In the fourteen years, she had lived her life, never had she felt this intense pain for loving someone so much. She stood up and went in her bathroom. She stopped when she saw her reflection. She smiled a sad, self-mocking smile. “ Your such a piece of sh*t!” She glared at her reflection. She couldn’t help but look away. She couldn’t help but hate herself. She couldn’t help but cry once again. She sadly caressed her reflection, before shattering it, drawing blood on her fisted right hand. “ Just like my heart” She muttered, laughing bitterly at herself. She then looked up, she saw her reflection scattered into so many little, unrepairable pieces of puzzles, truly just like her heart. Her heart was now broken, shards of it was scattered all over… never knowing when someone would mend them all together. Her knees gave out, letting her weak, slim form sink on the bathroom floor. She crawled in the tub, where she hugged her knees and cried. Crying was the only thing she could do. She was about to fall asleep in the cold metal tub, when she heard her phone ring. She stood up and walk towards her nightstand where her cell phone was currently laying, then she saw who was calling.
“ What do you want?” She asked trying to cover the fact that she was still crying.
“I was just seeing if your doing alright” He said in a carefree manner that seem to hurt her feelings.
“What do you think? Am I doing alright?!” the broken girl exclaimed.
“ I think so, coz I think you got over the fact that we’re over, so …bye now! See you around!” he said, somewhat happy.
“ Fuck You!” She screamed.
“ …” but she heard no reply, he already cut the line.
She sunk on the floor, next to her queen size bed crying, but she immediately stopped when she heard her computer. It was her friend giving her an IM…
“ God… you hate me don’t you, coz I hate you” She muttered before going to her computer to chat with her friend. 2
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Kay- her friend
Jaded_emo_lover- the nameless protagonist
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Kay: Hey! How are ya?
Jaded_emo_lover: I’m good
, u?Kay: So far so good…
Jaded_emo_lover: glad to here…
Kay: well gtg…
Jaded_emo_lover: byebye!3
After chatting with her friend for about an hour, she couldn’t help but give out a heavy sigh. “I’m already on my computer so why not check my mail” She muttered somewhat defeated. After checking all her mail. She plopped herself in her bed finally falling in a deep dreamless sleep. “ I will never love again” She said completely serious. “Hahahahaha!!! That was the most stupid phrase anyone could ever think of” She said smiling. 4
Even when the world may seem to bring her down, even when no one may love her ever again. It seems as though… she could never die… or maybe she always forget about killing herself at the end of it all… Once more.. The broken girl survived the unbearable pain that world had brought her once more.5
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