What you don't know:Eight

Dinner for three1

Silence sits between mom
and I-
talking but not really speaking at all.2

she's looking over proofs
making three minute phone calls
picking off her food.3

she doesn't look at me once.
doesn't ask about my day.
pretends I'm invisible
not real
nobody sitting here.4

Silence whispers in my ear
but I can't hear him at all.5

******6

Spring Break7

Two more days until freedom.
Two weeks of abolute boredom.8

My boss want let me work
overtime. told me to enjoy
my vacation.9

Fuming
I draw disfigured bodies
climbing up a thorn ladder.
homework sits on my desk,
undone.
room's messy again.
week old clothes in piles.10

could clean.
or nap.11

Mouse isn't online.12

sighs.13

I am looking at a repeative
daily routine of
staring at the pictures taped
to my ceiling.14

******
Official Spring Break15

Saturday16

8:48
Take a shower
smoke a joint
spray the bathroom with air freshener17

9:22
fix a big bowl of cereal
eat alone18

9:45
wash dishes19

9:58
do nothing at all20

10:15
draw the broken clay pot
laying in the bushes out front21

11:04
sit outside in the backyard
watch Bjou pratice violin22

12:10
sleep outside on the lounge
chair.23

1:00
eat lunch24

2:00
stare at the wall.25

2:58
bored.bored.bored.26

3:00
I can't wait until
spring break is over.27

******28

say something29

I'm watching Bjou again.
There's nothing else to do.
She's standing at the curb
shuffling through the mail
frowning
frowning
smiles.30

I wish I had my sketchbook
with me.31

she walks back towards the house
sees me
waves, smiles.32

"West! Hey!"33

there's a lump in my throat.
hard
round
lump
and
stuck.34

All she said was 'Hey' and I go mute.35

I manage a wave.36

she waves back
disappears into her house.37

I feel stupid.38