Diary of a cutter 5

It was going so great and now....well its not.1

He dumped me, says he still loves molly. so him and the cheatin bitch are back together and it is once again just me and my knife....all alone....together.....hmmm 2

well I am bleeding...huge gushes of blood I'm really tired...all the sudden I just want to sleep forever. Instead I will write you my story bits and pieces of it.3

so when i was young i met mark. I was...o....7 and he was almost 9 we started to hang out and as our parents became best friend and so did him and I. from that point untill i was 11 he was my only and my best friend. Him and I had gone through alot of shit together. His first girlfriend, kiss, love, but all this time no one else entered my mind. I started to think I wasn't good enough for guys I was to fat so then I started the anorexia, and cutting. Mark didn't know about it. and i don't think he even does even now. at 11 I started to feel the depression that has now takin over my whole life. 4

poeple ask if he is worth all this...and in reply i can only think, all this and more....no one can understand how much i feel for him...the love the pain the hurt...and the pure adoration...he is the guy who talked me into living...he is the one who showed me love did exist he showed me....everything...my first bf my first love, my friend time holding hands and my first kiss...all him and now it is gone.... all of it...5


i really have to go now...starting to feel dizzy loose of blood im sure...ill write more soon my beloved diary..6

Ellie7