the screaming of silence part 4

The next day she went too school, she looked at no one talked to no one and heard nothing, she just seemed to pass by like she was the only one there, so scared and timid. Christa and her talked for a long while....and she aske Maddison what was wrong...but not w word.....

Each night it would happen again and again, each time more violent, more degrading, and each time after that blade would dig...she just wanted to be ugly, so no one would touch her, or even look twice.

A few months later...

After about 4-5 months of her nightly torture...Madison was contemplating suicide as she sat alone in the dirty stall of the girls washroom, she could hear mindless chatter of prissy bitches complaining about their lives.....and she hated them from afar...... she just wished Christa was there...she had been gone for about two weeks with no word.....
She took the sharpest blade and slit a straight line down her vein....it started to swirl as her life flow poured from it's sliced vessels, everything became clouded and it was over.....

or was it?

She awoke in a hospital bed, most definaltley a phsyc ward...and she was surrounded by nurses.....A chart was on the wall counting all her cuts, and the period of time in which she was comatosed......She spent a day in her room before she left it...and walking down those halls was all too familure....except.....one familure face. CHRISTA!!! she was extatic...and bombarded her with questions...it seemd she was brought there two before for a suicide attempt as well, but was also being treated for her anorexia....(one disorder Madison hadn't shared...was her eating disorder...Bulimia) and was actually a little frightened to learn they dealt with such situations at that particular facility.

Apperantly Christa, not to Maddisons knowledge was being raped repeadly by her own step-brother for many years, and had attemptted suicide many times with to luck, the way she said that disapointnly saddened Maddison as she loved Christa and wanted her to live....Maddison told Christa what had been happening but the two kept quite as always about the rapes and beatings as the doctors tried relentlessly to find the source of their depression. The two were forced to do group therapy where they met many people who had been abused...who had eating disorders along with many other real mind altering diseases.....The two became so close....even more so then before...leaning on eachother for survival....

One night during Video time.....The two were seated together on a small orange shaffon sofa...when Maddison felt the slight nestle of a hand on hers, when she looked into Christa's eye's she could feel the look of dumb confussion come over her face and heard the words of a true angel....
"I love you...Always have...and I know it now...."
then words she wished she hadn't heard...
"Let's run away together"