Watching them enter the room, as they pull out the pipe, passing it around in a circle stoping at me, dragging out my lighter to take a hit I know I'll regret in a couple of hours. Taking hit by hit watching the room spin as I lay back and enjoy the high, and the never ending munchies. Seeing your face and knowing how disapointed you are, trying harder and harder to forget what I may want more than you. Pass me a beer, watch me chugg it down and twist the cap off another, feeling the buzz come quick. Pouring a shot, standing in a circle, knowing this will not end well, pouring one after another watching everyone slip into blurr and the room spinning like a merry-go-round, as I feel my dinner come up and out the way it came in. Driving away and going to pick up my source, parking the car and pulling out the crack pipe, filling the car up with smoke. Taking the Everclear her mom hands me taking shot after shot, the night leading to more shit than i thought would happen. Cheating on her with a guy, no one trying to talk sense in my head, hearing them say I hate her, she's no good, you dont need her. Going back not knowing what to say about anything that I've done, keeping my mouth shut, and falling into a dark dream. Cutting deep, deeper than I thought I should have gone, tearing the skin on top, and feeling the tissue rip beneath noticing the vein sticking out......For this I am ashamed, for all I've done and yet you still remain mine.
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just random shit that has happened though i never meant for most of it to happen....just tell me what you think good or bad???
Please tell me what you think
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actaully, it still hurts to read.....
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oh....then stop reading it
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Its sad that any of this shit actually happened. I can relate to the drugs and alcohol though, being an ex druggie. The shit sucks, but good job with this.
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thank you your words are appreciated to the fullest....
*D&M*
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Woahz
Hmmm, well it certainly has a spin off of reality on it, kind of makes me think of pie for some odd reason, not an ordanary pie, stawberry pie... and straw berry wine, but anyways, It also kind of made me sad while reading it, knowing that you will hate your self doing doing it, but you have to, man what a shity conundrom....
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It was very good...I liked it but it makes me reallu sad that it happened to you. :-( It was very well put together...and I'm sorry for whatever happened.
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I found this to be a little confusing. I'm not sure if it's supposed to be a retelling of events or just random confusion. You've got some spelling errors and your punctuation needs some work as well as your paragrah structuring but if you expand on this and perhaps explain things a little more, that might make things more clear.
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okay thanks it wasn't really supposed to be figured out that much its jsut a lot of stuff that went on that i should not have done
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