Fixing Madness

Fixing Madness1

"I fell in love today. I'm crazy about this guy and he doesn't even know me! Clearly, this is very bad; I need to find a way to speak to him. Meet him. Tell him something along the lines of "I love you." I've never said that to anyone in my whole life. 2

But I want to. I want to tell Auron how I feel about him. I love him, I truly do. He's so... he's perfect. He's handsome. He's strong, brave. He's kinda shy and doesn't talk much but I'm frankly fine with that. When he speaks, he says all the right words. Our relationship could be one of few words, I know it could work, I just know it! Every time I think about him... his style, his unique magic... I feel horny and somehow good about myself and life overall. Just thinking about him! When I finally meet him... I'll be in heaven. 3

See, a friend loaned me this game, Final Fantasy X (stands for 10... for some reason, Auron doesn't star in the previous 9). I'm not exactly into videogames but I was bored and gave it a try. I think Thomas was trying to chat me up with this... maybe he digs me. He's cute. But he's nothing like Auron. He wanted to get closer to me, maybe. We never have much to talk about but if I played the game we could talk about that. See? Simple. And then we'd go out, date, fuck and break-up. I'm still a virgin, actually. But I'm ready for sex. I knew that the next guy I dated I wanted to fuck and I would fuck. I'd fuck Thomas. He's cute. But not anymore. I've my sights set on somebody else. Somebody special. Somebody I can say "I love you" to.4

Auron.5

So I played FFX and 10 minutes into the game, there he was! Auron. And when he finally spoke... I closed my eyes and dreamed. He has a very tough, virile voice but soothing at the same time. He's not the main character or anything, but he's perfect. He's the guy for me. I know it. I love him so much I feel like... I dunno what I feel like. My pussy tingles every time I think about him and his big sword and calmly modest heroics. I want to, I want to! Some of the girls at school aren't virgins anymore and I don't want to be either. The meaner bitches sometimes tease me in the changing room before P.E. and I hate them all so much. I have no friends at the moment. I like to think they make fun of me because they're jealous; I'm beautiful and that's an understatement. My parents don't actually help the way I feel (lost, confused, lonely, etc... the usual teenage angst feelings) in any way. They're total morons. They're dumb parents. It's true.6

There is only one person now that I can rely on. Auron. He makes me feel special. Whenever I hear his voice I feel he's talking to me in anagrams and wants to say something nice to me, something comforting. I feel the need to be loved. I feel the NEED to have sex. At night, I turn on FFX and listen to Auron speaking and I masturbate in bed, with my eyes closed. I imagine that he's speaking to me and his words change from the serious conversations of the game into loving, tender ans sensual words about me, us. My orgasm is so intense I fight not to scream. I twitch in the blankets and then fall asleep in a tangle of cum and floating dreams of Auron. In the morning, before school, I kiss him. The television screen isn't even there. I feel his lips and they're rough but soft. During classes, I draw pictures of him, his fiercely red silhoutte and tipped glasses, his funny bottle (of water? some kind of drink) hanging at his side, his left sleeve hanging loose as he swings his sword at monstrous monsters with his free and bare left arm. His left arm is so sexy. And the best thing is, that's the most I can see of him! All I can do is imagine the rest. His body, his legs... his cock? I bet it's as long and effectively penetrating as his sword. Everything around me melts into the fantasy world of the game, exotic locations filled with evil where I am being chased by fiends. And in a flurry, Auron's calm is quickly abandoned and he is running, sword held high, toward me. He swings. The fiend's head shoots clean off and falls, blood spattering the ground.7

"Be more careful next time," he says and I swoon. He walks off, picking up his glasses on his face.8

"Halie? Do you know the answer?" It's the History teacher and he looks stern. I think he's noticed my drawings. Thomas, on my right, mutters, "1912."9

"1912," I say and the History teacher is down. I am warrior, like Auron. I fight. I'm just like him, I know now. We are perfect together. In fact, I am perfect too! 10

Thomas asks me out at the end of the day. "Sure," I say and have a plan. At home, I greet Auron and get ready. I have the stuff and I've been waiting for this moment. At long last, I'm going to meet him. Fuck him. Fuck his brains out. He's mine, and only mine! I can't let anyone else have him, I know now. We are perfect together and in fact I am perfect too. I have a plan and tonight there will be sex and death.11

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I meet Thomas at the bar. We dance for a while and I practice the plan in my head. It's an easy plan. A mad plan, maybe, but easy all the same. This is the first and only chance I'll have at fixing my madness because, hey, it is madness I mean falling in love with a viedogame character what the shit am I thinking fuck you leave! now I'm going to do what has to be done at no! I- shut the hell up I'm doing this for you can't you see that the hell you are! I don't like this I love Auron I hate you I love this I hate him I'm- fuck! FUCK!13

What was that? Christ, I'm feeling light-headed. I want to finish this. The music is loud and is giving me a headache. Seriously, I'm sick of all this. Everything. It's all so... nothing. Only love is real. Oh Auron... how I long to be with you so I can be at peace, so I can leave this world and be happy.14

At long last, it's time to go and I usher him back to my place. My parents are out so I can do all I want. They won't be back until much later. 15

"So..." he starts as I open the door.16

"Thomas?"17

"Yeah?" he says. He's cute. He has blond hair and is a typical jock, albeit a timid jock. He plays soccer with the school team and is my age. He has blue eyes and is cute. He's cute. "Do you want to fuck me?" I say, in the most innocent and sexy voice I can muster. I picture I'm talking to Auron and it's much eas- get out of! ier.18

We go to my room. As soon as he comes in, I grab the base- I want to get- ba- ut of- nd knock him over the head with it. He falls and is instantly unconscious. I laugh triumphantly, as loud as I want and feel necessary. After all, my parents are out cold, gagged and dumped in the basement so I can do all I want. They won't be back until much later. Even when they do come to, they're tied up so I can do all I want, literally. I can do all I fuckin want!19

I dress Thomas with an Auron costume. First, I strip him bare. He's wearing gray briefs and his cock is slightly erect. I resist touching it, feeling it and pull them off. His cock dangles, in my face and this time I lick it. It feels good. It's perfect. It's big, like Auron's sword. The plan is working fine, it's going so well it's perfect in fact. Only someone like me could have pulled this off cause I'm perfect too and perfect things and beings and places (?) go together. Hell, even perfect food goes together.20

Auron's perfect (the only perfect guy in the world) and since I am the only other perfect girl in the world we are meant for each other. We are set for eternity and a happy ending.21

I tie Thomas to my bed in such a fashion that he can't move. Much. I play Final Fantasy X in select sections that feature Auron. Auron. Auron. Aruon. Auorn. Auonr. 22

Shit.23

Thomas wakes up and I'm sitting on his belly, naked. My pussy is practically leaking cum as I look at him. It's Auron. I love him in such a fashion and obsessive way that Thomas' face soon dissolves and there he is, grinning. I reach down and slowly remove his glasses. Thomas mumbles something. He sounds scared. What am I doing? something like that. I caress his skin and whisper, "It's time. I love you," and my heart leaps. I don't believe that, finally, after a long wait... I'm with him, now. I'm in heaven, as I firmly fantasized about before. But now it's real. I reach down under Auron's red gown and feel his cock. It hardens instantly and is fast growing. He can't help it. He relaxes. Auron grins even wider way and- out, get out of me you bitch!24

No.25

I touch my breasts and close my eyes. I lie on him, kiss him and rub my pussy against his thigh and penis. I can feel it getting wet and I lower myself down. Lick it, suck it. It's soft but hard and I like the way it feels on my virgin tongue. "Oh... Auron," I groan, feeling the orgasm already. Quickly, I push his cock into my pussy and it hurts oh so much but I push harder oH YES! I scream and kick the bed and push even harder and deeper and I can see him bracing himself but it's so painful it's good. I slide out and pant. His cock gets even harder, I notice and I realize that must have been a turn-on for him. Great. This is working fine. How could it not? It's a perfect plan.26

I push him into me again and this time it doesn't hurt, it shouts happiness. I scream again and groan. Auron's laughing. Everything around me is drowned out and all I can feel is that burning pleasure and love in my pussy, wet, soft and hard. I grab the knife off the bedside table and stab him, lightning fast in the chest. His cock goes limp inside me like, in one second. Blood pours out of the wound and my orgasm suddenly bursts out, my cum mixing with the blood. I groan again and stab myself. Oh.27

I hug him. Auron smiles. "Now we can be together, Auron. Now we belong to each other and nobody else, ever."28

My cum settles around us. My pussy seems to be alive and is pulsating angrily, wanting more. But there is no more to have. It's over. My madness is finally fixed. I am with the man I love and nothing could make me happier. 29

I die."30