Apologies, Glances and The Story of a Lonely Girl (Continued)

Part Three: My Commentary1

I was ok with it. I really was. I could handle still liking him, with everyone thinking I liked someone else... I didn't mind that he spoke to everyone else but didn't speak to me.2

And then I got the lovely message that completely ruined my year plan.3

YEAR PLAN SCHOOL YEAR 2006-2007 : Ignore D to my heart's content, forget about him, try to forget the great dreams, and live in reality.4

YEAR ACTUALITY SCHOOL YEAR 2006-2007 : Some SOB power that is decides to mess around with me even more. 5

I'm betting on the god Pan, the ancient Greek god of Mischief and Magic. A wee guy who looked like the devil. The basis for the Christian devil. 6

Why am I so annoyed?7

Someone just gave me the message that D actually likes me. No, he doesn't LIKE me, he FANCIES me. Ok. Can I handle that?8

Part Four:9

I was sitting in the 6th form room, where we have sofas, a tv, a pool table and a bar supplying only tea, coffee and hot chocolate. At one of our rival schools they actually get alcohol. NO FAIR. 10

Anyways. 11

I was watching something on the tv, with a few other people, and he was getting in the way of people's shots at the pool table. So he moved.12

And sat RIGHT BEHIND ME. You have no idea how much this bugged me.13

Then he put his feet up behind my head and started tapping my head with his foot. Repeatedly.14

So I asked him to stop. And he did. Until I turned around.15

Then he started again. We went on like this until I solidly thumped his shin, knocking his foot off the back of the sofa.16

But he kept right on going until he left.17

Annoying much...18

We have all these little instances where we see each other and totally avert our gazes. And my friends laugh at me for it. Which totally bugs me.19

Well, one day after my wonderful news flash, we were actually sitting together, and one of his friends walks in and goes "Oh, sitting next to your girlfriend are you?" and D went slightly red, glanced at me and started making gay jokes. So amusing.20

But he is actually speaking to me.21

And I don't know if that's a good thing. I could totally handle him hating me. But him actually speaking to me. No. Him actually initiating the conversation. That is kind of wigging me out. And he always starts conversations with me about music.22

I swear to God, one day I am going to ask him if he likes cheese. Just to make the conversation even more random.23

I actually spent a whole half hour with him alone in a room and we barely spoke.24

The statement his friend made kind of bugs me, because it means one of two things:25

1- he actually does like me, and not only he knows it26

2- they're planning something against me, but I don't know if they're vindictive enough to do that.27

His friend could merely have been attempting to get him 'in there' with me, which I wouldn't mind. And I know for a fact you can't trust this guy with anything.28

The best moment we've had so far was when he walked in on a conversation where two of his other friends were deciding who wanted to stick what in me. Not exactly the best thing you want to hear about a girl you supposedly fancy. Luckily they were only trying to rile me up (and failing), but the line of conversation did flag a LOT when he came in to the room.29

Suggestions on what I should do, anyone? Because I really am clueless.30

And it's bugging me so much he is actually haunting my dreams... not only that, he's haunting Anna's dreams too... and for a fourteen year old, she has a pretty graphic mind, and her dream about me and him totally explains our new euphemism of 'Shisha bar'... and if you're thinking something really dodge, you're totally right.31

And you know what my wonderful news flash means?32

I was right all along.33

My friends and I had this suspicion that he liked me, but we weren't sure, and this revelation totally proves me right.34

God I hate being right.