Random Rantings(not so much a story) #4

All you people tell me is bullshit, bullshit, bullshit. You yell at me trying to get your point across, but what you don't know is that won't work with me. You talk down to me like I'm a little kid, but that only pisses me off. You try to disicipline me, but I'll do the same thing again anyways. You think I'm a horrible influence on your kid, but what you don't know is that I'm the best thing they think they have.

My brother told me he would stab me if I didn't shut up. I handed him the knife and told him to do it. He said I was stupid; is it stupid to help someone with what they threaten to do to you? Is it stupid to want to die this bad? Is it stupid to hand your brother a knife and ask him to do a favor for you and end your pain? Why is it so stupid to those who will never understand?

Why won't people just see that what they threaten to do to me would only help me not hurt me, it would also have no effect on me whatsoever because I could care less if someone stabbed me. It's the people who supposedly care about that would hurt not me. If you won't shoot me then give me the gun and I'll do it. If you won't stab me then give me the knife and I'll do it, and if you won't drug me so that I'll OD then give me the pills and I'll pop them willingly. Don't threaten shit on me if your not going to back it up.

Love....What is love anyways? Why people say they love others? Can the truly say they will always love them without a doubt in their minds that they truly don't?

Why am I so confused? Why do people tell me what I want or like? Why can't they just back off? What is so wrong with me to make them act this way towards me? Why do people fear for me? Why do people hate drugs so much?

So many questions unanswered that will probably still be unanswered.