No place to go to dry her eyes(revised)

~~I can honestly say that without my sister my life would be in turmoil. At the age of eight I was told by my father that my sister wasnt my sister, she wasnt my fathers. The saddest thing is when I started to cry, he told me not to. All I wanted to do was cry. ~~1

I awake seeing white walls surround me. I know this place well it seems. I get up out of my chair and see my sister laying there on the hospitial bed, only it doesnt look like my sister. She has blood red hair, transparent skin, and purple lips. IV's are in her arms. I walk down to the edge of the bed and pick up a clipboard.2

Violent Convulsions 3

Head Trama 4

Internal Nose Bleeds 5

I gasped as I read. I didnt want this to be my sister.6

"She should wake up soon" said a doctor from behind me. I turned.7

"Really?" I asked. He nodded. I sat back down in the chair and seized my sisters hand. I sat there holding her hand wanting her to wake up. Hours passed, I didnt eat or drink anything. I saw her turn her head, and open up her eyes. 8

"Hey" she said in a breath.9

"Hey" I replied.10

"Sara, So much time has been lost" she sighed.11

"No its only the beginning" I said.12

"Sara Im old" she said looking out her window down upon the crowded cities filled with horn blowing and yelling.13

"You're not old" I said. She let out a small chuckle.14

" Sara I've seen so much, felt so much, wanted so much, needed so much, and lived so little." she said. 15

" What do you mean lived so little?"16

" I've spent so much time wasting away on nothing, that no one can give that back to me" she said, tears coming to her eyes.17

" Arisu you havent wasted any time at all, because you've touched the lives of so many"18

" Name some"19

" Well me for example" she chuckled at this.20

~~In a way I guess you could say I had always been jealous of my sister. She was beautiful, skinny, pretty long hair, and blue eyes. But I wanted to her to be successful.~~21

" How?" she asked.22

"You made me into such a better person. Often times I'd think what would have happened if your dad didnt leave and I would have never been born, and my downfall of it all would be that I would have never met you"23

~~I was always told that while I was being born my sister was running around the waiting room screaming she didnt want a sister, a few months later I got her back by biting her on the stomach after she had been taunting me~~24

" Your just saying that"25

" No I mean it." I said.26

" When I die I want you to know I love you Sara. You've been the best sister"27

" I havent you have. You've always been the best, even when you didnt know it. Without you I wouldnt know who I am or what I have become. I love you so much, you cant die."28

I was always a shy person who didnt really trust a lot of people, I didnt even trust myself, but I always trusted my older sister. Once when I was younger, my father had made me cry and she took a butcher knife and held it to his throat. I could always trust my sister. 29

" Well you know its a part of life, but Im happy" I rose slightly from my chair and hugged my sister. I didnt want to let go as I felt her arms go around me, and in a instant I heard a flatline come. Tears flowed from my eyes. And I kissed the top of her head, and told her that I loved her. 30

~~"No Im going to live right next to you, and everyday Im gonna go up to your house and say mom wants to see you, wear the thing she bought you"(we were talking about when my mother got old, and how I would take care of her and to make sure my sister saw her on a regular basis I would move in next to her)~~