Inner Ramblings III

I think I saw a dead body yesterday.1

I was in Colorado Springs, on the way home from the mall.  The ambulance people were carrying a gurney (or whatever it’s called) out of an office building.  They weren’t in a hurry.  The gurney was covered.  I don’t know why, but this doesn’t really bother me.  I don’t know what it does to me.  Maybe it does bother me and I’m just trying to be tough.  With everything that did happen yesterday, I think I am trying to be tough.2

I got my ears double pierced yesterday, too.  I have had the first hole pierced since Christmas break in sixth grade, but I’ve always been the type to want something cool.  Lately I have felt like some kind of trendwhore. . . this wouldn’t be a bad thing if I actually had the cash to keep up with a trendwhore’s shopping desires.  I went in Zumiez and Pac Sun yesterday and was a tiny bit pissed that I only had twenty dollars.  But Foley’s was having a sale on Levi’s, so I got a pair of low rise slouch jeans that already look fashionably worn so that I won’t have to walk around with new looking jeans on.  Anyway, so it didn’t hurt when she put the piercing gun through my ear but when she touched my ear to put the back on the earring it burned like my right ear was in hell and the rest of me wasn’t far behind.  I walked around Dillard’s afterward with my head stinging because my mom wanted to go shoe shopping as usual and I hate shoe shopping but she had just paid for my post earrings so I didn’t think it was a good idea to tell her to fuck off. 3

I had a nightmare last night.  And today, the feeling of someone watching me is back.  I feel like just writing about it will make someone jump out of the shadows at me, but the house is completely quiet.  Anyway, in my nightmare, someone was spying on me from outside and the cops wouldn’t do anything because I hadn’t actually seen anyone.  Then I saw a figure in white outside and screamed and called 911.  After I talked to the dispatcher, I woke up.  It was so dark in my dream, it was amazing when I woke up and it was eight in the morning and my cat was lying curled up next to my arm.  I’m getting chills right now.4

Have you ever seen two cars going around one of those little roundabout things?  I did yesterday.  Actually, there’s a statue of one of the Founding Fathers of Colorado Springs in the middle of the intersection and the cars have to go around it.  I swear the two cars looked like they were playing peek-a-boo.  Except I guess if they weren’t careful and bumped heads, it wouldn’t just be a little bit of crying like when you’re in preschool and the bully pushes you off a swing “on accident.”  If they bumped heads someone would probably die.  Tangled metal monsters sharpen their rusty teeth.5

Yesterday, I also decided to keep my fitness goals and work out.  It had been about four days since the last time I’d picked up a weight, and I had just recovered from a few sore muscles.  I have sore muscles again today.  My right calf twinges whenever I walk.  Why do they call them calves?  If I wanted a baby cow on my lower leg, I would have one put on by way of trendy, useless plastic surgery.  6

The tips of my hair are still purple.  7