bb king "thrill is gone"2
"Hey what time do you work today?" asks joesph3
"I refuse to answer this boggling question.."says Leander sitting on the toliet. "Now get oughtta here fag- and let me shit." leander closes the door. Joesph walks over to the computer and checks his email. Leander opens the door "Ahh, do you always have to be in my room." 4
"I am just..." says joesph5
"I don't care what your doin, I am naked, and i want you leave my room." says Leander as Joesph just goes back and checks his email. Leander walks into the living and closes the door. "Don't come into the living room-i am naked" Leander opens the door and throws his clothes on the floor "Thanks fag." Walks into the kitchen.6
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'What I told you about Kay...." starts to say joesph8
" Ya?" says Leander9
" I don't want you to say anything-i am just threw with it all." dociley says Joesph as he flips through the channels.10
" No, I told you not to say anything to me- like I always to her- I just avoid it. Though you said it, and I'll be seeing her, so i will say it."11
"I am just threw with it. I can't take the pain of making her cry.." says Joesph starring at a spider walking across the wall. "Hey grandfather." 12
"what?" confusingly says Leander standing by the fridge washing the dishes. "This is disgusting- when you eat peanut butter-finish the peanut that you leave on the spoon. It just sits here and rots, and fucking smells-this is disgusting."13
"Ok I will." Joesph says 14
"Ya you won't." says leander "What did you say about the spider?"15
"wel this spider is walking across the wall and I said "hello grandfather!" says Joesph 16
"Didn't your grandfather just die?" asks Leander17
"Ya-" says joesph "Thats why I said hello." The ancients believed that when you die you just continue in some new form. And I can't see my grandfather returning back to humanity- just as my grandmother I see him transcending beyond humanity and into something wonderful and beautifl like a spider, bird, cloud, star, butterfly. Well more my grandmother returning as a butterfly- she loved butterflys."18
"You never mention your grandmother..." says leander19
"Well i have no need to, she is always with me." says Joesph pulling up his arm sleeve and showing off his butterfly tattoos.20
"Don't only fags, and women get tattoos of butterflys." laughs Leander21
"Oh my dearest Leander...well I have never had a cigarette to get a tattoo-but i have seen them on women." laughs Joesph22
"And thats what I am gonna tell her..." says Leander23
"Tell her what?" says Joesph24
"That your a women- and you just want to be friends- you want to be that girl friend she shops with...." says Leander25
"Oh-well I think I mdae that clear after the castration..."says Joesph as he sits back in the chair. He stares off into the cieling while he drifts rememebring days that seem so long ago ..............................................................................
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It would have seemed some ordinary trip to the mall. Though nothing between Kay and Joesph could ever be ordinary. Not since the day they ment on Junior Gemini has life ever between Ordinary. It wasn't as though they didn't try. They just hung out as friends. Though people talked so much. And when dealing with an 19 year girl everything is so fragile. they did quaint things like ride rides together. He waited for her durring thier splits. It never took him that long to get un dressed. Though the girls had a one piece, which took what seemed like forver to get off. Though he waited as though a patitent dog for her to come out of the bathroom. At that time everything seemed so easy. They ran around together without a care, or without worry from eachother.28
They worked together. They went out to eat, she drove him to work everyday. It didn't seem the calm before the storm. Whenever the worked at night together they always find away to end up junior gemini together. Which would always create fun conversations.29
"That wasn't a real all kids train" she say30
"I couldn't have planned that out..." Joesph says laughing. "All right Who's better Tigger or pooh?" The kids startled would yelled tigger,pooh, and a few yelled piglet. It was kinda of an inside thing. Though it worked for them cause they worked at at childrens ride. Joesph was pooh, Kay was Tigger, and thier assiant team leader Sarah was piglet. It just fit each of thier personalities.31
"So where do you go to school? he asked dauntingly32
"I go to university of Washington...though it's Kent not Seattle. Atleast my certificate will say University on it." Kay said33
"True- I go- well I went to Clevealnd state University...good school" said Joesph34
"Did I ask you?" Kay says with a smile. He loved that about her. Even when she was just joking around. She to him, was just so real. More real than anyone has ever been in his life. 35
"What are you-?" he says36
'What?>>" she says 37
" Give me something of you." he says 38
"I am pure because I am born me" she says laughing like a cheerleader. With that line- changed thier lives. Joesphs mind begin to react. Though all he could was write it down. He become paralyzed. From his mind-to his bones- down through his soul. Days seem to fade. He couldn't get this line oughtta his head. She had infected, like some deranged disease. They go to work, they to the mall, out to eat, talk...though still he couldn't get it oughtta his mind. He just sat down one day and begin to write and within 2 minutes had a finished poem:39
Kays Limerick40
I am pure because I was born me, 41
akward, confused, beautiful as a tree! 42
Th world aches in my breath, 43
yet shall crumble in my death! 44
Though through it all, 45
I will always ever be me.....................46
I am pure because i was born me, 47
absurd, confused beautiful as a tree! 48
Eternity aches in my breath, 49
yet shall cumble in my death! 50
though through it all, 51
i will always ever be me........................52
I am pure because i was born me, 53
akward, confused beautiful as a bruised knee!54
th clouds ache as i bleed,55
yet shall mend when i breed!56
though through it all, 57
i will always ever be me......................58
It was just one of those moments when the stars alighned between them and the muses said "Here!" Joesph began to laugh hysterically. Almost madly. A tear swiped out his eye. He knew his life had been changed, by this chance meeting- of this wonderful- beautiful woman that he can't get out of his mind. 59
Though it scared him more then anything. He trumbled with fear when he was in her sights. His knees locked, and heart pounded. He even began to sweat. One night after the got off the ripcord. They were intwind, intangled and head and shoulder. It was so honest, and real. There were no questions out of eachother. There was nothing expected. Which kept it honest. Though Joesph was filled with fear. 60
One day while at a parkbench in the commons area. a mutual friend said outloud "Hey Kay why don't you give Joesph a chance? He really likes you.."61
"We are just friends." Joesph said while Kay smiled and touched his shoulder standing in front of him. Her back was turned, and Joesph began to panic, and his knees locked. She always put herself there. She did her best to protect him. He knew he was a broken spirit, she attempted what she could. 62
"Ya were just friends." she said with bobbing her head. 63
Joesph quickly ran to the bathroom. Throw up into the toliet. His stomach feeling queezy. He then sat in front of the computer, created an email, and began to write an email to Kay:64
My dearest Kay,65
I just have to tell you how awesome you are. And that I will always be indedded to the angel that you will always shine to me as. Though I ask you to turn away from me. And never think of me- I am a waste of your time, no good- as my mother always said. Just go, and never think of me...I'll just make you cry.66
always with love,67
Joesph68
with the end of the letter, and as he pushed send he began to cry. He returned back out to Kay and the others.69
"You okay?" she asked. She reached for his cheek. He turned away.70
"I am ok." he says without effort, holding his stomach. 71
"I'm okay, your okay." she said cheesly attempting to make him smile.72
"Ready to go eat." he says 73
"Ya, what do you feel like? oh wait, why should I ask, I know what you want....." she says 74
"YA, HE WANTS YOU!" says peter interupting her.75
"Don't say anything.." she says placing her fingers on his lips. She looks at Peter "What lays between myself and Joesph, is between us. We are great friends, and thats all that matters to us." She takes her hands off his lips and they walk off into the sun. 76
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