the loss of everything(part 3)

.........."You are being so selfish..." says leander1

   " i just want her to forget about me, thats why i just don't want you to say anything." says joesph2

   "she'll ask about you.." says leander3

 "no she won't.." he grumply says "i am like the 500 billionth thing on her mind." he pouts starring still at the spider.4

  "whatever." says leander5

  "this goes so deep, that theres nothing can reconcile it." says joesph " it so mixed and varied...and just fuked up...i should ave never gone to visit her at school...well i mean surprise her."6

  'what do you mean surprise her?" asks leander7

  "Well i just hopped on the bus took all mys stuff and showed up at the bar she alwasy goes...it was quite odd" said Joesph8

  "Well ya." says Leander9

  " it just so complicated, nothing can be said to equalizing anything....i mean yesterday i wrote her an email and asked her if she write an introduction to my new book. But no response- i just like to know where i stand. it goes back i say to the letters we sent eachother. i said why can't we be a couple. then she came and said "i'd date you, i can't date you, you figure it out." said Joesph10

   "ok"11

  "But that was the thing- it confused the hell out of me. And to this day 4 years later I still can't figure it out. It is very sad." said joesph12

"you just gotta stop being selfish" says leander13