She continued writing in her notebook until she looked out the window and saw the hospital coming into view. Her father glanced at her in the rear-view mirror and smiled.

“I must read some of your poetry someday soon cadee. I’ve heard it’s great from Miranda”

“I’m glad she praised me like that” cadee laughed. “Some of it is fictional some of it isn’t”

“Well I’ll read it one day this week. Now you two wait here. I’ll be a maximum of five minutes” her father said with a smile as they both got out of the car and waited. As Paul drove off Shaun winked at cadee and she gave him a hug.

“Just in time” she breathed in the smell of his deodorant and smiled again.

He kissed her on the forehead and moved away. They were both unsure of when her father would be back and they didn’t want to risk being seen. They had been standing around for a few minutes when Adam came out of the doors and smiled at the sight of cadee. She ran over and jumped into his arms, causing Shaun to frown jealously.

“Oh Adam.. I’m so sorry.. I just..”

“Shhh” Adam breathed into her neck. “I know you are. I just didn’t have control babes” he looked down at her eyes, which were full of crystal clear tears. “don’t cry mi amor, it was a mistake. I love you..”

Cadee stared at him and smiled back.

“I love you too Adam”

After leaving the hospital, Adam, cadee and Shaun all sat in the back seat of the car in silence. Cadee had a million thoughts swirling in her head. Was she only feeling lust towards Shaun? Or was she in love with him? Or.. or..?

“Cadee?” Paul spoke waking her from her thoughts. She shook her head and looked at her father. “Are you alright? You were awfully quiet”

“Yeah, just confused. That’s all”

“Well come inside and we’ll sit on the verandah and talk about it.. Okay?”

“Sure daddy” she smiled. Cadee got out of her fathers car and reached for her mobile phone, which was in her handbag. There were a million messages from Sarina. All about her new boyfriend Colin. She felt hurt at first, and then enraged which caused her to throw her phone on the floor of her room. She walked downstairs and sat on the verandah with her father.

“Alright missy, explain what’s going on in that pretty little head of yours” her father spoke as cadee lent her head on his shoulder.

“Dad, I just don’t know what to do or who to like. My bestfriend is in love with this guy but she likes me..”

“She?” her father smiled.

“Yes daddy, my best friend Sarina, anyways I like her too and every time she tells me about this boy I get enraged, like I want to hit something. Then Adam, I love Adam.. He’s perfect. And Shaun…”

“Shaun Is a troubled boy.. Sarina, well she’ll be over this guy soon and she’ll come back to you and Adam, he needs your love and attention darling. He loves you”

Cadee smiled as she heard The Kill by 30 Seconds To Mars begin wafting down the stairs from Shaun’s room. Her father smiled and looked her in the eyes.

“Would you mind telling me what that song is? It’s driving me crazy..”

“It’s The Kill, daddy. And I think it’s a rad song”

“A rad song hey? I like it but I hear it too much” her father smiled and gave her a hug. “go and see adam.” He said with a smile as she ran into the house and up the stairs. She found him with his head phones on, sitting and watching the stars twinkle. She ran over and spun the chair around and kissed him. She knew now the answer to all the questions in her head.