I finally found out what she was hiding from me

It all happened Sunday. My ex~girlfriend Elizabeth (Lizzy) and I had been talking on the Internet and the phone for the past couple week's... We broke up a couple week's back because i found out that she was cheating on me, she said that she thought that i moved on, so she was going to move on too.(what she really didn't know was... i DIDN'T move on and i probably never will be able to move on, but thats another story to talk about later) she has been telling me that since we have been talking again that her feelings "came back" for me, then out of the blue, she told me that she has broken up with her girlfriend Elaine (which WASN'T true) After a couple minutes... she told me that she was sorry for all the pain and hurt that she has caused me... and she asked me back out and she told me to think about my answer, but i DIDN'T hesitate at all... my answer was yes (of course). We talked one time yesterday and she said that she would call me back at my house because i was in the car getting something to eat (even tho i really wasn't in the mood to eat i still did because if she found out i didn't eat she would be pissed at me)... but she called me back on my friends cell phone... and the cell went out so she called me back... It never hit me until yesterday, i was on the computer just sitting here thinking because no one was on... i was kinda worried because when Lizzy told me Sat (the day she said they "broke" up ) that she has broken up with Elaine her girlfriend, knowing me my dumb-ass believed it... Lizzy never called me back that night so i went threw my emails and found Elaine's screen name and i asked her if she has talked to Lizzy. She said yes... and she asked me if i was the one who emailed her pretending to be Lizzy and told her that "they should see different people." but it wasn't me it was Lizzy. and Lizzy told Elaine that it was one of her ex's that wanted her (Lizzy) back but she said no (that is bullshit) and i asked Elaine were they still together and she was like yeah, and i was like oh... because yesterday Lizzy asked me out, she said yall broke up. But then again my dumb ass believed her and she just played my ass again... Well... Elaine didn't take it that great, neither did i,(but i was used to it. she has cheated on me previous times before and her cheating on me...  i guess you can say it just became part of my life... it was like it was a EVERYDAY thing that i went threw... everyone was finding new ways to hurt me... even Lizzy) I always thought when Lizzy told me that she "loved" me... i believed her, i thought she was true when she said that she loved me. but i guess like all my friends say, she was playing with my head, she was just trying to get me to fall in a big ass hole and play with my head... to tell you the truth. !her trick worked! DON'T GET ME WRONG.  yes i love Lizzy with ALL my heart and i ALWAYS will! she was my FIRST TRUE LOVE AND SHE WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART! My friend Dave is right... everytime i talked to her i got more and more attached to her... and the time she decided to "end" our relationship i was too attached to were i COULDN'T no matter how hard i tired i couldn't let her go. everyone thought that my feelings for Lizzy were always a joke... but i guess people finally found out they WEREN'T because when i found out that she cheated on my... Dave really knew that i loved her and i always would... she always told me that i needed to move on that i could to better. That i needed to find someone that wouldn't hurt me like she did. i always told her i couldn't... Lizzy if your reading this ( which your probably not) i just want you to know the only reason i cant move on is because you were the first person that let me experience what "TRUE LOVE" meant. Even tho you and Elaine may be getting back together. i wish yall luck...  AND SOON I HOPE YOUR "PIMPING OR  CHEATING" DAYS (HOWEVER YOU WANT TO PUT THAT) ARE OVER BECAUSE YOU HAVE REALLY HURT ME AND YOU REALLY HURT ELAINE TOO. i just hope you understand that me still being in love with you is not your fault its mine because i need to move on but i wont because I'm scared that ill lose you. like Dave said "NEVER TAKE LOVE FOR GRANTED" because you never know when that love will be gone!1