Love Torn

How should i go about my current situation. Im in love with someone who doesn't know if she loves me that way. A friend of mine is in the same situation with this girl yet i found out some damaging info which would break his heart. It bothers me not bcuz ive grown a lil colder inside but i hate to see others in pain. I know her better than anyone else in this world, i know she needs someone always by her side. It broke my heart the first time n shattered it the second. Whats left still pulses with love and life, but why should i bother. Maybe it because she was my first true love and as the saying goes, you never forget your first. Maybe its because the way we broke up or the fact we were together for two years. Now that i understand her current situation as best as i can from here. I am trying to find a way to be by her side. The only possible course i have to leave the military and live with her but idk if she would take me back. Should i keep trying to be her lover and not a friend. She said she wants me to be a friend but I know theres more to it than that. It just thinking about us hurts her and idk wot i can do to lessen her pain. She says she loves talking to me and loves me, but as what i cannot say. She promised me children and idk where to go from there. I wanted children with her but I wanted to be the responsible one of the two of us and now i dont know if she even wants them with me. Life used to be so simple n now its one clusterfuck to the next. Owell, either way ill b fine a sumwot happy. Im spent, laters all1