Inner Ramblings V

I have a sort of imaginary punching bag in my head.  1

I have spent most of my day today (in my head, anyway) beating the shit out of it.  See, my mom wouldn’t buy me one for Christmas so I figure I have to get my teenage angst out somehow.2

And today was very angsty.3

Where to begin.  I recently completely regressed in emotional ok-ed-ness when my English teacher made me realize I am NOT over a certain death in the family.  4

And AOL just reset my Internet connection.  I hate AOL.  5

Anyway, and then earlier I was just debating about how wonderful my life could possibly be right now if I had just remembered to call the guy I like this weekend.  Not that I have a lackluster love life, but me and this guy have been so close to dating and then it just barely doesn’t work out or he says something very very feeling-out-the-situation-ish right when I’m dating one of his friends.  And then I decide I’m in love with him.  Sadly, this decision has been stuck to me for awhile.  I hate hormones.  6

Sometimes I want to stand in the middle of the street naked screaming “why me????”7

Michelle Branch is singing about Breathing and I think I need to learn a few things from her.  Kind of hard though, because I have a sort of asthma-athletics-allergy induced hacking cough that makes me wonder whether I will have lungs much longer.  I’m not going to track practice tomorrow.  8

The punching bag in my head just burst.9

I need to call some of my guyfriends.  They always make me feel better.  Plus I have been lacking female-male conversation.  The only people I have called lately are girls, and they seriously stress me out.  After a certain point, I believe your face will split apart from Two Faced Syndrome.10

If I was in Discovery class right now, talking about my feelings and peaceful problem solving and such, my current mood would be “disdainful.”  I have a general disdain for the world right now.11

I just remembered “disdain” is a ten point vocabulary word, folks!12