-Forget me its that simple-

FAITH’S P.O.V1

“That’s it I am done! I can’t stand you anymore! I’m leaving!” I grabbed a suitcase ripped open my drawers, threw in random articles of clothing and left the room. “Come on baby cakes please don’t leave!” I shook my head. “No that’s it No more ‘baby cakes’ no more of your crap. Im done with you!” I went over to my CD case picked up a handful and crammed them into my bag. “Nice knowing you but its over.” His face was all screwed up in anger “Don’t let the door hit your-“ I slammed it in his face. What am I going to do now? I have no money and no home. I walked down the busy street. There was a nice looking man coming my way. I stopped him “hi do you have fifty cents I can use for the pay phone?” I asked politely. He rummaged in his pocket for a minute and pulled out a cell phone. “I don’t have change use this.” I quickly dialed the number. 2

He waited for the third ring before answering. “Hello?” 3

“Hey its Faye”4

“Oh.”5

“Listen I know you’re mad at me and stuff but Im stranded here I need your help. If you can just pay for a plane ticket I promise I will pay you back.”6

He sighed into the phone. “Faith I haven’t talked to you in three years, and you up and call me expecting me to automatically forgive you and pay 200 dollars so you can come home?”7

“Yes.” 8

“Well you were wrong.” Click.9

He hung up. DAMN IT! I gave the man the phone. “Thank you sir.” 10

“No problem.” He said and held out his hand. 11

“My name is Adam Lazzara.” I shook it. 12

“Im Faith” I said then turned around and left.13

I wondered around Downtown LA (I know its not safe) for the rest of the day, I slept in an alley behind a trashcan so it was hard to see me. I am 20 years old and originally from Long Island. When I was 17 I met a boy named Jeremy Fisher and left my family, friends and home to live with him in California. Obviously it didn’t work out, he is five years older than me and every time we got in an argument over how he works too long or how he drinks too much, he’d tell me I wouldn’t understand because Im too young. I don’t have anyone to go to because I wasn’t allowed to have friends while I was in California. Apparently they are bad influences. I don’t know my way around either, Jeremy insisted that a real woman should stay home and clean and cook. 14

I woke up the next morning to a loud purring. A little kitten was sleeping on my chest. “Hey little guy.” The kitten opened its eyes. I picked him up then set him back on the ground. I got up to leave, its illegal to sleep on the streets in Los Angeles. After gathering up all my belongings and stepping out of the alley, I sat down on the street and waited for someone to come, hey if you’re homeless why not try to bum some money off people? The cat followed me and sat in my lap again. It was DEFINETLY a boy. And by the looks of it a stray. He was missing batches of fur and was extremely skinny. I named him Oliver Twist after the orphan in the book. After an hour of waiting someone finally came. “Excuse me sir.” He glanced over. It was the same man from before. He had on a gray shirt with a black jacket over it and semi-tight pants. His eyes were a dark brown and his smile was stunning.15

“Oh hi what was your name? Faith right?”16

“Yeah you can call me Faye. Do you have any spare change?” he searched his pockets again.17

“Sorry I uhh don’t have any…”18

“Oh well thanks anyway.” 19

He grinned, “You look hungry. Do you maybe want to go to breakfast with me?” I nodded. I put Oliver down and grabbed my stuff. “Here let me help you with that.” He took the suitcase out of my hands and we walked towards the nearest restaurant. “Weird coincidence that we ran into each other again huh?” I asked him. “Not really. My hotel is right there.” He jabbed his thumb backwards. “Oh you’re visiting. From where?” 20

“Long Island.”21

“No way that’s where I am from. What are you doing up here?”22

“My band is on tour. But we’re going back next week. Do you live here or are you visiting?”23

“I am kind of in between. Im trying to raise money to fly back to Long Island.” 24

“How much do you have so far?”25

“A nickel I found on the street yesterday.” He laughed. He looked behind us and pointed. Oliver was following behind me. “Oh that’s Olivier twist.” 26

“He’s your cat?” 27

“Kind of.”28

We got to the restaurant. It was a crepperey I had a crepe with strawberries and chocolate. He had the same thing. I told him about my situation. “What a jerk. So now your stuck here?” I nodded. I had finished half of my crepe and was totally full. “You know, since we’re heading back to Long Island next week you can come with us….” I looked at him. He looked truly sincere but I couldn’t just hitch a ride with some random boy that I met on the streets for all I know he isn’t really in a band. “I couldn’t go. Not without giving you something in return. But hey maybe we’ll see each other again sometime….” I boxed up the rest of the crepe. “Thanks for your help.” I left. 29

Oliver followed me out. We went back to the street in front of the alley we were on before. I fed him the rest of my crepe. We bummed 68 dollars total over the next three days, Adam passed us twice a day every time he passed he gave us ten dollars, some food, and he kept us company for about an hour. I don’t know what we would have done without him. On the fourth day he came by with a friend. “Good morning Faye. This is my friend Matt.” Matt had straggly black hair about an inch past his ears, and dark blue eyes. He held out his hand.30

“I would shake your hand but I haven’t showered in four days.”31

“Neither have I.” I shook his hand. “And whose this?” he said advancing towards Oliver. 32

“That’s Oliver Twist.” Adam said, “He’s named after the orphan, I don’t know why though considering he’s got me and Faye.” He said proudly like it was common knowledge that we have a baby kitten. Matt bent down and picked Oliver up and began to stroke him softly causing Oliver to purr loudly. 33

~FFW 3 YEARS~34

“Damn I’m late I’m late!” I said to no one in particular. I grabbed my purse and ran out of the house and all the way down the street before hitting the small coffee shop jam-packed with people. I ran in, pulled on the required apron and Hello my name is pin then jumped behind the counter. “Four Doubleshot Orange Mocha Frapaccino’s no whip stat Faye!” Rang a voice from the register. There were three other people behind the counter making drinks and we were still packed. I finished the frap’s and placed them on the counter. Business died down after Two o’clock. I was on register.35

A guy walked in with black hair and blue eyes. “Good afternoon welcome to Claire’s Coffee Corner. What can I get for you today? We have a special on Iced Carmel Maccioto’s and Iced Vanilla Bean Frapaccino’s. You can also try out some of our deluxe sandwiches made fresh this morning, Such as the turkey rye or the ham wheat.” 36

“How about a Coffee and a crassount.” He said. “Have we met before?” 37

“I don’t know, do you live around here?” I asked38

“Yeah I’ve lived in Long Island all my life but not in this particular area.”39

“Have you ever lived in California?”40

“No but my band goes on tour over there a lot.” I know I had seen him somewhere but I cant put my finger on exactly where. 41

“What high school did you go to?” he asked me.42

“Wilson.” I replied. It wasn’t from high school though. Maybe we didn’t know each other. 43

He shook his head. “What’s your name?” I asked him.44

“Matt”45

“Well nice to meet you I am Faye.”46

He shook my hand. “When do you get off?” he asked.47

“In about an hour.”48

“How about I meet you here in an hour so we can further our conversation?”49

I smiled and handed him his drink. “See you then.”50

My shift went by pretty fast considering how slow business was. He came in on the sharp. I took off my apron and my pin and sat down across from him at a nearby table. We talked about our lives. He is a bassist in a band called Taking Back Sunday. He’s single and just moved down the street from here. I told him that I lived on the streets of L.A. before my big sister wired me money to come live down here in Long Island three years ago and I still haven’t come around to moving out of her house. He’s cute and he listens to me when I talk. I like this guy.51

“What are you doing after work tomorrow?”52

“Nothing. I get off at six.”53

“Do you want to maybe go to dinner?” he sounded nervous. 54

“yeah ofcorse where?”55

“Theres a good Italian place down the street from here I tried yesterday. That sound good?”56

“Yeah I’ll meet you there at seven thirty.”57

“yeah okay I will see you there..”58

We exchanged numbers then he went to his car and I walked home. I finally reached the house. “You’re late.” Said my big sister Charlotte. “Yeah sorry I ran into someone and got held up.” I answered59

“Was it a boy?”60

“Possibly….” 61

“Wait are you finally going out on an actual date?”62

“yes. Tomarrow at seven.” I havent dated scince Jeremy. It has been three years. I hope I don’t mess up!63

MATTS P.O.V64

“I met this girl today at the coffee shop…” 65

“Yeah was she hot?” Adam was asking me.66

“Hell yeah. She has blonde hair and eye’s the color of the sea.”67

“your gay.” 68

“Why because I try and have a relationship with people unstead of pushing people out and having one night stands with people that you’ll never see again?”69

“No because you probably practiced that last sentence in your head a thousand times and just now said it allowed after contemplating all the effects that would come after it.”70

“You know me too well.” I said trying to make it sound like we were joking around. We were at my place. Adam always gets touchy when it comes to girls, he’s never had a serious relationship with any girl other than his mom. He’s more of a hit and split kinda guy.71

“Actually I think I had met her before but im not sure where I was thinking maybe she was one of your uhh…aquantinces. Her name wa Faye, she lived on the streets in Cali for a while, ring a bell?” Adam looked like he was deep in thuaght. 72

“not that I know of..” 73

We drpped the subject and spent the rest of the night drinkning and watching Fight Club. I slept until four in the afternoon. Adam was long gone after I woke up. I decided to go down to the coffee shop. Its not far from my house so I just walked it only took me about 20 minutes to get down there. Faye was at the register. She looked so good in that little blue apron. “hey can I have the same thing I had yaesterday?” She looked up and smiled. “yeah sure a coffee and a crassount right?” 74

“Yes please” she scribbled Matt onto a caup and passed it to the worker on her left When the drink was done I picked it up and left. 75

FAITHS P.O.V.76

After I got off at six I went straight home and got ready. Im not sure if im more excited or nervous. Hes really cute and he seemed pretty calm when he came in today while I was screameing on the inside. Charolette kept asking me questions like “Oh my gosh what are you going to do if he wants to do it? Not here. I don’t want to here you guys.” Or “If he comes over and im asleep wake me up so I can meet him.” 77

She made me more nervous. The Italian place was a half hour walk so I left early. What if he kisses me and I have Garlic breath or Coke mouth?? Then he would be grossed outand would hate me forever! Then I will be afraid to date and be alone forever and have a whole buch of cats. I finally reached the Italian resturaunt after thinking up about a thousand different senarios in my head of what might happen on this date. 78

MATTS P.O.V.79

She was five minutes late. Maybe she stood me up. Maybe she found someone better. Maybe she was hit by a car! She walked in looking almost as nervouse as I felt. I waved her over and she sat across from me. 80

“you look great.” She said after plopping down not-so smoothly.81

“I was just going to say the same to you.” She did look great. She wore a black tank top and tight jeans. Similar to what I was wearing (black shirt and tight jeans.) We share the same tastes. The date went pretty smoothly. She ate spaggetty and a glass of water. I had the same. We left the resturant.82

“how about I walk you home?”I asked.83

“yeah that would be great…”84

We walked in what I like to call comfortible silence (well me and everyone else whose seen pulp fiction.) Should I hold her hand? Or should I wait until she holds mine. Should I ask her? Or should I just grab it? I went for the last choice and grabbed her hand. She looked at me and smiled We got to her house. 85

“this is it thanks for the night I had a great time.” She said and turned around to walk twords her house. 86

“Wait.” She turned around again. I put my arms around her waist and kissed her on the lips softly. I slipped her some tounge and she slipped back. We broke apart. “I’ll call you.” I said and walked back towards my house. 87

ADAMS’ P.O.V88

I knew exactly who he was taling about. Three years ago when we were on tour in California I met her and introduced her to Matt. I wasn’t going to tell him that though, that would admit that I like her. He dropped the subject and we drank. I woke up the next morning with my head pounding. Matt was still passed out as usual. He always passes out when he gets drunk. He wouldn’t mind if I left. I went home and took a shower. I wonder if I will see Faith ever again. If I do it will be because of Matt. Theyre going on a date tonight. He is so lame when it comes to girls. I bet he has to work up all the courage he has just to hold her hand. He DEFINETLY wont kiss her.89

FAITHS P.O.V.90


I was so happy it went so well. I was almost tottally sure it was going to be a disaster. I like Matt a lot plus he’s a great kisser. Charlotte asked for a full recolection on the night. She was over excited when it came to the part were we kissed. I fell asleep earky and planned on sleepeing in but was brutally awakened at 7 by someone banging at my door. I opened it. “Charlette, what the hell are you doing waking me up this early I have today off.”
“Someone’s here for you I think its that Matt guy.” I walked out of my room and into the living room. It was Matt. He had a boquet of roses.
“hey sleepy head Today we’re going to spend the WHOLE day together So go on and get ready.”
“But I have to..” I started but he cut in.
“Come on Faye you and I both know you want to.” I decided not to ask and went to get in the shower91


MATTS P.O.V.

I decided to surprise Faye with roses and a day to spend together. So I went over to her house on the bright. She came out in just a big tee-shirt. I don’t thnk she noticed, but I sure did. She looked so hott with that over-sized thing that went down just past her butt. It didn’t take her long to get ready and we were aut of the house by 8. We hopped into my car which was parked outside of her house. “I have someone I want you to meet.” I said puuling on my seat belt. It went on with a click. “yeah yeah okay” she said and clicked on her belt.92


ADAMS P.O.V.93

Matt called me at 6:00 in the morning. “hello.” I snorted into the phone angrily.
“hey.” Matts cheerful voice said from the other line.
“Hey whats up?” My voiced changed everythings okay with your best friends even early-morning calls.
“I want you to meet my girlfriend Faye.” DAMN IT! She’ll recognize me! I mean how could you forget this face??
“yeah okay. How about like tomarrow?”
“No we’re comeing over in three hours okay? okay?”
“umm uhh yeah okay later..” We hung up.
I just realised how messy my apartment was. There was candy wrappers, beer cans, ciggarette butts, and condoms everywhere. And that was just the livivng room. It took me 23 minutes to clean my living room. 42 minutes to clean my bathroom. 46 minutes for the kitchen and an hour for my room. That left me absolutly NO time to clean myself up. But theres one thing I can always count on. That’s New York traffic. It took me ten minutes to pick out my clothes and put them on. I heard a door bell ring, Its them. I walked over to the door and swung it open. Damn it. “hey baby.” It was my ex girlfriend Alex. She has strawberry blond hair, light brown eyes and bright red lips.
“Go away.” I said and shut the door in her face. She opened it.
“What did I do to you anyway?” she invited herself in and sat on the living room couch.
“Don’t you speak English? I said GO AWAY!” she blinked not sure what to make out of this situation. Then laughed. “your always such a joker!”
“Im not kidding leave.Im expecting company. I grabbed her arm and lifter her off the couch.
“Well don’t you want to know why im here?”
“No.” I pointed towards the door.
“I left something here a few months ago.” She advanced towards me.
“What did you leave here?” I said preteneding like I cared.
“You.” She kissed me.
“Did we come in at a bad time?” Matt and Faye were standing at the door hand in hand. I pushed Alex off of me.
“No she was just leaving.” I shoved her towards the door.
“Call me.” She yelled before leaving.

FAITHS P.O.V94

The person Matt wanted me to meet was tall with brown hair and dark brown eyes. When he saw us he smiled and I rememberd. He is the guy from the streets three years ago. The one who took care of me and Oliver. Adam Lazzara. “faye this is my best friend adam.:” Matt said with a smirk.
“yeah we’ve met.” I said “don’t you remember me from a few years ago?I had a cat on the streets?”
“vaigly.”95


ADAMS’ P.O.V.96

She did rememeber me!” Matt smirked, We all sat down on the couch in silence for a little while. “I need a cigarette do you guys mind? If I run out and get one?”
“No” I said then got up qnd walked out the still open door.
“So. You found your way home?” I asked. No duh Lazzara.
“Yeah my older sister paid for me to come back.”
“That’s good. You look great by the way. Its not that you looked bad then or uhh anything its just like umm uhh you look good now uhh too.” I knew I would mes that up..
“yeah thanks you look good too..Well you looked good then too well you know..” She was nervous.
“so you found a job?”
“yeah at Clairs Coffee Corner. Its not big but hey it’s a job.”
“Better than mooching money off the streets.” Bad move. Damn why did I say that? She smiled
“Well I only really bummed 8 dollars all the rest was from you.”
We laughed. “What can I say I have a soft spot for pretty girl” I said.
“Same here.”
“You like girls? Oh that’s why your with Matt right?”
“No I meant pretty boys..”
Matt came back with a pack of Parlament Ultra Lights and handed one to each of us.
“Whats up?” Matt asked cheerfully sitting between us on the couch.
“Nothing Much.” Faye said. She is so hot. The way she moves her lips. What am I saying? I barely know her?! Matts cell phone rang blaring Ms. New Booty into our ears. He picked it up.97


MATTS P.O.V98


“Hello.” I said into the small cell phone.
“Hey” said my brothers voice shakily.
“Whats wrong?” I asked worriedly.
“…Moms…Dead.” He said.
“What? How?” Tears welled up in my eyes.
“She died last night while crossing the street. She was…hit…by a car…” The tears gushed down my face. Why? Why her she was so kind so thaughtful so beautiful..Why couldn’t it be Adams mom? My brother hung up, hes not good when it comes to emotions.Faye and Adam started to ask questions. “Who was that? What happened? Are you okay?” I didn’t bother answering any of them. They rubbed my back and Faye kissed my Forehead and wiped away that stained my cheeks.
“Do you need anything?” Adam asked getting up.
“No.” I answered a little too harshly.
“Water? A grit? A hug?” he asked.
“No.” I said copying my same harshness.
“Do you want me to rub honey on your thighs?” Faye asked.
“No. Wait. What?”
“I just wanted to be helpful.” She said in a little girls voice.
“How is THAT helpful?” Adam asked looking at her in confusion.
“It would just make me all sticky.” I said and we all laughed.
I told them what happened when I was done I added. “lets get drunk.” Adam blinked. “dude its like 12 in the afternoon.”
“I know.” I said
“I like your style I like your style.”we all laughed again. Adam went over to the refridgerator and swung open the door.
“I have……….nothing. I don’t even have an english muffin.” Je said in a sad voice. Faye walked over and pushed Adam aside. “Move it.”
“My bad Shamoo.” He said pushing past her.
“Hey! I am so NOT fat!” she played.
“OKAY.” Adam said in an unconvincing voice, then plopped back on the couch. Faye muttered something under her breath that sounded like apple but Im pretty sure it wasn’t.
“Wait a second.” She reached in the fridge and pulled out what looked like a small red ball. “you have half of a tomato.”
“Toss it here.” Adam yelled and held up his hand.
“oops.” Faye dropped the tomato on the grond then stepped on it.
“Oh you are so going to get it!” Adam got up to do something to her and I realised what was going on. My best friend and my girlfriend are flirting right in front of my face. I decided to but in.
“lets go out to drink.”99


FAITHS P.O.V. 100

I think Matt was the first to notice that me and Adam were flirting because he almost sounded angry as he said “lets go out to drink.”
“okay.” I said and pushed past adam.
Matt stood up and walked towards the door followed by me.
“I’ll be right there let me just clean up this mess Adam said and made a gestgure towards the tomato. Me and Matt strepped outside.
“Do you like him our something?” there as a hint of jelousy and anger in his voice.
“No we were just playing around Matt, don’t worry about it.” I put my hand on his cheek.
“Maybe I am overreating. Because of my mom.” He looked away. I could tell his eyes were filled with tears. I kissed him on the forehead then on the cheek then on the lips. His soft tounge and smooth lips felt so good against mine, I never want this moment to end. My cheeks got wet from his tears. I heard the door open behind us and we broke apart. “Sorry.” Adam said loudly and walked ahead of us.101

ADAMS P.O.V.102


I don’t know why I got so angry Its not like shes my girlfriend. I barely know her and I feel like killing my best friend over her. We walked over to Matts car and I sat in the drivers seat. Matt got in the seat next to mine and Faith sat in the back. I flicked on the radio our song was playing I reached over to flip the station.
“wait I like this song.” Faith said from the back seat and started to sing along. “Ive got my viens all tangled closed…” Me and matt turned around at the same time and stared. Does she really not know? “Did you tell her what songs we sing Matt? Did you maybe let her listen to some of our songs?”
“No.” he said and started giggling.
“I just wanna bring you down so badly.” She sang. I turned off the radio.
“HEY!”
“Did you just say BRING you down so badly?” I asked her in an annoyed voice.
“that’s the words.” She said in a voice that insisted she was right.
“No its break you down.” Matt stared at her in disbelief.
“Whatever. How do you guys know anyway obviously you don’t like it you just wanted to change it.”
“Do you even know the name of the band who sings it?” Matt asked
“Yeah Taking back Something…” he rolled his eyes and turned around. She went on telling us about our band. “I like the lead singers voice in that song I don’t really like the band just the song.” Matt turned around in his seat to look at her oince again. “The band is called taking back SUNDAY and the lead singers name is ADAM LAZZARA. The song is called MAKE DAMN SURE and the bassist is named MATT RUBANO.” He practically yelled at her.
“thank you I like my voice too.” I said and pulled out of the parking lot. She turned bright red. Me and Matt laughed and teased her the whole way there. 103


FAITHS P.O.V.104

I wanted to be an Animorph. You know those kids that turn into animals and run away to save the farm or kill the bad guy. How could I be so stupid? After much teasing and laughing we got to the bar. Adam parked the car and we got out. I still felt a little butt hurt about the whole Taking back Sunday incident so I walked a little ahead of the boys.
“Oh my god! Faith! Fancy seeing you here!” I looked around. My ex boyfriend Jeremy Fisher was standing outside of the bar with a joint in his left hand.
“Hi Jeremy.” I said meanly. He looked pretty bad . He had the whole Johnny Depp in Pirates of the Caribbean look about him (which I must admit looked hot) only he is not a pirate he is a real estate agent, or at least he WAS a real estate agent, he couldn’t sell anything in that outfit, unless ofcorse it was a compass that doesn’t point north. Matt came up behind me, slipped his arms around my waist and kissed my neck. I kept my eyes on Jeremy. I could tell he was angry. Matt realised we werent alone and let go of me.
“Hello, Im Matt Rubano.” He held out his hand. I knew at that moment Jeremy was really mad. This big blue vien was pulsating on his forehead. He stared at me then back at matt then over to Adam who was now standing on my left. He was sizing up the situation. He knew he could take Matt but he want sure about Adam. If Adam stayed here and didn’t go inside then we would all be fine. I guess he decided that he was going to take the risk anyway. He spit directly on Matts hand and said “Don’t touch Her.”
“What the hell is your problem?” Matt said loudly. Jeremy stepped closer to Matt. Jeremy is about four inches taller than Matt, so he sort of looked down on him. “You wanna step fool? Lets go right here. Right now. I will kick your little chode ass.” He used his California lingo like he was cooler than everyone else. I stepped inbetween them.
“Come on Jer. Step off. Chill cant we all just get along.” I asked
“No. This guy is all up on you.” Jeremy said.
“He’s my boyfriend. We broke up Jeremy. I havent seen you in years. Get over it.” I saw a tear in his dark gray eyes then it went away.
“Don’t talk back to me its not your place.” He hit me across the face. Back to the old game again. Matt and Adam both went at Jeremy but I stopped them. I held my bleeding lip.
“Jeremy just leave me the hell alone its over! We will never be together Go home Jeremy Fisher Nobody wants you here!” I don’t know why I thaught that would work. I guess I watch too much Dora The Explorer where you can just say swiper no swiping and he leaves. Real life isnt like shows on Nick jr. though. Jeremy slapped me again. I couldn’t hold Matt or Adam back and they went at him. Jeremy ran away , Matt and Adam soon gave up chasing him and came back to me. I had my sleeve over my split lip. It wasn’t that big of a deal this used to happen all the time.
“Come on lets go in.” I said and made an effort to go to the door. Matt stopped me.
“Let me see your lip.” He said trying to move my arm away from my face.
“Its not that big of a deal come on lets go in ever scince I saw Jack Sparrow over there Ive been craving some rum.” I laughed. Adam gave me an unreadible look, I could tell he wasn’t with us, he was deep in thaught, I wonder what he hides behind those brown eyes.
“No we’re not moving until I see your lip.” Matt said. I moved my arm. It stopped bleeding but It hurt really bad. He touched the cut. It hurt more. I flinched. “does it hurt?” he asked.
“no” I lied. He kissed my cheek, grabbed my hand and led me into the bar. Adam followed us.
“ I gotta pee.” Matt said and left for the bathroom. Me and Adam took a seat at the bar.
“You sure that doesn’t hurt.” Adam said looking at me with that unreadable expression.
“Yes.” I said then flagged down the bartender. “Rum. Get me rum. Don’t car what kind and I want it straight up.”
Matt came back from the bathroom and ordered Beers for him and Adam. We stayed there and drank for four hours. We left totally bombed The bartender took our keys and told us we had to walk home. We stopped at a liqour store and got three bottles of bacardi.
“This room is safe and sound will you lay here with me and feel it. I think I like today I think its good its something I cant get my head around. True love is something that comes easy….” We were singing….very obnoxiously ,very loudly and walking down the street at five o’clock at night. “I heard a pen drop and A nervous heartbeat. Have you ever heard me scream I LOVE YOU! Oh I need you now. The earth fell fast asleep this room is safe and sound will you lay here with me and feel it. I think I like today I think its good its something I cant get my head around I think I like today I think its good its something I cant get my head around ladadadaladadadadaladadadadla.”
We slurred and missed some words. We got to Adams house four songs later. We barged in singing “My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard…” Right as we got in we collapsed onto the couch laughing.
“im tierd im going to bed.” I announced then got up and walked to the bedroom. I took off my pants and shirt so I was only in my panties and bra and climbed into the bed. Matt came in too.
“Mind if I join you?” He asked. I climbed over to his side and kissed him. He kissed back, but he kissed different, more passionatly not so soft and sweet. The kissing turned into something more and before I knew it we were having sex. He seemed taller but that was probably because I was so drunk.
The next morning I woke up around 11:30. I looked around, It was too bright in here. My head hurt so bad.Where am I? Oh yeah Adams house. Last night rushed through my head. I looked to my left. But Matt wasn’t there. It was Adam.105

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ADAMS P.O.V.107

“What the hell are you doing here?!” Faye screamed and my head screamed back. I looked back she was sitting next to me in bed naked hold a blanket over herself.
“This is MY bed.” I said and turned over to go back to sleep. Then I rememberd, We did it last night.
“Did we…” she looked worried.
“do it?” I finished her sentence.
“Yes”
“I am pretty sure we did..” I said. Then sat up th blankets fell off of me revealing my bear chest. I looked under, no pants. “Uhh yeah we did.” I said.
“Adam… Faith. You guys here?” Matts voice rang from the living room. Faye’s eyes got huge.
FAITHS P.O.V.
“Go under the blankets!” I pushed adams head under the blankets and pulled the blanket up to my chest so you could only see the straps of my bra.
“In here baby!” I yelled. He came through the door of the bedroom and walked over to me.
“oh I didn’t realise you were wearing a white tanktop yesterday under the blue one.” He said. I looked down the straps did look like a tank top.
“yeah well im full of suprises.” I said.
“Have you seen adam.”
“No….Yes! I have he went to go get ciggartettes.”
“that’s odd I just got some yesterday remember?” he said
“No.”
“yes yes I did…”
“that cant be right your dillusional from all the alcohol last night…”
“Okay…Im going to go take a shower…” he left and walked towards the bathroom. I sighed poked my head under the sheets. “we’re safe.”
Matt came back in. “Who are you talking to?” he asked giving me a weird look.
“My..leg.. We are safe don’t worry you don’t have to walk for a long time.” I patted Adams head. He was about to crack up laughing.
“Okay….maybe you’re the dillusional one.” He bent down and kissed me. How could I not know that kiss last night wasn’t Matts. His are safe and comfortable, and caring and cute. Adams are playful and daring and hard and beautiful. I must admit Adam is a better kisser. We broke apart and he left. I waited till I heard the shower running that I told Adam to come out.
“Don’t Ever tell anyone. I like Matt. I do really, just we were drunk and it was dark I made a mistake.” I said. Adam smiled but there was a hint of sadness in his eyes.
“Don’t worry about it.” He bent down and kissed my cheek then got up and got dressed. I couldn’t help but to stare at him. He is so hot. But I am with Matt. I got up too and got dressed. Adam left the apartment and I sat on the bed and waited for my turn in the shower. Matt finished and came into the bedroom, He was in only a towel. I stared at him too Matt has a much better body than Adam, niether of then are fat but Matt has muscle. He opened a drawer and pulled out boxers pants and a shirt. He’s over here so much he has his own clothes in a personal drawer. His hair was sticking up in odd directions. He looks so hot wet. He looked over in my direction. “Im gunna be naked soon, you can leave or stay I don’t mind either way I just thaught I would give you the heads up….” I just looked at him, I wouldn’t mind seeing him naked actually. I got up off the bed and went over to him. We kissed, I pulled off his towel and he pulled off my shirt and pants. We climbed onto the bed still kissing. Matt opened a nearby drawer and pulled out a condom. I have to admit Adam is better in bed, but Matt is still really good. When we were done I took a shower, I felt tottally gross. Am I now a total slut? Should I tell Matt what happened last night?
No I couldn’t do that. Matt and Adam are such good friends. It would be totally wrong. I finished up and put a towel over myself then walked out. Adam looked over at me. “Hey Matt left he said he had to go to his brothers house and sort out some family stuff. I told him I would drive you home. But my cars in the repair shop until 5 so you’ll have to chill here for a while sound okay?” I barely understood half of that, I just looked at Adam. He had a bowel of lucky charms in his hand and he was watching a paused movie. I nodded he shot me one of his cute smiles and I went into my room. My clothes smelled like alcohol. Ew. “Adam!” I heard him get up. He walked into the room “yeah.”
“Do you have any clothes I could wear mine smell like alcohol.”
“Yes.” He went over to a drawer and pulled out a shirt, pants and a belt. “That should work for a while, it might be a little baggy but that’s okay right?”
“yeah thanks.” He left. I pulled on the shirt it was a blue plaid button down. The pants slid down when I pulled them on, I put on the belt and pulled it to the last notch. I looked at myself in the mirror. This is all bad. I walked out into the living room. “I look like a lesbian.”
“Not a lipstick lesbo.” He said laughing.
“Oh haha you’re a riot.” I said and plopped down next to him on the couch. “whats on?” I said looking at the screen.
“Fight Club.” He said and stared at the Tv transfixed.
“Yes I love Brad Pitt.” I said.
“Me too. In a hederosexual way.” He took a bite of the lucky charms then put the bowel on the coffee table and put his feet up. He was wearing boots. I giggled aloud. “whats so funny.” He asked annoyed that I am talking during the movie.
“Nothing farmer John, just admiring your excellent choice in footwear.” I grabbed the bowl of lucky charms from the table and took a bite then held the bowl in my lap.
“Hey!” he said and all in a blink of an eye pulled his feet down off the table paused the movie and attemped to grab the lucky charms from my death grip. But I was too fast I jumped up and poured the remainder of the bowl in my mouth. He jumped up too. “You are pure evil.” He said then jumped after me. I tried to jump back onto the couch but he caught me in mid air and flipped me over his shoulder and held me there. I screamed and laughed at the same time. He sat down on the couch and I fell back behind it. I landed on my knees, But laid down on the floor and acted like I was in pain.
“Owwwwwww!” I said and rolled onto my side and clasped my elbow. I looked over at the couch. He was peeking over. I turned back onto my side and started to fake again. “Your not a good faker.” He said. I stopped and looked over at him I could only see his eyes and forhead the rest was hidden behind the couch, he was all the way turned around, sitting with the back to the tv. “You didn’t seem to notice last night.” I said back and stuck out my tounge. He poked his mouth over and stuck out his back, “At least I knew who I was sleeping with.” He said. I rolled back over. “shut up.” I said to the carpet. I heard him hop over the couch and sit next to me. He lit a cigarette and took a drag. He sat facing the wall to my left and leaning against the back of the couch. I sat next to him and braught my knees up so they touched my nose. He handed me the cigarette and I took a drag then handed it back. He took it. Our hands touched, We looked at eachother. He leaned over and kissed me on the lips. I kissed back. He stopped took one last drag of his cigarette put it out on the bottom of his boot then leaned back over and kissed me hard. He opened his mouth a little and I put my tounge in and he did the same to me. We laid down, still making out and the phone rang. He kept kissing me, but I broke us apart. “You should get that.” I said quietly.
“No,” he said and went back to kissing me. The answering machine came on. “hey this is Adam I cant come to the phone or I just didn’t pick it up I don’t know but leave a message and I might call you back.”
“hey adam I know youre there.” Matts voice was on we both stopped and he picked up. “hey.” He said.108


ADAMS P.O.V.109


“hey umm you guys are still there just chillin’?” he asked.
“Yeah we’re still here.” I said back. Faith got up and sat on the couch.
“well, could you guys stay there until like eight? Because I think I will be done here by then and I could just drive down there.”
“yeah no problem.”
“Do have any bacardi left?” he asked quietly.
“Umm no. I don’t think so but I can go out and pick some up.”
“Alright well see you later.”
“Bye.” 110

I went over and sat next to Faith. “Its okay if you stay here until like eight right.”
She was watching The price is right. “Yeah yeah.” I watched as an old lady named Nana stepped next to the wheel. “I have to spin this?” she said. She stepped up and pulled the huge wheel. I turned to Faith “I heard the wheel is filled with blood.” She smiled then got angry. “what the hell she spinned it way way too hard! Stupid lady go back to wal mart where you belong!” she was yelling at the tv. I laughed. “hey do you want to embark on a magical journey toliquor store with me to get some drinks?” I asked her. “yeah okay.” She turned off the PIR and we got up and went to the door. But it opened before I even touched the handle. “hey baby!”
“GO AWAY!” I yelled at Alex.
“No! I love you Adam! I love you!” she kissed me and I pushed her off.
“No you love my money! Get off of me and Go home.” She looked past me at Faye.
“Who the hell is THAT?!” She said and pushed me out of the way an advanced towards Faith. If she thaught faith was my girlfriend she would leave me alone. “that’s my wife Faith.” I mouthed PLAY ALONG behind Alex’s back. Faith smiled. “Hi im Faith. Who are you..?”
Alex fake smiled “Alexandra Rose Glass.” She said like she was some sort of princess. “Well Alexandra Rose Glass what is your business with my husband?” She stepped past Alex and stood next to me. I grabbed her hand.
“He…never said he was…married…” Alex stuttered.
“Oh yes well we’ve been married for what two years?” She looked up at me.
“Yeah two years sounds about right.” I said and bent down and kissed her. “I love you.” I said.
“I love you too Baby come on lets go. Nice meeting you Alexandra Rose Glass.” We turned and left. The minute we were out of earshot we started cracking up. “Did you see the look on her face when you said wife?” Faith said.
“yeah she got mad pale!” I said back.
“Who was she anyways?” faith asked looking at me.
“My ex girlfriend who wont leave me alone.” I said. We stopped laughing and walked in silence. I suddenly realised we were still holdung hands and let go. “Oh I forgot we were even holding hands in the first place.” She said and we went inside the liqour store.I picked out five bottles of Bacardi and set them on the counter. “wheres the party?” asked the man at the register. He looked up at me and turned pale. “Oh my….your Adam Lazzara from Taking Back Sunday dude can I have your autograph. My little sister is obssesed with you!” I smiled I love my fans. I grabbed the reciept and scribbled my signature on the back. “there you go.” I said. And he took it. We turned to leave. “wait. Can you just do one other little thing?” I back around. “yeah okay.” Faith stared at me in disbelief. The boy took out his cell phone and put it on speaker. “Hello?” said a girls voice.
“Hi who is this?” I said into the phone.
“Alicia. Who are you?”
“My name is Adam Lazzara.”
She got quiet. “N-No way…”
“Yes. I ran into your brother at the liquor store and he wanted me to talk to you.”
“I-I don’t know what to say…I love your band..”
“Alicia how old are you?”
“I am 17..”
“Once when I was seventeen I jumped off my friend Matts roof for truth or dare…” She laughed.
“Matt Rubano?”
“Yes. As a matter of fact Matt had a tragdedy in his Family would you do me a favor?”
“Yes…”
“Im going to give you his number I want you to call him and give him a little booster.”
“okay…”
I gave her his cell number and she hung up. I took a picture Of my self with Alicia’s brothers phone and me and Faith left. “You are so nice to your fans.” Faith said when we got outside. “Yeah I love them..”111

112

MATT’S P.O.V.113

Somewhere around 3:00 I got a call from someone. “Hello.” I said. I was excited someone called it was really dull and quiet around here. “Hey is this Matt Rubano.”
“Yes and who is this.”
“Hi my name is Alicia. Adam Lazzara told me to call you, he said you needed a booster..”
“Oh hello, actually he was right. My mom just died and stuff ….”
“Im sorry..”
“How do you know Adam? Ive never heard him talk about an Alicia before.”
“I am a fan Of TBS.” We talked for about two fourty five minutes about our lives. I always felt a connection with my fans and plus I really needed someone to talk to, my brother and sister-in-law just sat around crying and drinking tea. 114

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FAITHS P.O.V.116


We got back to the apartment and opened a bottle and put the others in the fridge. (their the two leeters.) I sat down on the couch and Adam sat down next to me. We both reached for the controller. I slapped his hand and flipped on the tv. He grabbed the remote from my hands and started going thruogh channels. “Crap, Crap, Crap, Shit, Crap, Stupid, Now this is my kind of show.” He stopped on Sponge Bob. Patrick and him were running from a butterfly.
“No go back to Fosters Home for Imaginary friends.” I said and tried to grab the remote.
“Nuh uh Sponge Bob can kick Bloos ass anyday!”
“Oh really? Mac would jump in and kick sponge bobs ass!”
“Psh not if Sandy was around! She knows Karate!”
“Well I could kick your ass!” I jumped on him and grabbed the remote then clicked back to fosters. “Success!”
He leaned over and tried to pry the remote out of my fingers. I put my foot on his chest and leaned back while holding onto the remote. He smiled and let go. I toppled over the side of the couch and landed on my left arm. I heard a sickening crack. He obviously didn’t cause he leaned over the side and grabbed the remote. “Owwwww….” I moaned and grabbed my arm. He peeked over. “This is the last time im going to say this Your not a good faker.”
“No really, I think my arm is broken.” I said
“ha ha your girly charm cant work on me..”
“No for real Im not messing around..”
“Okay its over come on and surrender to sponge bob.”
“Adam My arm is broken! If you don’t take me to the hospital Im going to rip off your legs and pray that the Ghost of Cristopher Reeves comes and takes them so at least they’ll go to some good cause..” His smile went away.
“Okay okay come on I will help you up.” He lifted me up by my other arm and I sat down on the couch. I just remembered his car is getting fixed! Crap! Maybe Charolette can come and pick me up.
“Adam if you get me the phone I can call my sister and she can drive me to the hospital.” He rushed over and got the phone.
“Im so so so sorry!” He said and handed the phone to me. He sat down on the coffee table across from me and held his face in his hands. Every once in a while he would glance up and whisper Im sorry. I dialed the number and waited.
“hello?” she said.
“hey can you do me a favor?”
“Yeah where were you yesterday and today?”
“Im at my friend Adams house I think I broke my arm can you pick me up and drive me to the hospital?”
“Yes but I cant stay there or pick you up I have graveyard shift..”
“okay.” I gave her the adress.
“Its okay adam.” I said and he looked up. I bent over and kissed his lips. He kissed back and we started to make out again. He put his fingers through my hair. I laid down on the couch and he laid ontop of me careful not to touch my arm. He slipped his hand under my shirt. Then he stopped. “I cant do this.” He looked at me then kissed me again. “Im afraid I will hurt your arm. And plus sponge bob is on.” He kissed me once more then got off. I am glad we didn’t go any furthure. I would have felt so bad afterwards. I am really starting to like Matt. But im starting to like adam too…117

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ADAMS P.O.V.119


I want her so bad but I don’t want to hurt her anymore than I already have. I cant believe I broke her arm. Everyone I get close too gets hurt, first Matts stitches and now Faiths arm. Someone knocked on the door. It was Faiths sister.
“Oh hi you must be Adam.” She had light blonde hair and light blue eyes. She was wearing black eyeliner, black pants and a lowcut tight white shirt. Her stomach was showing.
“Hi Faiths over here.” I pointed back. Her sister looked a lot like her except Faith had smooth and soft features and her sister had sharp harder features. Faith came over to the door. They were both beautiful.
“Oh Charlette this is Adam..” Faith said.
“Nice to meet you, lets go I have to be at work soon.” She turned to leave.
“come on lets go..” Faith said to me and with her not broken arm touched my shoulder. I have to confess Faith is a little prettier than Charlette though.
“I am going?” I asked confused.
“Ha ha you think you can just break my arm then desert me you thaught wrong…”
“No.. I just thaught you might not want me to go..” I said. She kissed my cheek. And said. “You thaught wrong.”
We got into Charlettes car and drove to the hospital. We got out and charlette drove away. It only took two hours for the doctor to say her wrist or something was broken and give her a cast. The cast was hot pink and went from her thumb to right below her elbow. I used my cell phone to call Matt.
“Hey we need a ride home can you pick us up at the hospital?”
“What happened are you okay?”
“Yeah I am fine. But I accidently broke her arm.” I cringed. Wait for it. Wait for it…
“What the fuck did you do to her?!” he yelled from the other side of the phone.
“Im sorry.” I said.
“Your going to be! I wil be over there in 10 minutes is it the normal one?” he asked.
“Yes,” I said. I have been to this hospital quite a few times. What can I say im accident prone.120

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FAITHS P.O.V122

Matt got there in fifteen minutes he parked and got out of the car. He went right to me. “Okay I have quite a few questions for you guys. First, What the hell are you wearing? Second What the hell happened, and last Wheres the alcohol?” I decided to answer the questions. “ummm.. my clothes were dirty so adam let me barrow his, we were fighting over the remote and I was pulling hard and adam let go and I fell, and the alcohol is at Adams..” He blinked. Then turned to adam. “You…..I……How….Fighting over the remote control……Are you guys in first grade? What shows were so important that you had to break my girlfriends arm?” adam winced as Matt said ‘my girlfriend’. “sponge bob.” Adam muttered quietly.
“If you werent my best friend….” Matt turned around grabbed my hand and we walked to the car. Matt drove and Adam sat in the front while I sat in the back. “Can you drive me home Im beat.” Adam looked back at me and Matt looked in the mirror. Matts eyes looked sad but he cheerfully said “yeah no problem.” It took us a half hour to get there. Matt parked. “you guys can come in if you want.” They stepped out of the car and I walked into my house. I turned on the lights and walked straight to my room and started to change into pajama bottoms and a tank top. Someone walked through the bedroom door. “hey im changing.” I called out. I looked behind me it was Adam. He walked up to me and kissed me. There was a little knock at my door. “hey faye you in there?” it was matt. I shoved adam into my closet and said “yeah come on in.” He came in. “Sorry for leaving you all day, I just really had some stuff I needed to sort out you know?”
“Yeah its no biggie.” I said
“Well sounds like you had a big day.”
“Yep. It was uhh very eventfull.”
“hey faith is matt still there its really hot in here?” adams voice said from the closet. SHIT! Matt looked at me in confusion. “What the hell was that?” he asked. “that was adams voice what the hell is he doing in here while your changing?” Matt looked furious. “That wasn’t adams voice…What voice Matt I think you need to lie down.” I said and pushed him onto my bed.
“No that was Adams voice whats going on? What are you-“ I got ontop of him and kissed him. He shut up and kissed back, He took off my shirt and pants and I took off his. I stopped and got up. “what?” he said and I grabbed a condom from my dresser then hopped back ontop of him. 123

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ADAMS P.O.V.125


They did it. They had sex right there and then with me in the closet. I heard everything every move every noise every moan of pleasure. I hate him. I hate her. What am I saying I don’t hate them! I just thaught maybe she liked me. Why does she make me feel like this? Why am I doing this? Matt is my best friend. I finally heard them finish and I heard him leave the room. Faith swung open the closet door she had only a towel on. She was pink with embarassment. “I….Im sorry.” She looked up at me. I couldn’t look her in the eyes. “Why for having sex with your boyfriend? You shouldn’t be.” I walked past her and almost got to the door before she stopped me. “Adam…I don’t know what to say I….I really like you….” I opened the door and walked out into the living room.
Matt was in the kitchen. “hey where were you?” he said.
“I have to go home.” I said and walked out the door. My house is too far so I decided to go to Fred’s house he lives a lot closer. I knocked on his door. Nobody came so I knocked again. He opened it this time. “Hey Adam come in..”
“I have to talk to you…” I went inside and sat on the couch. He came and sat next to me. I told him the whole story from when I met Faye three years ago to what happened ten minutes ago. He looked at me for a while “so this is some girl huh?” I nodded
“She so good that you would break up the friendship that you and Matt have over her?” I thaught about that.
“I….I don’t know.”
“You do know if Matt finds out about this it will break his heart. He will never trust you again, this situation could break up the band.” Fred is always so insightful.
“I don’t know what to do. Everytime I see them together, everytime I see him look at her or I hear her say his name, I die a little. I barely know this girl and Im willing to give up everything I have to be with her. Even Matt. Even Taking Back Sunday. Ive never felt this way for anyone. Fred I…..I think I’m in love….” 126

127

FAITHS P.O.V.128

I didn’t know what to say. I really really like adam and I really really like matt. I cant let this go on any more. I have to stop this I either have to stay with Matt or leave them both forever. I don’t know what to do. I used to read books where a girl had to make a decicion like this, I always thaught it was rediculous. Now I know where their coming from. Im stuck. I walked outside of my bedroom. “where’s adam?”
“he said he had to walk home. He looked upset…” matt was sitting on my couch eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwitch and watching the price is right. A man came up and spun the wheel. I heard matt mutter “stupid construction worker go do construction..” under his breath. I had to be alone to think. “Matt I think you should go..I need to sleep for a while.” I said.
He nodded and got up. “thanks for having me over baby.” He walked over and pushed his soft lips against mine. He touched my cheek then turned around and left. I plopped onto the couch. I feel like crying. I hate this. I just wish I never accepted that date with Matt. I looked over at the tv. Before I knew it I forgot all about my dilemma and got lost in the magic that is the price is right. I swear to God its medicinal.
I opened my eyes I must have dozed off. I looked around I was in a small room with no windows or doors. What the hell? “Hello. Oh my gosh if you’re that freak from Saw then screw you I am killing myself no games.” Nobody answered. I looked behind me somebody was behind me singing. I inched towards them. “Dull heat rises from the sheets. I’m a patient boy, Well, and a jealous man. But double standard of suspicion is running deep, oh, my blue heaven, Sometimes, it just feels better to give in.” I looked closer. “Adam?” he looked up. Something was wrong with him though. He looked directly at me with unfocused eyes. “I like rusty spoons.” He said and he got up and walked to the other corner of the room and got in the feetile position. “Adam whats wrong are you okay?” he looked up again. It wasn’t Adam though it was Matt. He looked at me then screamed and flopped over. “Matt what’s going on are you okay?” I went over to him. Blood was all over. I turned over his body their was a knife sticking out of his back. Tears rushed down my face.
I opened my eyes yet again. I was in the living room all the lights were off I looked around and ran to the phone. Tears gushed out of my eyes. I dialed Matts number and waited for him to answer. Please answer Please.
“hello..” he said I could tell he just woke up.
“Matt…Your…your alive…please…I…you were dead…I…I….didn’t know what to do….Please don’t…don’t die….I…Love you Matt….really just please don’t…..don’t die….” I said in between sobs.
“Shhhh I am okay Im not dead I am here. I am alive shhhh calm down, baby just hold on I am going down to your house I will be there soon just stay put.” He hung up. I killed him. I cried and held the phone and shook until he came over. As soon as I opened the door I flew into his arms. I showered him with kisses and held him. “I…was…so scared.” I said into his shoulder. I was still crying.
“Its okay tell me what happened..” he said and we walked into the house. I told him about my dream.
“I love you Matt.. I love you.”129


MATTS P.O.V130

I could barely hear what she was saying all I got was that she had a dream about Adam and Me and I had a knife in my back. She sobbed uncontrollably and kept saying I love you matt over and over again. I don’t know why she was acting so emotional. It was just a dream. It must have scared her pretty bad. She finally stopped crying. “Matt?”
“Yes.”
“Will you stay with me tonight?”
“Yes I will.” I held her hand and we climbed into her bed. I didn’t even change out of my clothes. She fell asleep in my arms. “I love you too.” I whispered into her hair. 131

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FAITHS P.O.V.133

I woke up, took a shower and went to work without waking Matt. I couldn’t he looked so cute. The rest of the week went by like always. Matt dropped in once a day for a coffee and a crassount. Other than that we didn’t see each other much. I haven’t seen Adam all week. But I think of him everyday. Every time the phone rings or someone comes to my door I pray its Adam. Matt hasn’t seen him either. He wasn’t picking up his phone and he wasn’t home. The look he had when he came out of the closet makes me want to cry. I miss him. Matt didn’t go to his moms funeral. He said if he didn’t go it was like she wasn’t dead. That cant be healthy. I don’t know who I worry about more Matt or Adam.
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MATTS P.O.V.135

“hello?” Fred’s voice answered the phone.
“hey, Its Matt.”
“Why hello. Whats up?”
“Have you seen or talked to Adam in the past week.”
“Yes everyday. He’s right next to me you want to talk to him?”
“Yes. Please.”
“hello.” Adam sounded pre-occupied.
“Hey.”
“whats up?”
“You’ve been avoiding me for the past week what the hell is wrong? Me and Faith are killing ourselves over here.”
“I haven’t been avoiding you, I’ve just been chillin with Fred.”
“Yeah okay, youre never home, you wont answer any phone calls and you storm out of Faye’s house like someone has just shot you in the head.”
“If I was shot in the head I would be dead, there would be no storming.”
“Adam you know what I mean.”
“okay.”
“well can you come over to My house tonight?”
“yeah when?”
“around 8.”
“see you then.” He hung up. I looked over at Faith. “he said he’ll be over at eight.” She nodded and rolled over. She worked every day this week. I should probably let her sleep for a while.136


FAITH’S P.O.V.137

I woke up in that stupid saw room again. “I know this is just one of those gay dreams.” I yelled to nobody. I looked around and sure enough Adam was in the corner singing. “Despondent, distracted, You're vicious and romantic; These are a few of my favorite things. All of those flavors and This is what you choose: Past the blues, past the blues, And on to something new,” he looked up at me with sad eyes. “I’ve come to inquire about your spoons..” he said then got up and walked to the corner. I looked away I cant see Matt dead again. “Please matt don’t die.” I whispered. I opened my eyes. Someone was laying in the corner I crawled over shaking all over. It was Adam with a knife in his heart. He wasn’t dead yet. “Adam? Wake up.” He looked at me and blinked “I know you well enough to know you never loved me. All of this is all your fault.” He whispered then died in my arms. I broke down.
“Faith? Faith! are you okay?!” Matt was shaking me. I was drenched in cold sweat. Tears flowed down my cheeks. “I….Its….Not m….my f-f-fault.” I said.
Matt was holding me in his arms. “no its not your fault no its not.” Someone rung the doorbell. Matt yelled “Come in!” Adam stepped through the door. I jumped up and gave him a huge hug. “Your….a-alive…I…..Im…so….s-s-sorrry. It Is m-my f-f-fault I d-d-didn’t mean t-t-to.” I studdered. He hugged me back.
“what are you talking about?” he said once I calmed down. I ignored him.
“Im going to go pick up our food.” Matt said and left. As soon as he left I told Adam about my dream a few days ago and then the one today.
“But I do love you Adam, I do. Its just I love Matt too.” I said when I finished.
“And I love you Faye. I shouldn’t have gotten so mad before Im sorry.” He said and kissed me. I missed his kisses. I kissed him back and then we broke apart. “Adam I don’t think that we can carry this on anymore. I love Matt too and plus you guys are so close. I…I think we should stop this.”
Matt walked in. “Chinese food!” Adam yelled as Matt walked in with two bags full of food and three drinks. He held the keys in his mouth. “Cood soomone help me?” he said as he came in. I got up and walked over to him I took the drinks and the keys and put them on the counter. Matt put the bags on the table and started to pull out the food caskets. “I love Chinese food.” I said and went over to the table and pulled out a chair.
“You love a lot of things..” Adam said quietly and pulled out a chair across from me.
“So what’s wrong? Its better than not loving a lot of things.” I said back.
“Not nessesarily. It could be a bad thing. You could ruin lives like that you know.” He didn’t look at me at all while saying this.
“Like whose?”
“I don’t know. Like people that love you but you desert them.”
“Who have I done that too? Not anyone in this room. Im obviously here so I didn’t desert them now did I?”
“Jeremy.” That broke me down. Jeremy is the only big mistake in my life and he always comes back to haunt me.
“GO TO HELL!” I screamed at him.
“IM ALREADY IN IT! YOUR KILLING ME OVER HERE FAITH!” he yelled back.
“IM NOT DOING ANYTHING JUST BACK OFF! I CANT STAND THIS ANYMORE!” I turned to Matt. “Im sorry I cant be with you anymore.” I turned back to Adam. “I hope I never see you again.” I ran out. Matt ran after me. “Faith what’s going on? Don’t leave come back.” I ran to the bank and pulled out all of my savings. I got a taxi, he drove me to the airport. I bought a one-way ticket to California. It was three hours until the flight went off. I sat at the terminal and waited. Tears were streaming down my face. It took every once of self restraint I had to not go back to Matts apartment and kiss Adam and Matt. But this was the right thing to do. I shook all over. Why is every relationship I have so fucked up? I went to the airport bookstore. “Hello can I help you?” asked the man at the register. “Hi can I have a book, something that has nothing to do with love in anyway. Something that has to do with Traveling and starting anew.”
The man blinked then smiled. He was a big black guy, he looked old.
“Man troubles?” he asked. “yes.” The tears came down faster and harder. “let me guess you just up and leave him?” he asked.
“Both…of them.”
“Two? You a player? You love them?”
“Yes.”
“You gotta choose girl.”
“Its not that easy.” I said. I explained the whole thing. I told him how I love both of them. How I cant stand to live without either.
“You got yourself a problem.” He said then looked off. And thaught for a while. “ Girl, sounds to me like every time you have a problem with running away from your fears. Every time things get too hard then you just walk away from it. School, Jeremy, and now those characters, Matt and Andrew.”
“Adam.”
“Yeah Matt and Adam. You need to go back to Marks house and tell him about you and Antoine’s relationship, see if he wants you back.”
“But what if he does and Adam still wants me too. Then they wont be friends again. If I truly love both of them the best thing to do would be to run, too leave forever. Its only fair.”
“But are you being fair to yourself by doing this?” he stared into my eyes
“Its not about me anymore.” 138

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“What the hell is going on here?” I tuned around and looked at Adam. He looked sad.
“We’ve been having a relationship and she told me that she loves both of us but she cant let our friendship die over this..”
“You did what? You had a relationship with her?” Adam is six feet tall and I am five five. That didn’t stop me from leaping on him though. I really love her, he knew that, Why, How could he have done this to me? I jumped on him and he fell the floor. I punched him in the face blood gushed everywhere I don’t know where I hit him and I don’t care. He pushed me off of him. “Matt don’t do this.”
“Fuck you.” I stood up and kicked him in the balls. Then kicked him in the stomach. He stood up keeled over with his hand on his face and the other one outstreatched in my direction. “stop.” He said. Blood flew out lf his mouth as he said it. “No. This isn’t Fight Club Adam this is real life. I Love her. I thaught you were my best friend. I trusted you. I told you everything.” I grabbed his collar and puched him in the face. “Fight back Adam! Fight Back.” He didn’t he just stood there.
“No.” he said and stood his ground. I punched him in the stomach again. “FIGHT BACK ADAM!” I yelled at him. What is he doing? Why wont he fight back. He just stood there. I kicked his leg and he fell down. I kicked him in the stomach again. “Get up!” I yelled at him. He scrambled up. I couldn’t do it. As much as I loved Faith Adam was my best friend and always will be. I just couldn’t do it. I stepped back. His nose and lip was bleeding, the side of his face had a huge gash on it that blood was flowing out of. He was keeled over still gasping for air. He looked up and took a deep breath then fell down. Shit he passed out. Blood was pouring out of his mouth.141


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This was all my fault. I am glad Matt beat me up. He deserved that much. He’s just been screwed over times ten. I deserved to be beaten to a pulp. I don’t even deserve his friendship. I woke up the next day in the hospital Matt was sitting at the edge of my bed with his head in his hands. “What happened?”
“You broke a rib and it punctured something you had internal bleeding. You have four stiches above your eyebrow and two in your lip. Your nose was almost broken too.”
“Ow.” Was all I could say. The doctor came in with a clipboard. “So what happened here?” he said looking at me.
“I fell down some stairs.” I said. The doctor didn’t look convinced but he didn’t ask any questions. He handed me some forms to fill out. Matt left and I was alone for three more days. I had to leave on the fourth day. Matt picked me up and drove me to his house. We walked in. The place looked horrible. Their was blood on the floor and the Chinese food was untouched on the table. Verious types of alcohol bottles where scattered everyewhere. Even Matt looked bad. He was pale. His eyes looked bloodshot and huge bags gathered benieth them. He hadn’t shaven in days and his hair was unbrushed. He was wearing the same clothes he had worn the day he had beat me up. Little blood splatters where on it. He smelled horrible too. 143

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“Hello.” I whispered into the phone.
“hey we don’t need to whisper…” said my friend Lizzy on the other side of the phone.
“Yeah Christy is sleeping..”
“Oh. Well I have a little dilemma, Remember how I won backstage passes to that concert? Well the person I was going to go with Cancelled last minute Can you go unstead.”
“I don’t know Liz, I mean I have the baby to take care of and stuff…”
“Come on Faye, It will be fun and I have someone who can take care of Christy.” Maybe it would be good to get out I mean I haven’t really been to a concert in like 6 months….
“Yeah, Yeah I think I will go..”
“Yes thank you so much Its tomarrow at 5:00.” I hung up.
I wonder what band is playing. I turned on the TV. “So how do you feel to be called an emo sex god?” said some newscaster on MTV to a tall man with a cute smile and brown eyes. It was Adam. I quickly changed the channel. I see his face everyday in Christy’s eyes. I cant stand thinking about him or Matt for that matter. Well at least I know that I don’t Have to actually talk about him until Christy’s old enough to ask questions. I heard screaming in the next room. She’s awake.
“Shhh Shh its okay baby girl don’t cry.” I grabbed her out of her crib and held her in my arms. She continued to cry. I started to bounce her up and down. She smiled and giggled, then started to cry again. This happened periodically through the night. Liz called me the next morning.
“You ready for the concert?” She asked.
“I don’t know Liz I’ve never left the baby…”
“theres a first time for everything…”
“This baby sitter better be good..”
“She is don’t worry..”
“okay Ill see you at 5:00.”
“Yeah okay.”
The day was pretty dull until five just taking care of Christy. Liz got their on the sharp. A girl came with her she looked nice and I trust Liz so I left for the concert.
“so whose playing?” I asked when we got onto the freeway.
“Umm Angels and Airwaves and some other band.” She turned into the parking lot the place they were playing at wasn’t far. We walked to the backstage line. She flashed he passes to the security guard and we passed through. The backstage wasn’t that big. Their were people everywhere carrying various things bass’s, guitars, pedals, and amps. Liz jumped and did a squeal then grabbed my arm. “look look it’s the lead singer of angels and airwaves Tom DeLonge!” A tall guy with longish blonde brown hair passed by us. “Excuse me Mr. DeLonge…Can I get your autograph?” she tapped his shoulder and held out a pad of paper and a sharpie. “Yes and whats your name?” he asked politely. He was really cute. “Liz Carmicheal” She was so happy. He signed the pad then looked at me. “Do you want one too?” I smiled and nodded. I really like Angels and Airwaves I just have no idea what they looked like. “your name is..” he started. “Faith Larness.” I said. He stopped writing and looked up at me. “Faith Larness?” he asked. I nodded. “will you come with me please?”
“Umm yeah okay.” He lead us down a hall into a small room to the left then opened the door and walked in. I followed. The other band playing that night was Taking Back Sunday. They all turned their heads as we walked in. Tears went in my eyes as I saw Adam look over at me. He blinked and got up. “Faith?”
“Yes.” I cant cry now I have to hold back the tears. Besides he hates me. I told him I never wanted to see him again. He came over and gave me a hug. “I haven’t seen you in what a year?” I smiled.
“Yeah a year..” Should I tell him? Should I tell him that he has a baby girl? It would be the right thing, but its not the right time, not here in front of everyone, in front of Matt. Matt was sitting drinking a cup of coffee. He had a girl sitting next to him. He didn’t look my way once.
“How have you been?” Adam asked me.
“Good. And you?” He looked good, he had light blonde hair. He had a huge goofy smile on his face.
“I am great. Wow you look good. Did you get a boob job?” he asked glancing at my huge boobs.
“Uhh no. Can I talk to you alone for a while?” he nodded. I dragged him out of the room and into the hallway. I shut the door. “Adam remember when we had sex a year ago..?”
“Not really, we were pretty wasted. But I kinda do..”
“Well,” I paused how should I say this. “I…..You….We..didn’t use a condom….” He blinked. Then looked into my eyes.
“Are you trying to say what I think your trying to say?” I looked away from him. “Faith, did you get pregnant?” I nodded. The tears came down. I fell to the floor bawling. “Im sorry.” 147

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I can’t believe I got her pregnant. I never make mistakes like that. She fell down and kept saying Im sorry adam. Over and Over again. “Shh Shh no no its not your fault get up come on up.” I helped her get up. She was shaking all over. I have to admit I am actually kind of excited. “Faith, listen to me. I want you to meet me here in this spot after the show okay?” She nodded. I bent down and kissed her. I slipped my tounge in between her lips. “I have to go..:” I whispered and I left towards the stage. The show went well the same as always. I couldn’t stop thinking of Faith. I have been thinking about her over the last year. She is so beautiful.
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