i swear im cursed...this sux so bad....he will never be mine againa nd i jsut need to get used to it. I have reachd my goal of 90 lbs at 15 its so great..finally somthing good. He is still living with me, but hopfully he will be gone by the end of the week....GAWD I HOPE SO.1
Last night I had the nightmare again, about how I was rapped when I was 12 by my step-dad I try not to think of it. But last night with all the stress about mark I fell asleep and dreamed of his hands all over me, touching me, ripping my clothes...and when I woke up mark was there and thou I am mad at him him holding me while I cried after this nightmare was nothing new. We had never doen anything bad, i was still a virgin, but he has stayed at my house, hundreds of times...and delt with the nightmare quite a number of them. And as he held me I cried and couldn't stop. As the tears finally slowed I fell back asleep not letting him go. Knowing full well when I woke up I would be so pissed off, for letting him hold me through the night after all that had happened between us.2
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i know short but still this is only the first part of the rest of the story and mark i know ur reading this....and i have to tell u...anymore when i say i lvoe you its not habbit it is true
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