L_o_S_t

I am writing to you beach I am very...L-O-S-T. I am blank inside and I need some help...I can't find my way and I don't know where to go. I have searched within myself, but my thoughts have cleared out of my mind. I cannot find my place, where do I go? I'm a complete outcast to everything, and everything I do never seems right. I can never please, and I never am pleased. I know I am growing but my mind is trapped in the darkest sea just sitting at the bottom. I live of these injustice rules which I am jailed to explore my curiosity of the world. I am overprotected to an extent which I can no longer tolerate, and if I don't escape from this, I feel as if I have not done my duties of being who I am. I also get lonely at times and feel as if I'm the only one who isn't having fun. I don't have the essentials to be who I want to be. I need them in my life, I cannot go on like this. I am starved for happiness to fulfill my life at this point in time. I've often felt as if I should just run away . But I know that running away from my problems won't make them go away. And as I scrolled down my phonebook, I only have one friend. I browse the hallways at school, and it seems as everyone has their "clique." And I feel so alone...trapped...cursed...forbidden to be free to this world which I've been longing to explore for myself. Instead I must obey these senseless decrees. The desires I possess are too vast for a young adult like myself. So if you think you could help me in anyway... or lead me to a better path, I can walk the rest of the path you lead me to. And we can create a story of my life, a book, as if someone would want to read it. Because right now, I have nothing accomplished and nothing to reminisce upon my life. If you understand what I'm writing, and hear what I am saying, please help me. I have no motivation in my life, and that’s what I need the most.1

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