a thank you letter [finished]

To All My Characters Whose Existences I致e Fucked Up:1

Daniel, I知 sorry you値l be pining after someone for the rest of your life.
Rei, I知 sorry I致e mangled and destroyed you time and time again.
Evelyn, I知 sorry you were abandoned.
Boy, I知 sorry your world is falling apart.
Michael and friend, I知 sorry you had to be witness to such catastrophe.
Gengi, I知 sorry you池e a sadistic and masochistic bastard.
Vera, I知 sorry you don稚 understand.
Steve, I知 sorry you池e haunted by envy and ignorance.
Harry, I知 sorry you have to say goodbye.
Yasuo, I知 sorry I drove you to suicide.
Angela, I知 sorry I forced you to betray.
William, I知 sorry you had to choose.
James, I知 sorry you care for money more than friendship.
Tristan, I知 sorry you were murdered by the one you loved the most.
Collin, I知 sorry you are unable to trust.
Saul, I知 sorry you have no courage.
Nameless, I知 sorry there痴 nothing to be done.2

And thank you for taking it all in good humour, for not abandoning me, for persevering no matter your flaws and predicament. Thank you for being obedient and for taking control when it was necessary, for struggling and hurting and loathing and loving, for living with passion and dispassion, for changing, for your unwillingness to change, for everything you think, for everything you say, for everything you do. Thank you for comforting me when I am alone and thank you for entertaining me when I am bored. Thank for giving my free time a use and thank you for giving my words a meaning. Thank you for loving me without knowing me. Thank you for living with me without realizing I exist. Thank you for all you were, all you are, and all you値l ever be. I don稚 know what I壇 do without you.3

I知 sorry that, animated, you feel hardship and pain and the sting of tears and the wrenching of your heart. I知 sorry there is death and I知 sorry there is life. I知 sorry that I can稚 lock you up in Eden or Xanadu or the Elysian Fields or Zion to live out your days in eternal contentment. I知 sorry you exist.4

But ever am I grateful for it. Daniel, Rei, Boy, Michael and friend, Gengi, Vera, Steve, Harry, Yasuo, Angela, William, James, Tristan, Collin, Saul, all those I haven稚 mentioned, and all those who are unfortunate enough not to warrant names, I love you all without conditions, without limitations, and without uncertainty.
Thank you for being.5

- unsigned6