GGGRRRR.....I got the money for it, I know that for sure. I want to buy it, but I want to keep my promise. I don't know what to do, or how to tell her that I want to continue smoking bud. Mabye I do want drugs more than her, I don't know. I know I love her and she's the one I want, but her sister told me that she has accepted it before. So why now does she ask me to quit after smoking it for so long, why now does she not want me to smoke. It will not kill me, and I don't do anything irrational so why now does she want me to quit.
The words have been stolen from my mouth. I can't speak, I can't walk, and I don't want to listen. I listen to my heart as my brain tells me there's nothing here for me, why don't I just kill myself. I turn up the music to drown it out. What you don't know is that I have tried to choke myself twice recently and always stopped, not because I can't, only because I won't. Maybe it is her, or it's I haven't done what I'm supposed to yet. *sighs*
Why am I here? What brings me back? Is it her? Chris is moving away and Jena hid away at my house for a night, and then she left. I wanna get high, but not without her letting me and us still being able to stay together. She wants me to choose wisely between her and pot, but I don't know what I'm doing.
so will it be over if I smoke???
Please tell me what you think
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OK stop and think
sugestion i would chose her over the drugs because she wont get u in truble and wont pull you out of "this world" and she will help u with problems forever and the drugs wont so its not a good idia to tern to the drugs or the alcohol and thats to myself also and there are other people that give a dame about u than chris and jena and we will all miss them ok
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okay whatever i dodnt care i do the drugs for other reasons that you peoples wont understand and will never know....
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yes, i don't want it to be, but it will be over if you smoke....
as i said before, do whatever you want.
i accepted it before because i didn't know.....
i love you...
please make your decision, as i need to know if you can do what i need you to, or if this is pointless as well as everything else....
i love you, mi amour...please don't kill yourself.... -
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i dont want to but...i dont know...
im totally exhausted right and i have no clue never mind about that i remember where im at......
im trying to make the right decision but it getting hard to do that and i haven't smoked sense i have no clue.....
i love you too
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