Was a BestFriend

Last year i meet a guy named joe here on AP. Even though he lived in kentucky we still talked on yahoo and also on the phone. i remember when i meet him my life was a hurricane. i was going through so much that it made me crazy. but i believe if it wasnt for always being on my ass i would of never stopped cutting or never stop tryen to kill myself. its wiered i know. how can someone so far affect me like that. i guess he was that special one that made me realize that im worthbeing on the plant and shit. we loved each other we helped each other but the all the sudden it all changed. he had a gf that lived miles away from him and i was dateing older guys that he didnt approve of and i knew but i didnt care as long as i was happy. i asked him one day why is that we dont tlak much know more and he told me it was because he noticed that i imature. i asked him why and he saide because of how i date older guys and this b s. that was just stupid right there. he's gonna stop talken to me cuz of olders guys that ive dated. i was mad. we got into a stupid arguement about it and i tryed to explain why i go out with older guys but he didnt understand he put it as if it made me more immature. so i just got off the computer i was done with it but i cryed myself to sleep that night over him. i didnt know what i was going to do without him. he was my everything he heloed me become a better person. IF IT WASNT FOR HIM I WOULD BE DEAD! but i realized that i lost him that are time for friendship was over. that his job was done.......1